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My friend Clarissa shared Phox to me this evening. I really like the way the accompaniments work with the vocalist through the songs. She is still the focus of the music however the instrumentalists accentuate everything that she is doing.

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Raynen and I - taken by Ellen Burke 

Kangaroo Valley, November 2015. 

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Corazón Nómada, by Rebeca Lane

amazing artist i discovered this morning - rebeca lane 

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Eco Scouting

Scouting skills and tools to use when engaged in blockades/forest activism/apocalypse. 

- running games - practice running away from a security guard

- navigational skills - gps, radio skills 

- hiding games with camo on 

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This morning two brave and determined students locked on to machinery inside Santo’s controversial wasteward treatment facility inside the Pilliga State Forest. 

The protest highlights an upcoming court challenge in the NSW Land and Environment Court concerning the approval process of the facility.

“I am taking this action as a result of a failure on the part of our democracy and politicians to adequately protect our water and the communities that depend on it.” said Peter Newall, 20, a geography student from the University of Sydney.

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Claude Cahun, Don’t Kiss Me

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In case you were wondering

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Black-eyed Suzie - The Whitetop Mountaineers

Recorded at Newstead Live on Sunday 23rd January 2011. Jackson Cunningham, guitar; Martha Spencer, banjo.

Not really sure what this song is about, but that Banjo playing is impressive. 

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Banjo Roll 1

3, 2, 1 , 5, 1, 2, 3, 1 

Thumb, Middle, Index, Thumb

Index, Middle, Thumb, Index 

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Questions

What do I absolutely love in life? I absolutely love the people that fight and create despite the constant struggles faced in pushing to be an artist or an activist in this world. I love playing music with other people, collaborating and coming up with new ideas together. Being in the wilderness, amongst the trees sharing knowledge and information with other people. I love having deep conversations which transcend and go on for hours. I love travelling and seeing the world and experiencing new things and adventures. I love my family and their undying support despite our differences. 

What are my greatest accomplishments in life so far?

Finishing the HSC and performing a Fiona Apple song to 3 judges, being part of music count us in with John Foreman, Sailing from Cairns to Airlie Beach, Hitchhiking from Brisbane to Byron Bay, Making $200 busking with Genevieve in Cairns, standing up against coal expansion in the Leard State Forest, standing up against sexual assault with my friends support, moving to Byron Bay for 3 months and going to the beach everyday. Writing songs with ease and improvising with new people. 

What would I stand for if I knew no one would judge me?

If my life had absolutely no limits and I could have it all and do whatever I wanted, what would I choose to have and what would I choose to do?

I would choose to make music with all the musicians I loved in the world, to have a property and a space where activists could go to work on campaigns and rejuvenate themselves in nature, to see new national parks and wilderness sites every single day in a beautiful tiny house crafted by myself, to own a sailboat that i built myself and travel a crew of friends around the world or the pacific islands. 

What would I do if I had one billion dollars?

Own a boat and a property that activists could go to in nature

Who do I admire most in the world? 

I admire my friends Kelly, Freya, Laura and Foxy who are all incredibly committed and determined women who use their skills to encourage and empower others within activist spaces, 

I admire my parents for their care and nurturing support and their questions which push me to be a better person every day. 

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Things that need to change for my mental health and for my life:

- thought patterns 

- reliance on other people for emotional support. stop processing emotions through other people 

- my relationship with myself needs to strengthen through meditation, playing music and writing. 

- confidence

- relationship with raynen 

- focus on my current goals 

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Summer plans

- Play at the Kangaroo Valley Folk Festival from the 16-18th October 

- Go to climb school in November and reinvigorate my love for activism, the environment and hang out with friends. 

- Go sailing to the pacific islands and learn more skills in Sailing 

- Start a touring dance/gypsy/punk/folk band 

- Go to the beach everyday 

- Make music 

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Weather me through the storm

Im a red eyed bleeding a pebble stone on the beach pick it up and throw it into the waves and i don't flinch a bit. 

Im waiting for the days of cradling in the ocean to the limbs of a cherry heart who I'm wanting but not wanting. I want and not want desire be and desire go as you cycle off on a journey and I sail on my own. 

I want your flute to tangle through the melodies on my guitar and to lift me up when I’m staring into the dark. When my brain is weathered and I’m too tired to do anything. The sun is hot and weary on my skin. My body feels useless to me.

I bled in your fry pan, floating in space. The stains on the mattress make my tummy ache, I’m sorry I'm a feral at heart. I’ll die in a storm and tear my lungs apart.   

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I want

I want

I want to leave university and save money 

I want to go to Alice Springs and do conservation work

I want to go visit Luca in Byron Bay  

I want to connect with people in ways beyond the physical and through these connections create, collaborate and be inspired. 

I want to climb trees and spend weeks on end surrounded by landscapes and seas. 

I want to stop craving Ray.  

I want to get stronger in my yoga practice 

I want to stop smoking and take care of my lungs and my body 

I want to smell like ylang ylang all the time 

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Friends

I’m clinging on to things that exist in my mind. Their are chemical energy beams that we are projecting at each other, streaming beaming bouncing and connecting. We are connecting and you are laughing and I am laughing, but then their is this silence at the end telling me that despite all this laughter my feelings are wrought with confusion and i am continually left wanting more. 

I want more of this laughter, i want more of your affection, i want more of your eyes, your rose/cardamon smell, your connection but want is desire and desire is lust and lust is something that can lead to mistrust and all you need right now is a loving friend. 

A loving friend, a friend who gives hugs, a friend who shows interest and who listens. I am all of that, but this is all energised with a desire and a yearning for you and your lover kinda love. But I know this doesn't exist.

It doesn't exist because I know I need to put you in a little box in my brain that says friends.

Friends can be lovers and friends can be friends. I think we just need to be friends.

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These are my fresh new piercings, hello!