pinocchio is ill

mental illness diary nobody but joel knows about

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isolation so unbearable that i dont know how i survived being alive this long without ANYBODY

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thanks for calling me spoiled despite none of you doing anything to help me mature as a person 🫶

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feeling that muzzled dog imagery again

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i was crying (or barely) and feeling so depressed so yo make myself feel better i just looked at videos of brian and especially ended up smiling from the shoutout vid. he truly is hopium

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adhd is terrible

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what if you wanted to see your cousin but god said LITTERMATE SYNDROME !!!!!!!!

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theres a part of me that enjoys hurting people in some sort of power trip

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destroy destroy destroy

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theres a part of me that enjoys hurting people in some sort of power trip

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dissociating rn

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amongst messages ill never send:

dear x

i want you to forget about me. i think you already have, but if it’s still there, the feelings you have for me, whether it be the back of your mind, in guilt, resentment or whatever memory you carry, throw it away. you don’t need me in your life as much as i don’t need you. forget about high school. forget about our rare hangouts. we will never have this again but trust me when i say this is a good riddance. what you are in my life is a cause for grief and i refuse to have it further. i want to be numb of it all. you should be numb to this too. goodbye forever.

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sleepytime go bye bye hours are insane cuz why tf do i now realize that my repulsion to being loved and relationships lasting long is due to how i hate myself and keep to myself and have been doing so since my childhood so now i cant love people and have them love me back otherwise id just get upset

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thinking of stabbing my brother to death

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thought process:

living alone will make me happy —> he doesnt believe i can live alone —> so long as i stay in this house with him and mom i will never be happy —> if i stay in this house one of three of us will get killed

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never got taught how to treat a person well because i was never treated well so i’ll ruin their lives as much as possible <3

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thinking of stabbing my brother to death

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thought process:

living alone will make me happy —> he doesnt believe i can live alone —> so long as i stay in this house with him and mom i will never be happy —> if i stay in this house one of three of us will get killed

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thinking of stabbing my brother to death

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the only way to lose the pain is to destroy

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therapist said something about how my mom and brother always force me to do shit for their approval. i am a daughter but never a person

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bignoccio rap lyrics themes:

daddy issues

i am full of anger and want to kill

mother’s daughter trauma

i hate my brother

i hate my friends and my friends hate me

rich brian love me