𝘩𝘪𝘪 !! 𝘤𝘢𝘭 , 18 , 𝘣𝘪 , 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘭𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘦𝘯 !
𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 ! 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 / 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 <3 ( 𝘱𝘭𝘴 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦 𝘪'𝘮 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘺 . )
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𝘩𝘪𝘪 !! 𝘤𝘢𝘭 , 18 , 𝘣𝘪 , 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘭𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘦𝘯 !
𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯 ! 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 / 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘴 <3 ( 𝘱𝘭𝘴 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦 𝘪'𝘮 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘭𝘺 . )
𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘦 ★ 𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵 ★ 𝘵𝘸𝘵 ★ 𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘣𝘰𝘹𝘥
me when im on "x reader tag" looking for fics at 3 am BUT all i find is memes and all the funny posts under the world EXCEPT the fics abt the character :
just to make my stance crystal clear: if you use ai to write fanfic i do believe you are a lesser writer in that you Aren't a writer at all. you're deeply uncreative and likely couldn't come up w your own opinion if there was a gun to your head. im sorry rubbing two of your braincells together to form a cohesive thought is difficult for you to manage but you need to figure it the fuck out if you want to write.
fanfic is supposed to be a fun hobby. it's free and fun and builds a lil community. it is a pillar of fandom !! i implore you to please, please, please just write it yourself !!! its so much more fun !!!!! you can make friends and spitball w each other in dms or texts or whatever !!!!!! ai is NOT fun !!!! it steals from actual writers, it has scraped fanfic and continues to do so, it's a plagirise-r, a thief, it BLOWS CHUNKS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAIT HIII !!!! best believe i love your writing for the pitt like don’t play i drool everytime but anywho i was wondering if you would be willing to write for mel 😏
she’s my baby like i deadass don’t care what you come up with i’ll be happy anyway ! if not that’s TOTALLY FINE !! okay bye 💋
i luv u!!!!! here
mel king had this way of disappearing while standing right in front of you.
not physically. she was there. technically.
but sometimes halfway through a conversation she’d just go quiet and drift somewhere else entirely, eyes fixed on nothing, fingers picking at the skin around her thumb until it bled. and everybody in the er treated it like normal because mel still did her job perfectly. she still answered questions. still stitched people up with steady hands. still caught mistakes before anyone else did.
but you noticed.
you noticed everything about her, which was probably part of the problem.
“you missed two pages,” you said quietly, setting the charts beside her.
mel blinked hard like she’d just remembered where she was.
“oh.”
her voice sounded rough. tired.
she took the charts from you carefully, not meeting your eyes.
“thanks.”
you lingered for a second.
“you okay?”
“yeah.”
immediate. automatic.
a lie.
you leaned against the counter beside her. the er buzzed around you — phones ringing, someone arguing with radiology, a kid crying down the hall — but mel stayed curled inward like she was trying to make herself smaller than the noise.
“you haven’t taken a break in like eight hours,” you said.
“didn’t notice.”
that was another thing.
mel forgot she existed sometimes.
forgot to eat. forgot to drink water. forgot her own limits until they slammed into her all at once and left her shaking in supply closets trying not to cry where anybody could hear.
you knew because you’d found her there before.
not crying exactly. mel didn’t really cry in front of people.
just sitting on the floor with her hands over her ears and this awful exhausted look on her face like the world had become too loud to survive.
she’d looked humiliated when she realized you’d seen her.
you’d never hated anybody more than yourself in that moment for making her feel exposed.
“mel.”
“i’m working.”
“you’re dissociating.”
her jaw tightened immediately.
silence.
then: “don’t do that.”
“do what?”
“say things like you know me.”
the words landed harder than they probably should have.
you stepped back a little before you could stop yourself.
mel realized it instantly.
you could always tell the exact second she regretted something because panic flashed across her face so fast it barely existed at all.
“i didn’t mean—”
“it’s fine.”
