Synopsis: You’ve always kept your relationship with Jaeyi a secret, hiding it from both your classmates and her disapproving father. Despite the risks, your bond has grown deeper, fueled by the stolen moments you’ve shared. But when Jaeyi’s father finds out, he forces her to distance herself from you or that he will ruin your life.
Warnings: drugs, abuse, family issues, starving, depression
Genre: Angst
You were dialing your girlfriends number, wanting to ask her how she slept. She never picked up. Worry washed over you not knowing what to do since you both agreed not to come to her house, so her father doesn't suspect anything. You picked your nails waiting for her call or atleast a message. Nothing. You still had to go to school, so you splashed some water on your face to freshen up before heading out.
At schools gate, Choi Kyung, your friend ran up to you panting. "Y/N why didn't you wait for me, you dumbass. I was almost late for school!" You apologize before Yeri, Choi's bestfriend joins you hitting her on the head, telling her shes stupid for waiting.
"Y/N, whats up with you today?" They asked in sync tilting their heads to look at you properly. "Jaeyi isn't answering my calls, I'm worried..." You mumbled under your breath.
"Oh girl..dont you worry about her. She is the smartest person we know, she is more than fine." Yeri places her hand on your shoulder while fixing her lipgloss. "Yeah, we've known her for years, she wouldn't ignore anyone she loves for no reason, especially not you Y/N. We don't know if she ever loved someone like she loves you." Choi adds, making you feel better for a small amount of time until you reach your classroom and see that Jaeyi is no longer sitting next to you. It was some random girl you both didn't like at all, but why was she doing this?
Choi and Yeri both noticed, their faces confused and irritated. You know that your girlfriend loves to joke around, so you smile walking towards her. She was doing math, but she looked a bit different. But you set that aside.
"Jaeyi! Stop joking around like that. You scared me!" You placed your hand on her shoulder making her look up. Your heart dropped when you saw her face. She looked so serious and cold. "Get away from me and do not touch me." Hearing her say those words made you almost fall on the floor.
"Oh wow Jaeyi very funny, now go back to your seat." Choi added coming towards you two. Jaeyi stood up from her seat towering over you. "You disgust me of how annoying you are. Stop begging for my attention Y/N. Leave. Me. Alone." She pushes past you walking through the door. You felt yourself tearing up, but you had to hold it back, not wanting to make a scene. Choi and Yeri looked at each other gulping. Its like they knew something.
That day school was boring for the first time in a long time. Before, you and Jaeyi would hold hands under the desk, and she would always poke your waist making you giggle loud enough for teacher to hear. The teacher was always ready to kick you out for disturbing class, but Jaeyi would always take all the blame and wink at you, knowing the teacher cant go against her.
As the memories hit, you wanted nothing more than to just yell at her for being like this and not even telling you why. Your math teacher woke you up from all those bad thoughts, telling you to get to the board for sleeping in class. You sighed, too tired to argue before standing up. You looked over to Jaeyi and she was looking at some stupid book. You got reminded of when she would laugh at you for being called out by the teacher and you would always secretly flip her off while having a big smile on your face.
"Y/N did you even hear what I just said?! Why do I even try with you, when you never listen..." He mumbled the last sentence, but you heard it anyway making your way back to your desk.
The last bell rang, your classmates already packing to leave. You wanted to ask Jaeyi what was wrong so you followed her out the school. You grabbed her by her wrist making her turn around.
"Jaeyi...please tell me what is going on...please I think I deserve to know!" You didn't even realize that you were tearing up before she pointed it out.
"Stop embarassing yourself. We are done. There is no explanation. I never loved you and that's it." You knew she was lying, but you didn't know why.
"Stop lying Jaeyi! Just tell me, cause I know that isn't the truth!" You were now fully crying and shouting at her. She remained calm, her face emotionless. You didn't care if anyone was looking at you, you just wanted her to talk.
"Just get away from me. Forever." That was the last thing you heard from her before she walked away.
It was only getting worse from there. You weren't going to school for almost two weeks, but your parents told you that you're gonna fall behind so you must go now. Choi and Yeri were always there for you, when you wanted to cry, just sit in silence, or even yell at them for no reason.
