sparkle mode

Tessa/ 24/She/her

[thewarmvoid]

“Thought that was a beautiful butch lesbian but it’s just a man” did you know these things aren’t mutually exclusive

[thewarmvoid]

anyways shout out to butch lesbians who are also men, if you have a million fans I am one of them, if you have one fan that fan is me, if you have no fans, I am no longer alive, if the world is against butch lesbians who are also men, I am against the world

[bigchump1994]

Rice Krispies smartest decision is by far their Treat. Turning their cereal into a strange brick relies on the natural fact that all children are hopelessly dependent upon the ingot.

[phonyphase]

you can soothe yourself with the steadfast monotony of a quiet life but a small, bittersweet taste of what you desire so will have you standing before the unending nothingness of what is yet to come, clawing at cauterised wounds. a complex thing past is a good thing past. a good thing past is a terrible burden.

[phonyphase]

silly amateur comics by me

[phonyphase]

How to be lonely (from a master of the craft)

Start young (you cannot afford to lose time). Think about little boys who won’t talk to you but write your friend’s name on the inside of the toberaum tunnels. Then move on to Ewan McGregor in Beginners (2010). Write fanfiction about the boys in your class with your best friend, use your sleepovers to chat with strangers on the internet and enjoy the grooming. Revel in the notion of secret admiration. Indulge in devotion.

Congratulate your friends on their domestic bliss and mean it. Tell nagging bystanders you’re “putting yourself out there”. Try not to imagine the weight of a warm body. Of someone to come home to. Of an uncorked bottle and an open ear. Of setting down a casserole dish to eyes reflecting candlelight.

Pray to lost lashes and shooting stars in lieu of the divine. Make your own valentine’s cards and openly parade your sensitive, poetically inclined heart. Feel disgusted with how predictable your desires are. Try feminism. Try submission. Try misandry. Try on a fantasy and wear it well.

Joke about it when they ask. Quote Charlotte Lucas from Pride & Prejudice but dream of a man walking through the misty morning for you. Deny it. Say you’re glad you were given the chance to get to know yourself before ever getting entangling. Know that a woman who knows herself is harder to manipulate, to gaslight. Perhaps, to love.

Do not mention that you don’t know yourself at all, that you feel like you will only discover the most precious part of yourself when you have found someone to pour your love into. Ignore how many people your age claim to feel like this (they cannot understand it the way you do). Ignore it or get all in your little feelings about. Take chic pictures of your swollen red eyes and perfectly flush nose. Feel pretty. Feel utterly repulsive. Aestheticize it. Make it an essential part of your identity and sink your dirty claws into it. Never ever let go of it; know that letting go of it means letting go of yourself.

[phonyphase]

all I want in life is to wake up and have someone make coffee for me and then go through the day and go to sleep and wake up and then make coffee for them. you’d think this is achievable, and yet.

[phonyphase]

uhhh tiny baby??? smalll?????

[phonyphase]

successfully bringing clown energy into the world

[phonyphase]

[phonyphase]

pastels and picnic

[phonyphase]

cotton candy baby💕💕

[phonyphase]

pity party

[phonyphase]

[theorangepdf]

book dedications are so tender here is this piece of art i made for an audience of thousands. but really every word is for you

[phonyphase]

[phonyphase]

some of the dedications I have collected in the last couple months

[phonyphase]

so annoying when someone posts some cute 90s/y2k vintage haul and all the older millennials in the comments are like “woah 90s is vintage now?? what am I then?? Haha xD” like, I get aging must be terrifying or something but ya gotta stop