all of our old conversations. all of our old letters to eachother. gone. we never talked more, and we never laughed more. but now, even the slightest trace of that is gone. my switch has gone, so has animal crossing. i don't even care about my limited edition stuff on there. i just want our letters back. if i was promised even one letter back for my life, i'd probably do it. you impacted my life so much and i wish i could leave you behind as easily as you left me. i'm so glad that us "forgetting" eachother made you happy. but i wish i could say the same for me. toddy, i miss you. you were one of the best people i ever met, and i was such a fucking cunt towards you. i was a spoiled little fuck who didnt know how to get his feelings out in a healthy way. i watched you figure out who you were, and i even helped you with it. now you've got new friends, a new name. kaz. it suits you, truly. it's funny. i saw your sister playing a game i play. i was so paranoid she'd join. i was so scared. i wanted to say a million things. i wanted to let you know of ten million things. i wanted to hug you, and hear your voice, see your typing style. i wanted to play a game with you. i wanted something. a part of me wanted to end our friendship properly, if it made you happy. if it made me happy. i guess my emotions are shit. because i've been thinking about us talking for ages. i couldn't even think straight. you had a giant impact on me, and i don't think anyone could replicate it. you'll always be my brother, "todfy", even if i'm not yours.
and i totally respect your decision.