You thought about her all the time, but you told yourself that you had to move on, so you went out with the first guy that talked to you. On the other hand Jaeyi was way worse. She told the teacher she's going on the vacation, but she was actually in her bed the whole time. Not eating and barely drinking any water. She wanted to tell you everything. How her father saw you and her kissing on your favourite spot, the beach.
He was passing by and he went crazy after he saw you two, waiting for his daughter to return only to beat the shit out of her and yell at her for what he saw. He threatened her that he was going to ruin your life if she got close to you again. So she had to say all of that to you and she wished she could just run to your house and run away with you from her stupid dad.
-
Three weeks passed and Jaeyi had to talk to someone about this. She called Choi and Yeri over to 'study'. Her dad was at his hospital, so she could talk about anything. They arrived as soon as she called them, cause they were worried about her for all this time she wasn't at school. When she opened the door their eyes widened.
Jaeyi lost so much weight, her eyes were all puffy and red from crying and she wore the same black shirt for over a week. She was a mess. They understood, even tho Yeri had to say something. "Damn, Yoo Jaeyi, this is the first time I smell better than you." She laughed at her own statement.
After sitting down on her bed, she began talking. They listened to her tired voice, yet filled with anger and pain. "And-and I can't do anything about th-this! I can't lose Y/N! I fucking can't d-do this anymore!" She spoke through sobs, her words choked with emotions.
"Oh Jaeyi...calm down, just let it all out...its okay." Yeri stood up giving her a hug of assurance trying to comfort the poor girl. Choi sighed adjusting her glasses on her nose. "Listen Jaeyi. You better make things right soon...Y/N is already trying to get over you, even tho its not going great, but thats not the point." She came closer to her placing her hands on her shoulders and giving her a little shake.
"You have to talk to her, you need to let her in on the thruth. She still thinks she did something wrong, and its eating her alive." Jaeyi just stared at her, her eyes watery from crying. And those words woke something up in Jaeyi.
"I need to see Y/N...Please call Y/N and tell her to meet me at our spot, please Choi, please Yeri...I'm begging you my phone is dead and I need her right this second." Jaeyi just started talking as she rushed out of her room to get her shoes on. Choi went after her, telling her that she should atleast shower, but she was already out of the house. Yeri on the other hand dialed your number, apologizing for calling at such late hour.
"Y/N...Jaeyi is waiting for you. She wants you to know the trut-" You hung up the call, already getting your hoodie on and running out of the apartment in your slippers. She didn't tell you where Jaeyi was, but you knew. You ran till you arrived at dark yet perfect beach. The sound of the waves soothing your heart, which you thought was going to burst.
Then you saw her. Sitting on the sand, letting the soft grains slip through her fingers. You couldn't see that well, but you noticed how much weight she lost and her hair being all messy, tied in a horrible ponytail. She suddenly turned around, your eyes locking as she started to tear up immediately.
"Y/N..." She could barely stand on her feet due to her barely eating anything all those weeks. The next thing you knew her arms were wrapped around your waist as she snuggled into your neck making you cry aswell. You still thought this wasn't real, so you had to make sure it was. You hugged her back as you both sobbed in each others arms.
-
After telling you everything, she was resting her head on your lap as she hummed your favourite song you two used to sing the whole summer you spent together.
"Remember when we sang that song and you told me I was a horrible singer, then ten minutes later you kissed me for the first time." You reminded her, making her laugh. "And you pushed me away! Before...kissing me back again." She teased before you slapped her arm playfully. Both of you stopped laughing after some time, just staring at the beautiful view. You talked about the ocean, but in her mind the beautiful view was your face that she didn't see for three weeks.
"Y/N...I decided that...I won't let my dad control me anymore. I'll tell him we're together even tho he knows. I know that you matter the most to me, and I can't lose you again. I love you." The last sentence she said replayed in your head. That was the first time Jaeyi said those words. You smiled nodding as she got her head up from your lap, sitting next to you.
"I love you too Jaeyi and I always will. I will never stop even if we are apart, you will never leave my mind." You noticed that she started crying, so you wiped her tears away kissing her on the lips. She smiled into the kiss wrapping her arms around your waist.
