"Take care of your beys now, okay?"

Independent Ask blog for Madoka Amano (2 years after slightly AU Metal Fury). Please read the rules before interacting, thanks! Current Event: Gingka Visit -Hiatus-

[pink-genius]

((Maybe it's silly to be emotional about a little ask blog, but to me it's a story, and it's one I don't want to let go of.))

((I don't have any big plans. I don't have any new ideas. But if there's any birthday gift I want to give myself, it's a reminder that my stories are worth telling if they're stories that make me smile. And if there's one thing that's always remained true, it's that this girl right here never fails to do just that.))

((My current goal: Finish the two asks remaining until the scene change. That's it. I don't know how I'll do it, I don't know if it'll be a method I stick with for the future. But if I keep my steps small, I think I can do this.))

[pink-genius]

Hi, I'm alive

((Hello everyone! I'm very tired.

As you clearly noticed, last year's plans did not turn out great. Or at all. I have not been at my best and creativity is something I've been missing for months. And honestly...it's still not really back.

I can't draw. I can't write. But I have, miraculously, been able to start planning things again. I need to take little steps, but they're still steps forward.

Steps forward for this blog. I really, really want to come back.

I don't have a lot, exactly. Not as much as I'd like. As I've said before, I don't get a lot of asks, but I hope that turning up the story aspect might inspire more to help push things along.

What I do have is this:

The Gingka event is fully planned out to the finish.

An overarching storyline that Madoka will be following, officially starting next event.

The next event is a WIP, but I know the general plan. I just need to iron some details out.

The event following That has the groundwork laid out - I know the who, what, where, when, and why. I'm just not quite sure how it's all going to be put together yet.

Basic notes for another future event that hasn't been put in a particular spot in the story yet are also jotted down.

Some general worldbuilding and character placement ideas that I don't know what to do with quite yet.

I started this blog as just a fun little thing to play around with, spend time writing for one of my favorite characters. But I want it to be something a little more. Sadly, I don't have the energy to do that right now.

But I haven't forgotten. I'm trying to pick up the pieces here. It's just hard to put them together at the moment.

I really, really want to continue with making art for this, but I haven't picked up a drawing pen in ages at this point... I might need help with that part. It's a scary thought to imagine sharing this story with someone else, but I have visions in my head that I'd love to see made real and I just can't do that on my own as I am now.

And that's just the art aspect. I feel like I don't remember how to write a proper story anymore. Maybe I'm still missing that spark of inspiration... I don't know.

At the end of the day,

I'm very tired, and I can't do much right now because of it. I don't know when I'll be able to come back. But I want to and I will. One day.))

[pink-genius]

Plans for 2024

((Hi. Hello. This is your very tired Melly, still determined to pick this up again, but still too exhausted to do so. I wanted you all to know I still do want to do this, though, so I figured the least I could do was share my current thoughts.

What I know I need to do is all pretty simple:

Sort my notes and references into something coherent

Finish planning the Gingka event

Finish going through the Gingka event (currently nearing the end of part 2)

Prepare things for the next event

Stop relying on asks--I just don't get enough to work with.

Stop forcing myself to draw for everything--I don't have the ability to right now.

That last point...kind of hurts, to be honest. One of the biggest starting thoughts for this blog was to have a drawing outlet, but right now I'm struggling so much I drew exactly two things last year and barely have the motivation for anything else. I have the rest of the answers for this first part of the Gingka event written, but I haven't posted them because I don't have art to go with them.

This has led me to considering two options regarding the way I continue this blog:

I could drop the art aspect entirely unless I happen to feel inspired for something. I don't really want to do this, because it feels...wrong, somehow. But I'll try it if it gets things moving again.

I could, perhaps...try to get some help. Someone to do the art, or at least the sketches, for me. I'm very uncertain about this, because I don't communicate well and my project management skills are laughable. I also don't know if I could find someone whose art fits the way I see this blog and the Madoka I'm creating, if that makes sense.

Obviously, none of this is really concrete, and it certainly doesn't point to a return any time soon. But I promise this blog is always on my mind, even if just a little. I want to share this story with you all, and I hope I can find a way to make that happen.))

[constellationsbeybladezine]

Here it is! Constellations: A Beyblade zine is finally out! You can download and see it here! Thanks to all who worked hard to make this zine! And a link to downloadable stickers and icon here!

[magicalgirlsuggestions]

Do what you must in order to be happy

[minccinoocappuccino]

The pipes in my house burst and we need help fixing them any amount is helpful! The cost is 800 and we need it repair asap as it's leaking thru the top floor and damaging the wood. The pipes are behind a wall so we have to have it tore opened, as well as the pipes being copper -meaning we have to have them soldered to fix them. The wood underneath the pipes on the top floor has to be replaced as it is to water damage already. You can donate here if u wish

[pink-genius]

((Hello! It's time for another life update! And for once, it's hopeful news.))

((I'm starting to get out of the funk I've been in for over a year; processing some things better, understanding some problems better, and overall just feeling more like I have the capacity to care about trying things again.))

