[raconteurornot]

for the lucifer in the mirror

you know of a lucifer in the mirror you say

as if it is the halo that makes an angel,

then so be it, blindly i would follow,

darling, i would let you drag me to the pits of hell.

i am nothing but a blank canvas,

come, fill me in, i would let you color me the ugliest shade of dread,

and i am nothing but decaying autumn,

i would let you set fire to me till it bled.

i know i am giving up my sanity

by putting it on your hands, on grave peril;

still absurd as it sounds, it has been heavy,

always too heavy for me to carry.

and i know i should be diving into a lake

in this cold heartless night, i should not be here right now.

is it restlessness or longing? i should be

running into your arms but i do not know where you are.

my mind had refused to write laws

for the felonies you committed against my heart,

so look at me and look for me now,

come find me before our evermore falls apart.

-mai

[petricarousel]

the sound of wind that blurs my soul,

the heat that rises numbs me cold.

the waves come up and reach my feet,

and through my eyes, my heart shall bleed.

i held the sand as i laughed,

the cloth of nature held me half;

the broken side which slipped away,

to find a field of lonely grass.

the more we grow, the more they tell,

the lies of shadows that we spell.

but if they're meant to stay alive,

make your heart a grave for mine.

I'm still in here, at the shore.

the prize of greed, lust and more;

reminds me of the things we know.

find me now, my petrichor.