#life without him

[thoughtsinmycrazzzyhead]

4 months ago today I lost the love of my life. It's unfortunate it takes loosing someone before we realize just how much we loved them. What I wouldn't give for just 1 more day with him. ❤️

[phoenixrising927-blog]

So I did it... I made it through Valentine’s Day SINGLE.  I didn’t reach out for those that did not reach out for me.  I didn’t look for party penis to make me feel better. I didn’t reach out to the guys on the dating sites who were trying to be forward and creepily so.  Instead, I cancelled my membership.  F*ck it.  When it’s to happen... if it’s ever to happen... I will know. Til then, work and family.

What I did do is send gift cards to the kids, and to a couple of male friends who look out for me, without hitting on me or trying to see what they can score while I’m “newly single”.  I did send a message to “him”, telling him that I sent a gift for both boys, and I hope he had a good day.  I got no thank you. No Hi. Nothing but “you too”.  I shouldn’t be surprised. After all... he has a new relationship to try and not be lazy in. So be it. I did what was in my heart. If they didn’t find it in theirs to show gratitude, that says nothing about me, but everything about life without me in it.

[aphroditesnudes]

I just want someone to look forward to

[lovinhim-wasred]

Have you ever met someone or fallen in love with someone and known that if something dreadful were to happen to him or her, you would no longer want to do life the way you had planned it for so long? There is a young man in my life who makes me feel like this. I can no longer imagine my life in the future without him. If anything were to happen to him, I would no longer want to continue the life I was planning on having. I would most likely become a nun or run an orphanage by myself because I would not be able to do my life the way I had been planning, if such a large part of that equation were taken away. I do not want to become an English teacher if he is not the one I come home to and talk about my day with. I do not want to become a mother if he is not the one I raise my children with. I do not want to become a wife if he is not the man becoming my husband.

[helloiamprince-blog]

Life Without Him: Prologue

At last I'm home and I'll be able to use my laptop again. It's the only thing that can help me forget the miserable day I had, yet again, having to live with that self-proclaimed King of the Campus. Why do I have to suffer the misfortune of having to meet him? He has a serious case of narcissism.

Something popped. A survey:

Please fill out the form below. Everything you disclose will be treated confidentially. 

Name:

Zoe Clark

Age:

16 years old

Sex:

Female

Have you ever met someone who's a paranoid pain in the ass?

Oh yes I definitely did.

Someone whose face you want to punch so hard?

Yes but I doubt it's gonna do much damage to his rhino-like skin.

Have you ever met someone who likes to make your life even more miserable than it already is?

And he doesn't stop until it's one percent less miserable than yesterday.

If you'd be given the chance to change something in the past, what would it be?

I would surely do my best to prevent us from ever meeting. I hate him so much I'm trembling with anticipation. My life would be a million times better without that idiot!

If you are finished answering the survey, please click the SUBMIT button. You will be well informed of the result after one month. Thank you for your cooperation.

I blinked. One month? That's quite a long time. Anyway, it doesn't matter. It's entirely hopeless. It's not like it's real.

I'm stuck with that Jerry Clarkson for the rest of my life.

[hintofvanilla]

[pattypancakes23]

Life Without Him

I didn’t want to admit it but I can’t keep him in my life anymore. Everything he has caused. He had me pushed my friends and family away. He caused so much pain. He had me worried about him leaving me. He’s done it twice, but this time I called the shots. I ended it with him, he came back in my life asking for forgiveness. I forgave him, took him back and he screwed up again. I’m done with him. Because when he wasn’t in my life I wasn’t hurting myself, I wasn’t crying myself to sleep every night, I wasn’t having these suicidal thoughts. For the first time I was happy and enjoying life but once I let him in back in my life everything went out the window. I started cutting, I started crying myself to sleep every night, I just wasn’t happy anymore. I thought I was but I wasn’t. And now that I ended it with him for good this time I’ve actually become happy and I’ve been one month clean. I thought I needed him in my life but honestly I never needed him at all. I’m happy, and I don’t need a guy to make me happy. Maybe one day I’ll find a guy who can make me twice as happy and won’t cause pain and will actually love me for me and just be amazing to me and won’t drive my friends and family away.

[young-dope-sad]