took the midnight train

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Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Oh, it’s not – I don’t…mean like that. I know I’m not like annoying and I make enough money to be alright in that area, it’s just…I don’t know. I think I’d be a lot to take on. And that’s okay. I guess uh. I guess we’ll have to just see.

...I’m a lot to take on too, but um. I dunno. I think it’s...you can still be good for someone even if...there’s baggage. You just have to find someone whose baggage...you fit with? If that...makes sense. I dunno.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Yeah, I uh…I don’t really think so. There’s a lot here. But uh…you know. Maybe when I’m less a pain in the ass.

Everyone has shit. Doesn’t mean you can’t be loved. And you’re not a pain in the ass at all. You literally just offered to pay my bills, J. That’s - you’ll make someone happy. Seriously.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Oh! Oh, that…yeah, I didn’t follow. I don’t…know about that though. It’s uh…I’m not sure I’m…cut out for that kind of thing. Or well – I guess more aptly, I’m not sure anyone would be interested.

What? That’s crazy talk, of course they would be.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Wait, why would I not…be just me forever?

...what? It - you’ll you know...probably meet someone and...you know, have a family? Like...people kinda...it’s what they do, probably?

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

That makes a lot of sense. It’s…hard…sometimes, to buy things for just you when…other people come first, I think. It’s a mindset that I haven’t been able to break yet. Even though…you know. It’s just me.

Well, hey, look at it this way. You totally won’t be just you forever, so you should spoil yourself while you still can.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Well…maybe not never, but. Not in a very long time. I guess the military sort of…warped that view. I tend to just buy things I absolutely need. I don’t…buy things that I just want if I don’t need them.

I’m...usually like that with myself too, I’ll be honest. Everything I spend is for the kid, y’know? 

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Buy myself…something nice? I don’t really…I don’t really do that. It’s…I don’t know. I guess I’ve never…thought to.

Never? You should. It’s good once in awhile.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Well, I know, it’s just…a little help goes a long way, I guess. I just wanted to offer. It’s the least I can do.

I appreciate it, honestly. It means a lot, but I’ll be okay. You deserve to buy yourself something nice anyway. 

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

I could help out if need be. I mean I don’t have like…a lot but. I can definitely do what I can.

What? No, Jordan that’s not...you don’t have to do that. I always find a way to scrape by.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

Mm, that…really does suck. My payments are coming up too. Middle of the month, generally, for me. 

God, yeah, mine just feel like they come day after day. Never stops.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

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jordanshephard‌:

You look…unhappy.

Opening bills isn’t reallllly my favorite part of the day.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh, good.

Love it. Cool, cool, cool.

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Oh god.

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jordanshephard:

I work with the horses a lot? So I feed them, make sure they’re brushed and rubbed down. I take the ones that don’t have appointments out too. Make sure they’re exercised. Just, you know…I take care of them.

Aw, that’s...actually really cool. Horses are really awesome. I’ve been meaning to take Malc out someday, maybe.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh god.

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jordanshephard:

I’m alright. There’s been a light case load, so I’ve had a lot of free time. I’ve been helping out on the ranch a lot more.

That ah...that’s really awesome. What like...do you usually get to do there at the ranch?

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh god.

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jordanshephard:

I’m sure. Here.

Thanks. ...how are you?

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh god.

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jordanshephard:

I know I don’t have to. But you’re tired. Might as well take advantage of the sleep when you can get it.

...you’re sure? Maybe just..a few minutes wouldn’t...be so bad.

[peyton-sokolowski]

Oh god.

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jordanshephard:

Yeah…he’s a boy, I guess. Night and day difference. He should be alright now though. He made friends. They’ll tire him out. You can take a nap if you want. I’ll watch him. And your stuff.

Yeah, they’re just...so much to handle. It’s crazy. He’s worth it, but...man. I’ve been working so much. Just...tired. But, oh, gosh no. You don’t have to do that.