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[peter-fieldson10]

Quarantine On and Off

OK, I live in France, so the lockdown is surely not the same in USA or somewhere else, but speaking about France. We did have 2 months or lockdown. 

It was not the easier part but this Monday May the 11th the lockdown was off, well, I guess that it’s somehow a “beta test” for the real unlockdown. 

After 2 months of being captivated inside our appartement. As an autist person (I will surely make a post about that later, like later later cause I need to get more informations about it). It was a challenge to make every routine over. Anyway I guess that everyone on this little planet now what I’m talking about right now.

But what people doesn’t know is how they respond to the “not quarantine mode”. Personally I was somehow in between “I would like to get out but nothing is over yet” So I prefer to stay. stay home and enjoy the little time outside when I could. 

The global respond however was completely different, A LOTS of people just decided to get outside like nothing was happening. I’m not a judge and I wish I could remove that part of being a human that judge everything... 

I don’t understand people.... they claims to end the lockdown but the minute that the president put away the quarantine they go back to stupid mode. I know how frustrated but if you were around twitter lately, the trend was #Zara and yes all of them went there and also in “big shop store” I don’t understand them at all .... 

Anyway, I wish that all that lockdown thing will be out in December 2020 .... This year started well for me, but ... 

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exposure

Because I’m there, talking about myself about stupid stuffs that no one care. Even tho I know that very well, I posting still content on that platform. I guess that know the fact that Tumblr isn't really popular (also I don’t know how to use it very well) I don’t truly care if there 1 million or 2 person. I’m just posting there. 

But even tho, no one is gonna read or share or appreciate what I post or thoughts, I do have this feeling like I’m still doing something unusual. I could take my own diary and write to myself. Maybe because I have this little dream of being a content creator #youtube and #filmmaking but I find myself enjoying a lot clicking on that publish button or trying to get a story and catch the attention or something.

I also realize (maybe the wrong way) that I could go into a bad things, I share nothing more than just few things even tho I wish I could talk for hours on something (maybe this format is good on a youtube content creation) 

Anyway, I will try to keep going as far as I can, also, I’ll try to get better at storytelling or find a way to explain myself or who Am I the correct way...

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My Phone Story :

Well, because my own paper diary does not support pictures and I actually like to write my little life there. 

I wanna talk about my phone story. You see it, I prefer iPhone as others, but 3 years ago when I’m first move to Rennes for college (I was 20 years old), I had the power to build myself and buy what I wanted. So I decided to buy an iPhone 7 (yes the black version). It was cool but somehow, into a gym, someone stole it and gave it back the way you see. 

I was lucky, cause through the nightmare of police statement and trying to get my phone back the person that stole my phone gave it back to the owner of the gym that gave it back to me then. The person that stole my phone refund the price to replace it (375€ to replace an iPhone). So for the first year of being into a bigger city. It went not really good. but I had the money to replace it via the the person. 

Then I have to mention the fact that, during summer in 2018, I put my phone into water (it was so hot that I though it would explode !) but water comes int ... and I had to replace again my iPhone (yes 375 again) .. 

Then Later on, I bought my first apple watch (it was a series 1). 

a little while after that, when the iPhone X came out, I .... drift off ... the second pictures is there. 

I took a samsung s8+, I was trying to convince myself as other people is trying to say “This samsung phone as more features and his surely better than the iPhone X than I wanted” 

After 7 months of being on samsung phone. I ditch it with the help of my dad. Yes when I first came in this bigger city I had the money for it, but because I had bought my first iPhone and replace it again and again and because life in a bigger city is more expensive, I hadn’t the financial to take back an iPhone... and guess what phone I took ..

An iPhone 7 pink, I loved it. But you know what funny about it, I had it for a while then I met my girlfriend back in 2018 (November) until 2019 mid year. In mid year of 2019 i decided to buy an iPhone SE AND gave my iPhone 7 to my girlfriend because I wanted us to be on iPhone... . it was fucked up and actually te iPhone SE was deda couple months after that... (névér buy cheap if the only reason is just the price) 

After my iPhone SE was dead .... I didn’t take back my iPhone 7 ... I ... Took the old phone of my girlfriend ... and it was ... a samsung S8 ...

Yes, I stepped back .. now since almost a year, I have a samsung s8 that I hate everyday dreaming about getting an iPhone (I work with it, macbook and stuffs). 

The reason why I’m making that post thet no one will see or read because it’s fucking too long now is that in May 2020 (27th witch is just really really soon) I will finally have the Iphone SE (Second generation and an apple watch series 5) 

It takes me about 3 years to finally get back on where I want to be. I know it’s a story about ridiculous phones and I should be happy no matter what phone I have cause a lots of people doesn't have this kind of “luck” but it takes me 3 years to get back to a stable way of living. (I guess that I have some basics to live you know, for some people, it’s a great appartement or a really good car..) 

Anyway, that was a really bad storytelling moment that I actually kinda like but I’m not really good at storytelling yet actually so ..... well anyway 

May, Thursday 7th 2020

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In 2017, I bought all the equipment to do what i wanted the most, create something, taking the idea in my mind and make it to the final end, witch means somewhere like on youtube. But we are in 2020, and I’ve done few videos for myself, but you know, only in private section ... and I wish I can have the ball to make it real. 

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This is something that I should put more often, myself.. I don’t have a lots of pictures of myself cause … I’m the photographer, I’m the one that takes pictures. and No matter what you think about myself cause … well I don’t care that much about that, I have to put myself more, not there especially but in life in general 

This is not a really good pictures at all but .. Like this tumblr thing, I have to start somewhere after all 

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How You Become No one To Someone ?

My life, especially with quarantine, is really nothing more than someone else’s life ... but I don’t want to be famous or get likes or be spotted by whatever things .. I just want to make believe people that a simple thing can become a story. 

When I start watching Casey Neistat content, I was so impressed how productive he was that I start running, waking up earlier ... all of that minor improvement by just watching someone else’s story ... 

I don’t want to  be Casey Neistat Remake but I don’t want to let my life through a ridiculous routine like wake up, hating my job and wait for the weekend to just be on my couch watching youtube all day long or complaining, I want to create and make something from scratch to a real concret product that can help someone. 

Anyhow, I’ll let that there, just in case if I’m finding myself in few years, nostalgic as always I find that what I thought in 2020. maybe in few years I’ll be what I wanna be inside my head.

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I guess that I have to present myself and make something, it’s quarantine time after all who cares ? 

So, the bigger one is “Mouffy” and the little one is “Woody”. 

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Why tumblr ?

I guess that because I was too shy to publish on regular social media (with friends, family and more). My first idea is that I wanted to make videos on youtube cause I have this energy to make things like animation or vlogs... It’s been 2 years that I though about that .. 2 years ! and I haven’t done anything yet .. 

And so this tumblr, It’s the first time that I make something on that and .. it’s just basically my life and even myself I don’t care about that .. but I guess that I need to start somewhere on something... 

I don’t even know if I’m gonna do more than this ridiculous post. 

Do I want to make videos ? on what ? why me ? why I’m shy in front of the camera when I have my camera turned on me everytime ? ....