> revolutionary girl utena blog (my blog for other fandoms and personal stuff is @birdplushie)
> check out my original posts here, my fanart here, and my fanfiction here
> my rgu + mabel podcast sideblog: @revolutionarygirlmabel
> i don't tag spoilers or trigger warnings for any of the topics covered within the show itself but if you need anything else tagged please let me know ! ask box is always open for anything
the narrative (posts about the narrative as an oppresive system and escaping it)
to not be chosen is to die (posts about the black rose arc)
the revolution (posts about the final duel and its aftermath)
don't be afraid of this world where we'll meet (after-ohtori posts)
tangential (posts that were not originally about utena but are thematically relevant. mostly jokes, but occasionally serious posts about the real world equivalents of rgu's themes)
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utena and anthy , juri and shiori , touga and saionji , utena and wakaba , utena and juri , utena and nanami , nanami and kozue , nanami and anthy , akio and utena , akio and anthy , kaoru siblings , kiryuu siblings
sorry this ask is a month old i haven't checked my notifs on this account in forever š i'm alive and active on my main blog ( @birdplushie ), though not a lot of utenaposting happening lately because i mostly talk with friends about the show instead nowadays. but if i ever get back into writing analysis for it it will probably be over there, afraid this blog is kind of dead at this point
i drew this while ago?? a year ago?? the projectās wrapped up and the final donation was made (yay!) so i can share it now :)
when i was first drafting this, i wanted to mix both adolescence and tv anime versions of utena and anthy into one narrative. something that feels, like, appropriately angsty mid-20s lesbian with all the iconography i want in there!!! like our lady of sorrows and the arrangement of swords and a crucifix on page three (even with reverse image search i could not find the source for the life of me, but itās referenced from a photo of a statue!).
i have a bad habit of thinking of cool imagery or references before actually writing dialogue though lmaooo. i think i was listening to a lot of preacherās daughter at the timeā¦..i know what i want to work on for future comics now at least >_>
I don't feel like putting this in the tags but I think about this (paraphrased) quote. A lot. Where do I even begin. Theres something about the way Utena realizing she loves Anthy, and communicates it so clearly, almost as thoughtlessly as breathing. And then she just?? Immediately tries to take it back??!?!??? Shes not slick at all either, as right afterwards, Chuchu blushes in shock at Utenas words, representing how she really flustered Anthy. However, she herself simply keeps smiling and watering the roses, humoring Utenas recovery. Utenas lesbianism is so clear to the both of them, but it must remain unacknowledged for Obvious Reasons.
Utena is trapped in the patriarchy and constantly being forced in romantic and sexual events with Akio and Touga (I don't remember??? If she said this quote in the third arc??? But it still applies either way). I don't think her take back was out of cute shyness or something, but rather,,, shame?
I say that "Oh Utena 100% realizes she loves Anthy", but thats only the half truth of my interpretation. I think its more like Utena realizes she feels,,,, """abnormal""" about Anthy. As in "girls shouldn't feel this way about other girls". But is it love? Desire? Utena can't tell, because her idea of romance, sex, relationships, and attraction are being pulled in a billion different directions. All she knows is that Anthy is special. Maybe similar to how Juri feels about Shiori. Maybe similar to how Wakaba feels about her. She doesn't know. But what she *does* know is that she has to hide it.
Meanwhile, Anthy has a broader idea behind these concepts. Maybe not the right ones (shes a 14 year old csa and cocsa victim), but she does know that Utena loves her. And she loves her right back. It would be romantic if they weren't trapped in a game where Anthy is traded, fought for, abused, raped, and used. Not only that, but I feel like Anthy always thought that her time with Utena wasn't going to last long. Its this pessimistic idea of her situation, thinking that shes forever trapped. That she'll never escape ohtori with Utena, and that shes only but another pawn in the game. And yet, Anthy yearns for her, and wishes that things were different. That she could push Utena towards the right direction (if you believe that adolescence is a direct sequel to the show, then she does do this. She pursues Utena, dances with her, begs her not to fight. And after all was said in done, she becomes Anthys car so she can save herself once more) (They save each other from ohtori :]).
At the very end of the show, we see the photograph of them taken a few episodes beforehand. They were holding hands the entire time. We know that Anthy specifically positioned the camera so Akio wouldn't be in it. But the hand holding really makes me wonder. Was Utena in on the photoshoot as well? I doubt the hand holding was done out of the blue. Everything about it feels so calculated that I begin to think that Utena eventually gets a clearer idea of her love for Anthy. Still not a perfect one, but this + her "just so happening" to say "Stop that" to Chuchu while Akio attempts to touch her makes me think that at this point of the show, shes getting a grasp of her situation, her feelings. Of course, she doesn't get the full picture. But she forms a loose outline that says she adores Anthy, and that Akio is unnerving.
I don't know if this makes any sense. At all. I'm just spilling out thoughts. Just know that Utena repressing her love for Anthy makes me reallyyy sad, and I find her slowly coming to terms with her feelings heartwarming. Idk. Idkkk
nanami is like I hate utena Iām in love with utena utena is everything Iāll never be Iām a sister Iām an only child Iām a sister again Iām a calf Iām a lamb to the slaughter Iām a drowned kitten iām anthy himemiya please dont let me be anthy himemiya Iām better than everyone Iām nothing Iām worthless Iām a lesbian Iām 13 years old
Be honest. Do you ACTUALLY find Akio to be attractive?
Girl what š he looks like a horse
I thought he was attractive at first but his personality put me off entirely
Only in certain scenes, okay?!
my eyes glaze over with hatred whenever I see him so I literally cannot answer
nuance button.
Voting ended onOct 5, 2025
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