They call you Tina, oh god when I first met you. You were high end, not easy to find, but the first time I met I knew you’d control my life, but I couldn’t stop it. You were there when no one else was. You were valued by many, so chasing you was no easy task. At first I was using you, for happiness, for energy, for weight loss. Before I knew it, the tables had turned and you were using me. You sucked the life out of me, sucked me dry. I lost myself in you, you were so tempting. I couldn’t stay away. My grades starting slipping, and work, aha, you told me I didn’t need that. I started out smoking you, the chemical taste you left in my mouth was amazing, but never enough. I crushed you up and snorted you, it burned so good, the head rush I felt, the instant high. Even that only worked for a little while. Oh Tina, what to do, what to do. You weren’t giving me the same happiness, I was losing you, I hit a low. You made me break my one and only promise. That broke promise changed my life. IV use was something “I’d never do”, you said “aha, think twice.” Alone in my bathroom, shoe lace tied around my arm, searching for a vein, heart racing.. it registered first try. I pulled back the plunger, it filled with blood. What a beautiful site it was, but oh god, I had no clue what I was in for. I released my tourniquet, and pushed down the plunger. The burning in my throat, the warmth that you brought over me. I stood up, blood running down my arm, the head high, the dizziness. Oh it was euphoria. I could always rely on you Tina, you never hurt me, or so I thought. You ruined, that bubbly little girl everyone once knew, trapped in her own little world of dope feigns and dirty needle. Theres no life left behind my eyes. The weight loss was extreme, I’ve hit rock bottom. Everyone left me, or did I leave everyone for you? You started out as my best friend Tina, and now, you have ruined my life. I’ve hit rock bottom, no one here to pull me out, at least I have my best friend. Who knew rock bottom had a basement, oh what a dark lonely place. Isolation, hostility this is my life. You were all that stuck around, you carried me through my hard times and brought me back to euphoria. I celebrated with you, I cried with you, I laughed with you.. now look where I’m at Tina, why oh, why did you do this. I started out using you, and now you are in full control. I’m strung out, nothing can bring me back now, but at least I still have you. I hate that I love you, but our bond is unbreakable. You were my best friend, the only thing that got me through.
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