I donāt think I ever been in so much pain in my life. This one is very deep, slowly spreading the pain in every point of your soul. I never truly understand what it means to ā to love more means to hurt more ā until you left. Itās almost 10 months since you left and I donāt think I fully processed it all yet. I function back to who I was yet Iām just as broken as I heard the news the first time. Itās unexplainable how much pain Iām in now, I wish there is a cure for this. I wish you you were my least favourite brother but itās impossible to not love you as much as I did. I miss you Aa, everyday every second you are all I can think about.