-
After some time her dad gave up on whatever he had in his sick head. Jaeyi told him that if he does anything bad to you, that she will never look at him as a father again. That got him back to reality a bit. You two still kept it private but not secret anymore. You held hands and Jaeyi didn't hold back when someone tried to flirt with you. That guy you were with for the time you tried to move on...Well lets just say Jaeyi took care of him. Even tho you went through a living nightmare, Jaeyis love for you never stopped. Not for one second.
Summary: Your relationship with Jaeyi is far from normal. It’s toxic, suffocating and obsessive. Students around you stay away from you to avoid trouble with Jaeyi. A new student enters which stirs things a little. Maybe she could be your escape? Or maybe it leads you to sink deeper into Jaeyi’s trap.
Yoo Jaeyi and you walk down the halls next to each other… or rather you’re trying to keep up with her. Her hand tightly wraps around yours, pulling you to match speed with her. You let out a small grunt of pain at how hard she’s gripping. She stares forward, ignoring everyone. You spare one glance to the side. Students mumble with each other as they stare at you. They quickly look away when you make eye contact with them. It’s quite sad, you have soon realized. No one dared try to talk to you ever since you got into a relationship with her. All your friends have left you without any reason. You’re constantly stuck with Jaeyi and it's starting to drive you crazy. The only space she allows you is by letting you sit alone at your desk. She sits a few rows behind you, so she can watch every movement you make.
Jaeyi drags you into her science lab. The little mice run around in their cages. It creeps you out. You never understood how she could easily test on those innocent mice. You pull back slightly to stop her. She narrows her eyes and finally turns around to look at you. You drop your shoulders in annoyance. You aggressively jerk your hands away from her before crossing your arms.
“What are you doing?” You fum. She breaks into a smile as she straightens her back.
“I want to spend time with you,” She chirps. You roll your eyes and let out a laugh of disbelief.
“I’ve been with you all day. Can’t I just spend some time somewhere else?” You huff. She turns around and walks deeper into the lab. She opens one of the cages and picks up a small mouse. She completely ignored you. You can feel your frustration building up. You hate when she blatantly ignores you.
“I am leaving,” You mumble before walking towards the door. You didn’t wait for her response. You knew she was going to find you anyway. No matter how far you try to hide and escape from her, she always seems to find a way to get you. It scares and baffles you. But what scares you the most is if she leaves you. She has removed everyone in your life… all you have left is her. You need her. You pause at the door handle.
“I’ll… text you,” You hesitate before exiting. Jaeyi secretly smirks as she lifts the mice to her face.
“Cute,” She mumbles directing it to you.
-
Class today is different. You stare at the new student, Woo Seulgi, standing in front of the class. She looks innocent and lost. Your eyes scan down to see her fidgeting with the ends of her uniform. Your lips broke into a small smile. You wonder if she could survive in this toxic school. She makes eye contact with you and you smile at her—a small one with no further meaning. You didn’t pay much attention to her after that. Returning to working on your homework. Suddenly you feel a presence beside you.
“...Can I sit here?” She softly asks. Her doe eyes are cute. The students in the room mumble against themselves. Your seat is usually empty. No one wanted to disturb your studying and gave you space. But truthfully it's because they don’t want to get in between you and Jaeyi. They fear what she could do to them.
“Yes,” You finally answer. You didn’t care what Jaeyi would think. You've had enough of her controlling your life. You can hear a couple of students softly gasping and mumbling. Seulgi smiles and takes a seat. You stare at her a little bit before looking down at your textbook. Jaeyi quietly analyzes the scene before her. Her facade doesn’t break. In fact, she smiles. It gets her excited. She finds you cute for trying to break her rules and not knowing what it will cause you.
-
It’s a few minutes after break and you walk back to class. You slide the doors of the classroom open to find it empty. You return earlier than the others. You make your way to your desk til a phone notification catches your attention. You scan the room to make sure you aren’t mistaken. You locate the noises coming from Jaeyi’s desk. You look around to make sure no one is around. Her phone buzzes against her desk a few more times. You couldn’t help but find it interesting that she would leave her phone. With curious eyes, you go to look at her texts.
‘Please delete the video’
‘I apologized!’
‘I’ll do anything you want!’
