112 Days in Purgatory - 1 step forward, 3 steps back.
ooof, itās been some time, hasnāt it? In between working and polishing off my ethics resubmission, I havenāt had much chance to fart let alone anything else.
thereās been some knock backs too, small things, minor even, but they just add unnecessary stress to our lives and my plate is so full, I donāt deal with them in the best way. Today, for instance I went to the gym - yes I know very healthy hooray me š but upon starting my workout, I smashed my phone screen. I was quoted Ā£75 in the end, to replace it and it took most of the afternoon finding a shop that didnāt want to rip me off. But my plans for that day had gone, I couldnāt have waited because I was getting splinters of glass in my fingers and tbh, I didnāt want that near my face.
And itās little things like that, being a working class student I feel it. The money and time are precious - I could have really done without it. Iām not insured either, because over the last 10 years, Iāve had to replace 2 phone screens at a total cost of about Ā£175. My bank wouldāve charged Ā£12 for protection thatās included in my account, which is Ā£1,440 in insurance (minus the excess), so I know Iām making an economical choice - I just couldāve done without it!
another weird thing that Iām learning to juggle now Iām part time, is teaching experience. The way higher education is in the uk at the moment, there is no budget to pay students to teach on a module. Okay annoying but fine, so I have to get work elsewhere- I think thatās obvious? Now Iām being asked to teach on days Iām working and I have to say no and they respond to me like Iām the problem? And I canāt explain enough that working enables me to study but it doesnāt seem to sink in.
it all feels weird right now, the vibes are off!
