I'm a player

AKA Nicole Bunny. Or Michelle In Pink

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Sorry folks. But you might like to know that I’m not NicoleBunny or MichelleInPink or any of the other names I’ve masqueraded on here. I’ve been caught playing games with people. This account will be deleted shortly.

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You are slow as

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If you ever see this you should know that every day you on my mind not in a stalker obsessive way but cos I want to know you are ok and partly because I need it to close that chapter and move on . You created huge shifts in my life, and I think I barely understood you, when I re-read old messages, I see a much deeper meaning to them than what I initially understood, perhaps I’m just going mental. If you could maybe just let me know your ok I wish you nothing But the best but if you need me I can be there like u never left xx

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I understand it now. I know I couldn’t understand it then. Give me a sign and I’m there

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In the height of lock down I went out a lot, at night around 3am a time when even busy cities with nothing to fear get just a little quieter. The kenopsic backdrop of a once bustling city , was heightened, ironically by that which it hid , the occasional distant sign of life , or hushed voice, the bleakness causing reality and imagination to join like two question marks hooked together but pulling in opposite directions. The only knowledge you could gain from this creepy seemingly different dimension is that yes it’s “new” but don’t ever let them tell you, and don’t you ever believe that this is “normal”.

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Lucerne

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I would like people to realise that there is more one way to live life both socially and financially, and for people to realise that we are many individuals who make up one whole. The structure of society has meant that for many our true skills, and beauty is not revealed as material and status is prized above everything else creating a “me against the world” mentality in most. This is only furthered as we enter a neo-liberal distopia where service to self is exalted through constant media, advertising and subliminal marketing in films and television and supported by the false narrative around the need for social distancing.

People’s expectations for life have been so lowered that they cannot see what is possible. There’s like a ceiling on their imagination, but what we need to realise is our imagination constructs our reality. I have memories or thoughts of something very different, maybe not in pictures but in feelings, but its hard to convey to others, especially when their conscious is so beat down that they are thankful to not be starving.

I want people to realise there are different ways but society has truly been hypnotized by television, and the biggest battle is with duality. People assume that there is either right or wrong. They think that by considering different paths it means that that must be the right path anbd that it invalidates the path they have been on. It doesn’t. There is no right or wrong way but we must be allowed, as free willed individuals to assess all the paths available to us and not have them hidden from us based on concern of the dangers or malignance of the possibilities.

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Proof the war on drugs is. Designed to kill you :

None of the arguments people make for making recreational drugs to me stand up.

Taking the legal recreational drug alcohol as an example we find that when quality and purity are regulated the amount of people who die from trying a typical dose of several units of alcohol is virtually zero

Let’s look at the arguements against drugs

Drugs kill people

Very few people die from the direct consumption of drugs in terms of the overall deaths in uk they account for 0.4% - 0.8%

A majority of these deaths are caused by irregularity in the strength of the drug

Interestingly when the drug mephedrone became popular in the UK and it was legal the amount of drug deaths dropped as people switched from unregulated cocaine to legally regulated mephedrone

Mephedrone was made illegal via media hysteria. The amount of drug deaths reversed its decreasing trend and continue to rise. IS THIS THE ACTIONS OF A GOVERNMENT WHO CARE ABOUT PEOPLE???

So let’s take the argument drugs kill people

Drugs kill people

Why?

Because of their strengths and purity are unregulated

Why is this so?

Because drugs are illegal (. regulation is not applied to criminal activities)

Why are drugs illegal?

..... the only conclusion you can draw is that drugs are illegal TO kill people rather than BECAUSE they do

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This is pure beauty in the form of words , to me at least

Swallowtail by bjm

I see it's hard to be alone in everyway

When you hear so much of I give ups

In every word they say

But we make love forever

And nothing fills that space

Not smashing in my door last night

And screaming in my face

Can't you see it's hard for me

To send you on your way

But I've heard so much of I give up

In every word you say

But we make love forever still

And I'll not fill that space

By punching all your front teeth out

And laughing in your face

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I’m not fake

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Please ma’am!!??

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#poetry & #pics from nicolebunnyme

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From feb 2018 #poetry #nicolebunnyme

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You Time

Time is a pointless way of measuring how long I’ve known you

Through the tension

the fighting

the laughing

the smiling

the knowing

it’s always our love that shines through

The arc of our short lives bent towards a better future

Butterfly tonight beauty courses through you

As a child , grasping at roses until a thorn cut into

The effect a wound that’s unique and in its size could only consume you

But if times a relative and hurtled backwards towards you

I wouldn’t stop the pain cos the hurt is what made you

If I love everything about u then I love the pain that formed you

It’s ironic that his lust is what made me adore you

I can’t and I wouldn’t go backwards to save you but I’m there at your side when cards of the future are thrown facedown on the edge of the table, but like snap a carbon copy Ill take it I swear tho, just squeeze on my hand and don’t you dare let it go no?

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