Your eyes widen in confusion. What video is this person talking about that they desperately want Jaeyi to delete it? Is she blackmailing someone? Before your thoughts can continue, the door slides open. You quickly glance away from her phone. Jaeyi stands at the door staring back at you. There is an unreadable look on her face. She smiles, but her eyes are emotionless. You slightly gulp and avert your stare. You walk to your desk and act like you weren’t caught red-handed. Jaeyi slowly walks past you while staring at you. You feel your heart racing. She takes a seat on her desk and lifts her phone. Her eyes swiftly read the text messages. She glances up from her phone to stare at you with heavy-lidded eyes.
She knows you saw it.
She slides off her desk. You hear her footsteps coming closer from behind. You unconsciously straighten your back. Your awareness heightens. She places her hand on top of your shoulders and grips. Your breathing hicks. She leans her body down til her lips touch your ears.
“Don’t tell anyone,” She whispers softly. You secretly clench your fist underneath the desk. She smirks and tilts her head to look at your face. You quickly stand up to get away from her. Her presence is too suffocating. The sweet scent of her perfume is enough to make your brain numb. Your action causes her to widen her eyes and step backward. You tug the green uniform closer to your body before glaring at her. You fascinate her without even trying. From behind, you can hear the sounds of more students entering the room. They all freely talk amongst themselves happily.
“I don’t care what you do as long as it doesn’t involve me,” You speak in a low tone. Little did you know, it does involve you. Everything Jaeyi does involves you whether you like it or not. Her lips slowly turn into a small smirk. You didn’t wait for her response and turned your body around. Right at that moment, a student accidentally bumps into you. The drink in her hand falls onto the white of your shirt. You can feel the cold liquid seep into the cloth. She gasps and immediately starts apologizing. You are stunned for a moment before forcing a small smile.
“It’s okay,”
“No no, I will pay for you,” She splutters. She starts running her hands over your shirt to try and clean it. Her face expresses such stress and embarrassment. Her movement causes the liquid to spread, making your shirt translucent. You softly grab onto her wrist to stop her.
“I said it’s okay,” You repeat. She stops moving and stares at you with pitiful eyes. Her poor heart feels like it’s escaping her chest. She nervously looks over to see Jaeyi staring at her with a blank expression. You let go of her hand and start walking to the door. You expect Jaeyi to follow you, but she doesn’t. You secretly feel sad and disappointed about it.
You enter the bathroom and slowly take off your uniform. This leaves you with just a bra on. You plop the white shirt into the sink and switch on the water. You quietly listen and watch the water drench your shirt. You tilt your head to look at the ceiling and let out a deep sigh. What a hassle. You didn’t have an extra pair of shirts meaning you would have to wear this wet shirt back to class. You reach down into the sink and start scrubbing the material. After a few minutes of scrubbing, you lift the shirt to examine it. Water drips at the edges. Good enough. You wring the shirt til it's somewhat dry and put it back on. The coldness makes you shiver. You just have to suffer through til the end of class.
You take a seat, slightly shivering. The air feels so cold against the wetness of your shirt. It feels uncomfortable having to be in a class like this. You avoid the stares of other students as you take out your textbooks. Among the students, one is particularly more interested. Jaeyi can't stop staring at you as you try to pay attention to your homework. Her eyes slowly examine your back. She sees the wet damp on your back and tilts her head. The wetness has made your shirt slightly translucent. Your bra is so visible, it's almost humorous to her. She can’t help but think it’s like you want her to see it. She starts to smirk and shift against her seat. You’re so exposed, yet you don’t even realize it. You lean forward to straighten your back. Her eyes dilate at the full view of your back. She nibbles her bottom lip as she starts to fantasize about you, specifically your bra.
She imagines herself running her fingers down your spine to tease you. She traps you between her body and your desk. You would blush so cutely as she leans her face close to yours. It drives her crazy how reactive you are.
“Stop it,” You glare at her, slightly pushing against her shoulders. She pushes you to sit on your desk. She quickly slides her body between your legs. She smirks and brings her hands to the front of your wet white button-up.