“no, i—”
“mel, it’s okay.”
but it wasn’t.
because the thing about caring about mel king was that it always felt like standing too close to something skittish. every time you thought she trusted you, she pulled away again like she regretted letting you near her in the first place.
and maybe she did.
mel stared down at the charts in her hands so hard it looked painful.
“i just don’t like people assuming things,” she muttered.
“i wasn’t assuming.”
“you were.”
you swallowed hard.
“okay.”
she flinched at your tone.
god.
you hated this.
hated how easy it was for the two of you to become strangers again.
a trauma alert went off before either of you could say anything else.
mel moved instantly. work mode. gone.
by the time the patient was stabilized an hour later, she still hadn’t looked at you once.
—
the worst part was that mel wasn’t mean.
not really.
people thought she was cold because she got quiet when she was overwhelmed and blunt when she was tired, but underneath all of that she was painfully soft in ways she clearly wished she wasn’t.
she apologized to inanimate objects when she bumped into them.
she got attached to difficult patients.
she once cried in the ambulance bay over a dead bird and then refused to talk about it afterward.
she cared too much about everything and acted like she cared about nothing because it was easier.
you understood that.
which was maybe why it hurt so bad when she shut you out.
you found her hours later sitting alone outside the ambulance entrance during a lull in the shift.
freezing cold.
no jacket.
knees pulled to her chest.
she looked up when the door swung open behind you, immediately tense until she realized it was you.
then she looked away again.
you stood there awkwardly for a second before sitting beside her on the curb.
neither of you spoke.
cars hissed past on wet pavement somewhere nearby. somebody laughed too loudly inside the hospital. mel kept rubbing her thumb against the seam of her scrub pants over and over and over.
“i hate when you do that,” she said eventually.
“do what?”
“go quiet.”
you stared at her.
“you told me to stop acting like i know you.”
“i know.”
“okay.”
mel pressed the heels of her hands against her eyes.
she looked exhausted in a way that had nothing to do with sleep.
“i didn’t mean it like that,” she whispered.
“then how did you mean it?”
she opened her mouth.
closed it again.
sometimes talking seemed physically difficult for her. like thoughts got stuck somewhere between her brain and her mouth and she hated herself for not being able to force them out correctly.
“i don’t know,” she said finally, frustrated. “i just—”
she stopped.
you waited.
mel laughed once under her breath, but there was nothing funny in it.
“you make me feel too visible.”
your chest tightened.
she still wouldn’t look at you.
“most people don’t notice things,” she continued quietly. “and if they do, they don’t say anything. but you always know when something’s wrong with me before i do.”
you didn’t know what to say to that.
mel swallowed hard.
“it scares me.”
there it was.
honest and ugly and small.
you looked down at your hands.
“i’m not trying to make you uncomfortable.”
“i know.”
“then why does it feel like every time i get close to you, you panic and push me away?”
mel’s breathing caught slightly.
for a second you thought she wasn’t gonna answer.
then, barely audible:
“because i don’t know what you want from me.”
your heart broke a little at that.
because she sounded genuinely confused.
not manipulative. not defensive.
just scared.
“nothing,” you said softly. “i don’t want anything from you.”
she finally looked over.
eyes tired. guarded. uncertain.
“that’s not true.”
“okay,” you admitted. “i want you around. i want you to stop pretending you’re fine all the time. i want you to let people care about you without acting like it’s some kind of threat.”
mel stared at you for so long you thought maybe you’d gone too far.
then she said quietly, “i don’t know how.”
and that—
that nearly killed you.
because mel said it like she was ashamed.
like not knowing how to be loved properly was some personal failure.
you looked away before she could see how badly that affected you.
“you don’t have to be good at it,” you murmured.
“yeah?”
“yeah.”
silence settled again.
cold air. ambulance lights reflecting off wet concrete. mel sitting so close your shoulders almost touched but not quite.
after a minute, she spoke again.
“when i was a kid,” she said slowly, “everybody thought i was angry all the time.”
you stayed quiet.
