dungeons deep and caverns old | peter and edmund
The way the castle was built was something Peter didnât quite understand. He knew how to cross through it, knew every path and secret crevice, had learned its insides and changed them since the moment it was proclaimed their home by Aslanâs paw. But he could never get himself to picture it the way he knew Susan could, for example, like a vivid sketch inside her mind that she could jot down in beautiful watercolours. Peter knew which turns led to which chambers but he didnât understand the ways the air flew in and out, the way it stayed up in the air and didnât crumble into the beachâor at least, he didnât know enough for his satisfaction. When they had overseen the projects for the new tunnels and every time they wanted to change or modify the existing chambers and towers, Peter had to check on the project and give his green light so they could continue but he was not in charge of any of them nor did he have the capacity to understand the principles that went into a project of the magnitude.
He knew certain things, though, out of touch and experience. He knew the way the gales hit the windows up on the highest towers, slamming into the glass like desperate bodies. He knew the way the chimneys in the first floor below ground were the warmest, although he didnât know if it was because of the dark or because it was the servantâs first floor. He knew, most of all, that the openings at the sides of the cliff made the dungeons and the lower rooms of the castle, have the sort of drafts that chilled one to the bones during the ugly days and nights. Cair Paravel had been carved into stone and slammed by water that was not warm and every cavernous room below ground was proof of this. Before, he and Isla had made sure that the guards, especially the giants at the vault, who were tall and had a lot of blood that was hard to get flowing and easy to cut, had enough fireplaces and blankets to fight their way through the biting cold that was merciless at night.
Except, of course, now there was no Isla. Peter had left Tommen up in their tower, with Lilia tucking him in and playing her part, and only his booted steps had echoed as he went down the thousand steps to reach the vault. He carried fire and blankets, as it had become custom, a cracking torch to light his way through the darkness of the lower levels. The darkened halls smelled of soil and never changed shape even during daylight. There was perpetual fire in some places, the ones he tried his best to reach first. He had the staff send out warm meals every night to the guards that had to spend their nights guarding entries that they had never seen, that had not needed to be guarded before. The twisted paths that led nowhere but that needed someone there, just in case. The dungeons smelled of sea salt, close as they were to the walls that hit the sea, and were always wet. His boots picked up the dust and turned it to mud as he went towards the last part of his journey: the vault room.
Peter always thought it smelled rusty. Like the oxide compounds they had learned about in school, the first chemistry class that the war had ripped off his hands. In one of his recent nightmares, he looked down to see his hands turning steel, red at the edges, and then the steel turned stone and then there came the soft feeling of guilty satisfaction and he woke up to look at Tommen, who slept in the same bed as him since the night Isla had been turned into a statue. He greeted the giants and the guards at the vault, he gave them their blankets and let them be, feigning ignorance at their pointed questions of âanother night in here, king Peter?â as if they didnât all know. The boys inside the vault, that looked to be guarding the mountains of gold but were, instead, guarding the statue in the middle of the cavern were the least talkative of all. They nodded their thanks and turned around and, like every night he had come down, they went away and left him alone with what remained of his wife.
There was a draft in the place where Islaâs statue stood. The wind flew in and hit his back mercilessly. Dried off his tears instantly. He thought it was too cruel that he could not move her to a warmer place. She mustâve been cold. She didnât like the cold. She liked to tuck her frozen feet between his thighs to warm them up, and sneak her arms around his waist, and nuzzle her nose against his neck. He had ran out of blankets and the wind kept flowing in. It was too cruel.
Two seconds tore through the blissful bubble that Edmund had lived in for the past couple of days. Alone with Petra and their engagement, it was easy to forget the struggles of the actual world; it was easy to forget the reality of what had happened. This discovery didnât settle within him. His entire life he had been drawn to the graveness of situations, unable to see the light in the darkness. Somehow, when Petra walked into the room, she lifted him up. She thawed his heart and made him see the good in the world. She was a breathe of sunlight in the dark corners of his mind, where he spent hours searching book after book for something to change the make up of the real reality.Â
The realty that had consumed his life. It had worried Petra, she had said so. If Edmund wasnât in his study, he was asking Lilia how things were, or trying to find Peter. He wanted to be there for his brother and for Tommen. He wanted to find a way to de-stone Isla, but the memories of that dark magic were restless in his mind. Unless a miracle happened and Aslan returned...
Edmund hung his head.Â
Today was supposed to be joyful. It was going to be a step to announcing his engagement to the entire country. He wanted Peter to be excited for him, but when Edmund found Lilia inside his chambers instead, the excitement for himself went away. When she said where she thought Peter had gone, Edmundâs guilt crept in.Â
Suddenly, with the bubble burst, Edmund found himself cold again like a draft from the dungeons had crawled up to the main floors of the castle. Like he was a young boy again in that damned castle of ice and without Petra to warm him up again. In fact, she was miles away from him in mind, while memories he worked hard on concealing flooded the gates.Â
He walked away from the quarters as quickly as he had came, heading in the direction where the deepest parts of his current nightmares lay. While it was a nightmare for him, it was Peterâs reality. Loosing the ones one loved was never easy.Â
An image of Eithne flickered in his mind, as he descended towards the vault. She might have been alive, but he still mourned her death for all those months. He lost her forever in that brutal attack. Edmund would never get her back, as she had returned and there was too much loss to mend where the two now resided. Different people, different places in their lives. As far as Edmund was concerned, Eithne did die all that time ago. And a part of him did, as well.Â
Every day, he woke up and moved on with his life. Every day, he stuffed these emotions deeper within him, away from the world, and away from Petra. Yet he couldnât help the dangling of guilt that came with the thought of her, the question of what if. If she had never went away, would he already be married?
But he, also, couldnât imagine a future without Petra.
Upon reaching the edge of the vault, he glanced between the guards and nodded. âDonât try and stop me.â He said, as he walked past. He hated being in this situation as much as Peter probably didnât want him to show up. After all, these moments were the only ones Peter had with his wife of literal stone.
The memories of the discovery rushed over him, and he pushed them away. Edmund could deal with his own pain, his own reality, but he couldnât deal with what Peter must be feeling. If he allowed himself to think about it, Edmund might not be able to help Peter at all.Â
Isla was everything to Peter. His wife, the mother of his son, his soul mate. The paranoia to avoid ever feeling like that caused Edmund to insist to train Petra in all types of fighting, not that Isla had stood a chance, not if the suspect already had the staff in his or her possession.Â
Bloody fury enraged him at the thought of the White Witchâs staff. The woman continued to leave despair even after her death. Her evil workings were manipulated by someone else, one just as evil, and Edmund swore at that moment this one would not get to see years of suffrage from the Narnian people. He didnât care what he had to do, but he would find the person and that person would justly received the fate they deserved.
That hate ran cold from the draft, but mostly the sight of Peter beside of his motionless wife. He shivered as he approached quietly, not speaking or making any noise. Stopping a few steps behind his brother, Edmund spoke. âLilia told me youâd be here. Thought youâd might want some company tonight.â













