Peek into my life @phleeltr - Tumblr Blog

We're all in the same game; different levels. Dealing with the same hell; different devils.

Once you've met the right person everyone else becomes irrelevant.

I can't seem to comprehend why we can never have a civil conversation to talk about our problems without you raising your voice, getting mad, then shutting the door and walking away from the problem. Causing us to be back at square one.

When you try so hard to make things go right and it doesn't... I try so hard to take care of you. To make sure you male the right decisions. Only I can do so much and the rest is up to you to meet me halfway. Except you don't. It hurts so much because at the end of the day I am mad out to be the bad person.. In the end I will get blame for if something was to happen. Not by you but others. If you don't want me to stress, cry, or be sad then why don't you meet me halfway. Why can't you understand why I say or do what I say. Why can't you just go with it instead of fighting it. I'm so tired of doing my best to make things right just for you to do the opposite. Why am I caring for you 100 if you aren't caring 100? Why? Do you purposely want me to look stupid? Everyday I keep trying. I keep thinking. I keep doing what I think is suppose to be right. I feel so alone and confused. I feel like it's just me when I thought it's suppose to be us. How come it's so difficult for us to communicate. To make things work. Why must it be so hard for you to just listen for a minute and try to see things in my shoes. Most importantly when you yourself do something wrong, why is it so hard to just fix it and not turn things on me. Why do you always flip the script? Nobody is perfect but that doesn't mean they can't fix things. Doesn't mean it's okay for them to do things over and over that continues to hurt another. Imperfection means learning and fixing.

Sometimes people don't realize how lucky they are to get to spend time with people they care about. How fortunate it is to be able to see them. Many don't realize when people care for them. I wish I got to see my sisters all the time... unfortunately I don't and when I see someone that do and don't really take advantage of that it makes me so sad.