“but i wasn’t. i just…” she shrugged helplessly. “everything always felt too loud. and people wanted me to react correctly to things and i never really knew how.”
she laughed softly to herself.
“my mom used to tell me i looked miserable even when i was happy.”
your throat tightened painfully.
“that’s awful.”
“she wasn’t trying to be mean.”
“doesn’t make it less awful.”
mel rubbed at her eyes again.
“i think sometimes people decide who they think i am before i get the chance to explain.”
you looked at her carefully.
“is that what you think i’m doing?”
“no.”
she answered too fast.
immediate.
certain.
“no,” she repeated quieter. “that’s the problem.”
something shifted painfully inside your chest.
because suddenly you understood.
mel wasn’t scared you misunderstood her.
she was scared you understood her perfectly and wouldn’t like what you found.
you wanted to say something reassuring. something careful and gentle and convincing.
instead you just said the truth.
“i like you anyway.”
mel looked down immediately.
you saw her throat move when she swallowed.
“you shouldn’t.”
“that’s not your decision.”
another long silence.
then, very slowly, mel leaned sideways until her shoulder rested lightly against yours.
tentative.
like she expected you to pull away.
you didn’t.
you stayed completely still while she sat there trembling slightly from either cold or exhaustion or both.
after a while, she whispered:
“i’m trying.”
and god.
that was the thing.
she really was.
i'm like a dog hearing all its favourite words when i see these tagged in a fic :
big age gap, daddy kink, dumbification, praise, soft dom, breeding kink, talking you through it, mocking, size kink
kiss your screen every time you see a typo or grammatical error in my fics because it means it's home grown and not some ai bullshit and im dead serious about this
about me ! !
𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘦 :
𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘴 : 𝘮𝘰𝘷𝘪𝘦𝘴 , 𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘰𝘮𝘺 , 𝘣𝘢𝘴𝘬𝘦𝘵𝘣𝘢𝘭𝘭 , 𝘩𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘳𝘺 , 𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘶𝘢𝘨𝘦,
𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘪𝘤 : 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘭𝘦𝘴 , 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘣𝘰𝘺𝘴 , 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘯𝘢 , 𝘵𝘸𝘪𝘤𝘦, 𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘯𝘬 𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘳𝘢 , 𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘵𝘩 , 𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘻𝘦𝘳 , 𝘴𝘶𝘧𝘫𝘢𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯𝘴 , 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘴
𝘩𝘰𝘣𝘣𝘪𝘦𝘴 : 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘲𝘶𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘶𝘮 𝘱𝘩𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘴 , 𝘫𝘪𝘶𝘫𝘪𝘵𝘴𝘶 , 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 , 𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 , 𝘸𝘢𝘵𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘷 , 𝘷𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘰 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦𝘴 , 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨
All of your fics are so good <33
ahhh tysm thanks for all the love guysss!!
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think im gonna do a new theme guys im bored asf and my current theme is ass
feel free to remind me if i am behind on my masterlist i tend to forget!
hiiii i luv new hire but just a reminder that cassie’s sober. maybe sneak in a line of nonalcoholic beer? ur writing is AMAZING
HOLY SHIT THAT TOTALLY SLIPPED MY MIND OMG TYSM EDITING THAT RN
brat tamer cassie mckay
minors dni
new hire | c.mckay
summary: you move to pittsburgh for your first job at ptmc, accidentally make out with a hot stranger at a bar the night before orientation, and then find out she’s cassie mckay from your department so now your entire career is basically a hostage situation
wc:4.5k
Saddle Up
GIF by: @nuthanat
cassie mckay x f!reader
summary: after teasing your girlfriend cassie mckay at work, she puts you in your place.
warnings: 18+ established relationship, sexting, dom!cassie, strap!cassie, brat tamer!cassie, spanking (r!receiving), rough sex, brief aftercare
word count: 1.4k
a/n: i accidentally deleted the request but i luckily got a screenshot beforehand! i wrote this after taking an edible just fyi and i have not proofread.
FUCK
guys im gonna write a bunch of fics trust