Pixel River

I write about my life as I try to figure out who I am.

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Favorites

My favorite movies are Avengers: Age of Ultron, Guardians of the Galaxy, Serenity, and the first Star Trek reboot. My favorite TV shows are Doctor Who, Firefly, Daredevil, Jessica Jones, and Agents of Shield. My favorite animes are Attack on Titan, Sword Art Online, Akame ga Kill, and Dangan Rompa. My favorite books are 1984 by George Orwell, The Fault in Our Stars by John Green, Dorthey Must Die and it's sequel The Wicked Will Rise by Danielle Paige (they are Wizard of Oz spinoffs), and the first third of Mockingjay*. My favorite mangas are Akame ga Kill, and the Legend of Zelda series. My favorite games are Minecraft and Splatoon. My favorite bands are Imagine Dragons, Bastille, Approaching Nirvana, and Twenty One Pilots. My favorite song? No idea. *Mockingjay spoiler alert! People like to ask me which of the Hunger Games books is my favorite. I always reply Mockingjay, until one of friends pointed out that all our favorite characters die. I had to specify that the beginning of Mockingjay I'd my favorite, but my entire favorite book is Catching Fire. I also like the end of Mockingjay.

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Father’s Day Everyday

So, I know Father’s Day is still fairly far away, but I realized again how underappreciated my dad is. He makes all of the money to support my family by working long hours and sleeps very little (by choice). After he comes home we don’t let him rest, as my mom often forgets everything she wants and doesn’t want to get up once she is comfortable so she sends him to grab everything for her. (And he does it without complaining.) And she does tell him thank you. My parents have an awesome relationship, it’s something I would strive for with my future partner. (On a side note, my dad and uncle have some of the most hilarious/ridiculous text conversations I have ever read. It is something I hope to achieve with my sister some day. I’m digressing, back to my dad.)

We have a couple of days to show our appreciation for him, but he would really rather we spend time with him playing games then buy him anything. I feel like this doesn’t really capture how much we appreciate him, so I now am going to set out to hug him and/or say “thank you” at least once a week. Who will join me in showing our love for our underappreciated fathers (or mothers)?

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Day 6, Update 1

So, quick update. I will have my phone, but I don’t think I’ll have enough time to write any updates so I’m going to have a couple queued up.

Also, I get really good ideas in the shower. Actually, a lot of my great thoughts seem to come to me when I’m in the shower. Like this blog, for example. Anyway, I thought for a long time I wanted to be an architect, and then I thought I wanted to be an interior designer. I actually had the change of heart around Christmas, so fairly recently. Now I’m think maybe something with psychology. (Not entirely sure why taking a shower made me think about psychology, but there it is.) It sounds fascinating, my only problem is I don’t really know all that much about it. So, if someone would care to enlighten me?

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Day 5, Update 1

Another late update, sorry.

So today I had attest that I failed. Now have to get a bunch of homework done in one day, as I have a thing on Friday and Saturday (and Sunday morning). I won’t have internet access (*gasp*), or my phone (*bigger gasp*), but I will take paper and make a note at the end of each day and post all updates Sunday night.

Now I have to pack for the thing, take a shower, and maybe do some of the homework. Probably just going to wear one pair of jeans and pack a couple shirts.

Side note: my cat is yelling at me. He wants attention, but if I pick him up he leaves. Also if I don’t pet him satisfactory. I’m still not entirely sure what he wants, but you’d think I’d have figured it out after almost two years. When he was a tiny baby kitten he liked to snuggle, but now when you hold him he squirms and tries to fall out of your arms. He’s still super cute though. He’s a Siberian, one of, if not the, biggest domestic cat breeds. He is super fluffy. Have a picture:

Also, he has the loudest purr I have ever heard. Oh, and his name is Jayden.

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Day 4, Update 1

Sorry, this is a bit of a late and long update...

So today I discovered that you can’t pay all of your bills with a minimum wage job. I literally did the math, and it was impossible. I was trying to find out if I could live off minimum wage because I decided that all I want in life is my own (soundproof*) room and internet access. However, the cheapest apartments near me are, even shared, too much to afford a month on minimum wage. Granted I did do all the math for a year, but I still was out of money before I could even consider a phone plan!

