From The Ashes I Will Rise Again...

[thelovewhisperer]

I want you. I want to throw you against a wall, wrap your legs around my waist and kiss you. Kiss you until we have to stop to catch our breaths. I want you and only you. I want to take you on road trips that lead us to pulling over on the side of the road because we can’t keep our hands off each other. I want you and your flaws. I want your messy makeup from teary eyes as I hold you and talk to you about life. I want the 3am phone calls because you can’t sleep at night. I want to be yours and only yours. I want to taste all your cooking, even if it’s not good, even if it’s experimenting I’d have you cook every meal for the rest of my life. I want you. I want my trembling hands to grab your waist and dance with you in the middle of an empty room. I want to struggle on days when I can’t see you. I want to fight about meaningless stuff that will lead to meaningful sex. I want you. I want your hand to rest on my forearm as we enter a party, so I can reassure you that you are safe with me. I want to sing to you in the shower and have you shut me up with kisses because we both know I’m no singer. I want the ups and downs, the winter and summer days. I want you and only you…

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[phoenixrising927-blog]

So I did it... I made it through Valentine’s Day SINGLE.  I didn’t reach out for those that did not reach out for me.  I didn’t look for party penis to make me feel better. I didn’t reach out to the guys on the dating sites who were trying to be forward and creepily so.  Instead, I cancelled my membership.  F*ck it.  When it’s to happen... if it’s ever to happen... I will know. Til then, work and family.

What I did do is send gift cards to the kids, and to a couple of male friends who look out for me, without hitting on me or trying to see what they can score while I’m “newly single”.  I did send a message to “him”, telling him that I sent a gift for both boys, and I hope he had a good day.  I got no thank you. No Hi. Nothing but “you too”.  I shouldn’t be surprised. After all... he has a new relationship to try and not be lazy in. So be it. I did what was in my heart. If they didn’t find it in theirs to show gratitude, that says nothing about me, but everything about life without me in it.