((I also got a new tablet yesterday! It's not specifically for drawing, but it's portable and I can sketch on it and most importantly:))

((I drew This with it! This is literally the second thing I have drawn all freaking year, and it's far from perfect, but it's still a Hopeful Something rather than a Miserable Nothing.))

((I don't see the current hiatus as ending soon quite yet, but we're on our way!))

[pink-genius]

((Helloooo, who’s tired of more mod posts than answer posts? Me, that’s for sure. But I wanna be transparent here, so let’s go.))

((I think the last thing I drew in any real manner was probably the answer I just posted. And that was iiiin....November. Yeah. I am out of practice and unreasonably nervous about trying to draw anything again, though I really do love the little pieces I’ve put with the last 2 answers. I wanna keep doing that.))

((However... Even though I know what I want to do, and it’s really not that hard, the next answer got kinda big. Like, 650+ words big. I’ve got it marked for 3 of those little art pieces to help break it up, but I’m mentally having trouble getting started. So basically, I don’t know when I’m going to get that one done. Which sucks because it’s one of only a few to be done before things move on to the next story piece.))

((But I will get there. I’m going to try my best to pull myself out of this nervous funk and get drawing again. There’s so much I want to make even outside this blog, and I just need to get started.))

[pink-genius]

“Well, it’s not about the physical parts. It’s the power and spirit inside of them. Each bey carries its own being within it. The more awake it is, and the more in tune you are with it, the more power the bey can unleash! That power also protects it, so it can last while doing all those amazing, crazy things!”

“But that protection isn’t absolute, and I’m still going to need to check on Pegasus,” Madoka reminds him, admittedly still annoyed he hasn’t handed it over yet. “Especially if you’re going around crashing through walls now.”

“Ah, y-yeah! Soon as we get back, promise!”

I swear, if that bey is in bad shape and he’s trying to hide it from me...

[pink-genius]

Hi! I’m a little new, but Gingka, why do you have glasses?

“Oh, I’m farsighted!” Gingka explains. “When we were getting ambushed-” “Checked over.” “-by the doctors after Nemesis, they did a bunch of tests on pretty much everything. So I got glasses a little bit after that!”

[constellationsbeybladezine]

Constellations: A Beyblade Zine

A Digital Only Zine  This Zine will be focused on the Metal Fight series. Interest check is here! 

[pink-genius]

((Just a quick update to keep you guys informed-))

((I have all of the answers written out for the walk back to the shop. That’s all ready! Unfortunately, I’ve kinda strained my wrist and can’t work on the art for them because of that.))

((I’m gonna try to take it easy for a few days to let it rest. Thankfully, I know the direction I’m going with all of these, so once I get into it, it shouldn’t be too hard.))

((I’ll probably post one answer soon; I do have 2 done. It’s certainly been long enough I feel I should give one. Sorry!))

((Pink Genius will be back once my wrist is up for it! Promise!))

[rosavaya]

“Many people seem to think it foolish, even superstitious, to believe that the world could still change for the better. And it is true that in winter it is sometimes so bitingly cold that one is tempted to say, ‘What do I care if there is a summer; its warmth is no help to me now.’ Yes, evil often seems to surpass good. But then, in spite of us, and without our permission, there comes at last an end to the bitter frosts. One morning the wind turns, and there is a thaw. And so I must still have hope.”

— Vincent Van Gogh

[magicalgirlsuggestions]

The world may be cold, but there is warmth within every heart

[pink-genius]

Moving Update 2

((WHOOPS. Hi there! Still been a little surreal while settling in and all. Suddenly it’s been a month since I got here?? I’m bewildered.))

((Anyways, I think I’m about ready to, at the very least, answer the two asks I’ve got. They’ll sort of be like a test run for the way I want to try doing things from now on. Depending on how I feel about those, we may be able to move forward soon and get a bit more story! Which is very exciting for me!!))

((Basically, give me a little time to pull my notes and a few answers together, and Madoka and Gingka will finally be heading back to the B-Pit after that ice cream, haha!))

[pink-genius]

((Hey so my anxiety’s really high and I can’t focus well right now, but I Am getting some slow work done on answers, and when all the ones for the questions I have in the inbox are done, I’ll start posting them. Thankfully, the idea I had to help me with them is working out well, and I’m quite happy with it so far!))

((Everyone have a good winter! Hopefully see you soon.))

[magicalgirlsuggestions]

An uncertain future is scary, but it just means you get to create it with your own hands

[pink-genius]

Moving Update 2

((WHOOPS. Hi there! Still been a little surreal while settling in and all. Suddenly it’s been a month since I got here?? I’m bewildered.))

((Anyways, I think I’m about ready to, at the very least, answer the two asks I’ve got. They’ll sort of be like a test run for the way I want to try doing things from now on. Depending on how I feel about those, we may be able to move forward soon and get a bit more story! Which is very exciting for me!!))

((Basically, give me a little time to pull my notes and a few answers together, and Madoka and Gingka will finally be heading back to the B-Pit after that ice cream, haha!))