I’m bringing this up because a room and internet access shouldn't be all that expensive. When you take how much you earn a year, and then remove money for insurance, food, rent, transportation, and water/heating/electricity, you have nothing left over. Actually, you have less then you started with. When you then start adding in the costs for clothes, internet, a phone plan, and anything else optional, you're in dept.

And maybe some people can live that way, but I am accustomed to a certain lifestyle. And I am willing to let that go a bit, but I would still like to have my own room and internet access.

*I would like a soundproof room so I can stay up as late as I like and play my music without headphones on. It’s a bit unrealistic, but the closest to my own home that I assumed I could afford. Other than a tiny house, but that has it’s own implications.

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Day 3, Update 1

Today has not been a great day for me. First my alarm clock went off and I woke up from a dream in which I thought I had just woken up and was therefore extremely confused. Second, I fell over for no discernible reason. (While this is something that seems to happen on a fairly regular basis, it just made my day worse.) Third, I thought I was going to tutoring but forgot that there was a different thing so I didn’t get tutoring, I had to try to figure my problems out on my own. (I don’t think it will end well.) Fourth, I had to speak in a language that I am learning, and couldn't remember how to say a very specific thing. (Also not going to end well.) Fifth, I tried to buy tickets to a show happening in the summer as soon as they went on sale but in under a minute all the VIP tickets had sold out. (I didn’t get one of these tickets. Very sad about that as getting VIP tickets was going to make my day better.) And sixth, ate too much ice cream. (And yes, that may seem impossible, but when it’s very creamy sometimes you just don’t love it as much as you think you would. [Subtly trying to hint I had Cold Stone. I got a Love It sized cake batter with KitKats.])

So what did I do?

Stayed up late watching Doctor Who. Fixes all your problems when the Doctor has to save the world from a woman named Missy and all you have is a bruise, some problems learning Japanese, some sort of ticket to a show you want to see, and you got dessert. Seriously, his problems make mine seem insignificant. Daleks, and Angels, and Cybermen, oh my!

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Ideal Guy

I just spent around half an hour writing what my ideal guy would be, and it somehow all disappeared. I can’t even sum it up, and I’m not going to rewrite it, so now I feel like I’m going to cry. Why I didn’t save it somehow, idk.

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Day 2, Update 2

I can’t see a future for myself. I used to be able to, and I know what I want to do for a job, but I can’t see my future further then tomorrow. I want to be an interior designer, but I also love to write, and play games, and play music. This lack of ability to see the future has me sitting at my desk listing to Roots by Imagine Dragons on loop. Literally, I’m listening to it on loop because it just so perfectly seems to capture my current mood.

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Day 2, Update 1

So, I have a class tomorrow that I’m pretty sure I’m failing (it’s Japanese). I wanted to withdraw when I could, but my parents refused to allow me to. Now I’m going to fail and my grade is going to fall below a C and it’s going to be bad.

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Don’t know what to do about mom

I found this cool thing and showed it to my mom, and said, “Look, I found another way to waste time,” as a joke. She replied, dead serious, “You’re going to end up homeless living under a bridge.” Thanks Mom. I really needed to hear that, especially when I don't know what I’m doing with my life. And now I’m crying because I have a four hour thing and I just want to curl up in a ball and pretend I don’t exist.

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Day 1, Update 1

So I have to go to a thing in less than a half hour when the only thing I feel like doing is going to sleep. Or rewatching Doctor Who. Also, creating this blog was procrastinating from a thing I need to do for the thing I don’t want to go to. And, if I don’t do the thing for the thing I don’t want to go to, I can’t do a thing that will let me go to a thing in the summer that I want to go to. Yay procrastination preventing me from doing a fun thing. And yay sarcasm. And yay frozen Girl Scout cookies. I’m actually happy about the Girl scout cookies. So yummy.

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Hello

I’m River. I wrote out a long post of things I like and dislike, and then it somehow got swallowed by the internet and I don't know where it went. Basically my life. So much wasted time...

Anyway my likes: Video games, science fiction books, YouTube, good superhero movies, music, cats

My dislikes: Almost anything in the romance genre, fishing for complements, going outside to be outside, action movies where the guy gets the girl and that’s it, fake/paper people

My identity: Female, tomboy, into guys but maybe also girls, maybe depressed