“Stop?” She hums as she starts to unbutton the first button. By the third button, she can see your bra peeking out. You shyly look away while biting your lips. She slowly finishes off the last button and quickly tugs your shirt aside to expose your front to her. Finally, after seeing your bra through the shirt, she can see it fully. The cold air touches your bare skin. Your cheeks start to burn bright red. Her eyelids become heavy with lust. She brings her hands up to cup your boobs. Her thumb harshly rubs against your nub. Your breathing hicks. You shut your eyes to save yourself from making more noise. Her two thumbs grind against your sensitive nub while groping the soft plush. She repeats the action over and over til your boobs start to become red from her touches. You tilt your head back and let out a soft moan. She smiles at your reaction and rewards you by kissing your neck. You try to clench your thighs together, but her waist stops you. Your lower stomach feels funny. Suddenly you couldn't handle her touch anymore. It’s making your brain turn into mush. You grip onto her wrist causing her to stop. She leans back and widens her eyes in surprise. Your breathing shakes as you glare up at her. Her eyes were black like the void, unreadable.
“Do you want me to stop?” She asks softly.
“...Yes,” You breathe out. You didn’t understand why you said yes. The feeling was too much… but it was also so good. She pauses, deep in thought before her eyes quickly shift.
“Okay,” She simply responds. She removes herself from your body, leaving you breathless on your desk. Your front is still completely exposed. She smiles at the redness on your chest. As you try to collect your thoughts, you hear a camera click. You quickly glare up to see her snapping a picture on her phone. A picture of your touched boobs. She smiles brightly and slides her phone back into her pocket.
Jaeyi clenches her thighs underneath her desk. She couldn’t believe that just imagining about you caused her to feel turned on. She grips her pencil and smiles. Laughing at herself for being so needy. It’s silly to her. She forces herself to look away from your innocent body and back to her textbooks. This little game you’re playing is just the beginning.
Seulgi begins to notice how see-through your shirt is. Her eyes widen, and she swiftly takes off her jacket, gently placing it over you for cover. You turn to meet her gaze, and she offers a soft smile before shifting her focus back to her homework. With a smirk, you touch the hem of her jacket, hoping Jaeyi noticed the gesture. She surely did. Though her expression stays neutral, her grip on the pencil tightens, turning her knuckles pale.
-
Jaeyi’s room is dark and cold as she slams you against her wall. She traps you between her hands. You grunt in pain at the impact. You could tell your shoulders are going to be bruised again. You glare up at her eyes in hatred. Her eyes dilate and you can see the pure jealousy in her eyes. Her tongue brushes the inside of her cheeks. Thoughts swirl inside her head. You couldn’t help but let out a laugh. She’s so jealous. So easy.
“You’re laughing?” Her voice low. You playfully move your eyes from her lips to her eyes while you poke her lower stomach. Your fingers slowly drag up to grip her collar. You tilt your head and lean closer to her face. Her eyebrows lift in amusement.
“You don’t control me,” You whisper. Her eyes darken as she smirks. You shove her back and attempt to walk away. She quickly grabs your wrist and spins you around. You fight against her, but she is surprisingly strong. Her hands naturally wrap around the back of your neck, forcing you to look at her. Your eyes feel like sharp knives while hers look warm.
“I’m going to prove to you I do,” She hisses. She presses her lips against yours softly. You try to move away, but the hand behind your neck locks you. Her tongue brushes against your closed mouth. Her fingers gently rub your neck. While she kisses you, she pushes you onto her bed. She quickly grabs your hands and pins them above your head. Her knee secretly slots between your legs causing you to moan. With your mouth open, she can deepen the kiss.
“Kiss me,” She begs. You try to squeeze your legs together, but her legs block you. You jerk your body, trying to get away from the source. You can feel yourself getting turned on. She leans away from the kiss in frustration. Her eyes are lidded and lustful. Your chest moves up and down fast. She dips her mouth down to your neck to lick and suck. You accidentally let out a soft moan. She smiles and bites down on your skin. She pulls away again to look at your eyes.
“Your moans are sweet,” She hums. Her voice is so soft and seductive. You feel your heart skip a beat.
“Fuck you,” You snap, feeling your cheeks turn red. She smiles and dips down to your ears. Her breathing tickles you.
“Stop fighting me,” She mumbles. She sticks out her tongue and licks the outer shell of your ears. You twitch against her body, squeezing your eyes shut. She knew every spot to get you hotter. With a quick movement, she unclasps three buttons from your shirt to reveal your bra. She licks her lips and squeezes her legs together. She’s been turned on since earlier.
“You teased me all day,” She whispers. She lets go of your wrists and places both hands on your boobs. You lay submissively, not trying to move away and she smiles. She starts pressing her fingers into the softness of your chest. Her eyes glued onto them like she’s addicted. Your nipple hardens and exposes themselves on the surface of the bra. Her eyes flicker up to watch your reaction as she brushes her thumbs against them. Your head tilts back a little and hum a soft moan. Her tongue drags down to the middle of your chest. Her hand continues to squeeze your boobs aggressively. You bring your hands down to her lower neck. You gently gesture her head to look back up.
“Kiss me,” You blush. She lets out a giggle and moves her body up to capture your lips again. You feverishly move your lips against hers. Her lips feel so soft and plump. You feel like you're floating. She tilts her head, bumping her nose against yours. She keeps the pace to match your needy ones. Her brain turns into a mess when you slightly bite her bottom. She pulls away from the kiss, her chest moving up and down. Her fingers move to unclasp the rest of your buttons. She helps you get out of your green school uniform. She starts taking off hers as well but leaves on her black bra and panties.
You bring a hand up to cover your red cheeks. You feel embarrassed being the only fully naked one. It makes you feel so vulnerable before her. Just how she wanted. She wants to show how much power she has over you. She moves to the side to grab something out of her bed drawers. Your heart starts to hammer against your chest when you realize what she’s holding. There between her hands is a small silver collar with a small chain. She returns between your thighs and gestures for you to sit up. You obey and she clasps the collar around your neck. She tugs the chains for fun causing you to jerk forward. She pecks your lips.
“Turn around,” She smiles. Your response is too slow making her tug the chains again. You grunt and it clicks into your head to start moving. You turn your body til you're on all fours, your bottom facing her. You gulp nervously because you can no longer see her. Suddenly you feel a hard slap on your bottom causing you to cry out. Her eyes darken and she smiles sinisterly.
“You know you’re not supposed to talk to anyone but me right?” She reminds you before slapping again. You bite your lower lip to stop yourself from crying out.
“I am just protecting you,” She whispers. She tugs the chains harshly making your head tilt back. You choke against the collar, tears starting to form.
“Say you’re sorry,” She demands. She slaps you again and smiles when she sees your ass turning red.
“S-sorry!” You cry. She places her cold hands gently against your bruised bottom. She rubs them a little then runs her fingers down to your slit. She rubs your core and chuckles. You’re shamefully wet. It’s like she didn’t have to do much for you to turn into a dirty mess for her. She rubs your juice around your clit. You moan and jerk your body. She continues to circle your clit til she can feel your juices spilling from your core.
“Please,” You beg, jerking your hips to chase her fingers. She smirks and tilts her head.
“Yes?” She purrs.
“...Please put it in,” You blush.
“Anything for you,” She hums before shoving two fingers into your core. You gasp at the sudden feeling of getting full. You squeeze your eyes shut and grip onto the bed sheets. Your eyebrows furrow in pleasure. She moves her fingers in and out slowly, watching closely at how your hips jerk against her. She feels more turned on and bites her lips. She lets you ride her fingers for a moment. Listening closely to your quiet moans. But you’re moaning too quietly for her. She tugs the chains hard causing you to tilt your head back. It chokes you. She starts moving her hands fast, abusing your walls. You cry out loudly.
“You react so well,” She mumbles to herself. The sounds of your wet core against her fingers become embarrassingly loud. You moan so sweetly it sounds like a melody in her ears.
“I’m going to come,” You choke. She moves her fingers faster and tugs the chains harder. You feel so sinister in this position. It makes you roll your eyes back and moan. Her two fingers slide easily against your wet gummy walls. After a few more strong thrusts, you come onto her fingers. You let out a loud high pitch moan. Your silk runs down her knuckles and she chuckles. She lets go of the chain and slows down her movement to let you catch your breath. She pulls out her wet fingers and rubs your clit. Your body shakes and jerks from overstimulation. Just when you thought it was over, you felt her fingers thrust into your core again.
“I am going to make you come over and over til you turn dumb,” She snickers, slamming her fingers knuckles deep. You cry out and jerk your body away from her, but the chains limit you from moving away. You claw at the collar, but find it useless as your body bounces at each of her thrusts.
“I want to numb your mind til all you think about is me.”
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