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Rating: Explicit (E) Word Count: ~ 5.2 K (i have no chill, it seems) Notable Tags: Mafia Boss Steve Rogers, Daddy Kink, Age Difference, Established Relationship, Manhandling, Spanking, Slapping (pussy and face), Crying, Rough Sex, Dirty Talk, Multiple Orgasms, Light Breathplay, Office Sex, Desk Sex, Possessive Behavior, Flirty Bisexual Bucky Barnes A/N: Ugh y'all, these two. This has been in my WIP folder for so so long now and I'm thrilled to finally finish it and share it, even if it almost ended me and even if I hated it by the end because I'd been staring at it for far too long. 😅 Special thank you to those who looked it over and reassured me constantly, @vilkasdaina, @maddiewritesstucky, and @sweeterthanthis. Find more of Daddy and his Kitten's story here. I hope you enjoy! 🧡

You try your hardest to not let the power go to your head. 

The love of your life may be the feared and respected leader of the underbelly of the east coast, but you know who he comes crawling back to each night, who has the honor of worshiping him in a way that no one has had the privilege to before. 

While you try your hardest to not let said power go to your head, it never fails to do just that each and every damn time you’re reminded of your possession over each other. And if it goes right to your pussy as well as your head, who can blame you?

The moment you catch Bucky’s eye from down the hallway, you can hear the relief in his voice, can see it in the way he takes a deep breath and lets his shoulders drop. 

“Fuck, doll— I’ve never been happier to see someone in my whole fuckin’ life,” he exclaims as his eyes run down the line of your body, his eyebrow arching immediately. You aren’t sure why he’s surprised; he warned you that pulling out all the stops was necessary on a day like today. 

“I’m happy I could make your day,” you joke as you reach for each other in greeting, Bucky’s fingers wrapping around your nape, lips pressing tightly against your cheek. He smells like spearmint, a bit musky like he’s worked up a sweat at some point during the day. You’re almost certain it’s sweat brought on by his boss and you already feel the need to apologize on his behalf for working Bucky up over what is assuredly nothing.

“Sweetheart, if you can fix his fucking attitude you’ll make more than just my day.” 

You’re sure you should be offended on some level, degraded maybe, but being called in to help improve Steve’s piss poor mood makes you feel special, makes you hot right where it counts. Knowing that others have done what they can to help improve his mood, his sharp tongue and his short patience, with no success makes you feel unique, privileged, one of a kind. It makes you hold your chin high. 

You know what your Daddy needs, know that you hold the answer to what will improve everyone’s day, starting with Steve’s own. Everyone knows why you’re here, everyone knows what you can bring to the boss that no one else can, and you aren’t ashamed in the slightest. 

You’re almost tempted to drop the thin, knee-length jacket you’re donning to the floor right where you stand outside Steve’s office. Then there would be no trace of doubt left behind as to why you’re here and what you’re bringing to the boss. 

“Anything I should know?” you inquire softly, Bucky immediately sighing and running a hand down his face in response to your question. 

“Nothin’ new, same prick as always, just maybe…times ten. Can’t get two words out without him snapping at you, not one goddamn thing is good news. Dealt with some trouble down in the borough himself, went a bit far. Might still be bloodied up from that. Didn’t even lift his spirits any.” 

It’s worse than you thought. Your plan immediately shifts in your head where you stand. He doesn’t need a docile, sweet partner— he needs that final push. You nod your head, mind quickly made up, and turn towards Steve’s office doors. 

“You sure you don’t wanna stick around, Buck?” you tease quietly, and it’s indeed a bad day if Bucky, although he sinks his teeth into his bottom lip, shakes his head as he begins to walk away. 

“Goddamn, you know I’d love to, doll. But I can’t stick around and look at his ugly fuckin’ mug for one more second; I gotta go do some damage control. He may owe me for this, but I owe you.” 

Another time then. 

You wouldn’t have needed Bucky’s warning to know that Steve is indeed having an awful day; the state of his office is enough of a sign that things are not going well. Chairs are misplaced, papers scattered and quite obviously unorganized on both the coffee table and his desk. Steve enjoys a calm work environment, is a man that prioritizes tasks daily, enjoys sunlight and openness, demands serenity from the aspects of his life he can control. 

Steve is not having a very good day. 

You don’t bother locking the door; you aren’t worried about others seeing you with the boss. You almost hope it happens; it might improve his mood even further. You make quick work of the belt on your coat, slipping it off from your shoulders and draping it along the back of a chair. The crisp air of Steve’s office slips up your spine, your neck, down your nearly nude form. It’s comforting as it spreads across your heated body, has your shoulders squaring on their own accord. 

Your matching lingerie set is black and sheer, leaves nothing to the imagination with the strings of your thong resting high on your hips and your bra cupping your breasts perfectly. You leave your heels on, just as he’d like, same with your stockings. Steve is weak for the feel of their sheerness, softness, on his skin and you’ll take any sort of help you can get. 

His back is turned to you, his attention placed solely on whatever it is he is looking at at the table behind his desk. Even hunched over and irritated, he exudes such natural power and dominance you can’t help the warmth that builds between your legs, the way your eyelids droop at the sight of him alone. His dark slacks, his crisp white dress shirt that’s open at the collar, the ring on his pinky and the matching gold of a watch at his wrist, the ink that litters his body with purpose— he’s so obviously a man in charge. 

You want to console him, want to press your lips to his temple and hum, want to sit yourself in his lap and ground him, but from what Bucky has told you, that won’t work today. You're racking your brain of how to proceed when Steve is the one to speak up first.

You should have known that he would be more than aware of your presence. You’re the one that has snuck into his office unannounced and here he is, speaking up with a stern enough voice that it startles you. 

“What are you doin’ here, kitten?”

His tone demands an answer, an honest one and a quick one. It’s an impatient tone you aren’t used to but one that fits this environment. You’re bristled at his shortness but you don’t let it show, keeping your chin high and voice firm. 

“What do you think I’m doing here?” you respond with, beginning to slowly make your way in Steve’s direction, heels muted against the sprawling rug in his office, trailing your fingertip over the leather seats as you prowl. He scoffs then, a tiny noise that could be mistaken for something it isn’t, but to you it almost feels like a slap to the cheek, and not the kind you’re fond of. 

You continue to take steps in his direction nonetheless.

He turns and looks over his shoulder and there’s a brief moment where you feel you’ve won, where you feel victorious in your purpose in the way he allows himself  to drink you in, eyes damn near a physical touch as they roam your form. It is but a moment though, and he’s quick to turn his attention back in the other direction. 

You don’t think he’s ever rejected you. 

In fact, he’s always been quick to do the opposite, to make you more than aware that he craves you day and night. 

You’re immediately miffed, more than so. You look like a fucking bombshell, you left work early, you’re ready to help melt the stress away from your boyfriend’s day— how dare he not drop everything and crawl in your direction? 

You think you’re angry now, but then you hear him mumble a curt, “I’m a bit busy here, sweetheart,” and that’ll do it. 

Fuck him. 

You can’t even stop to see this situation from his point of view, can’t calm your emotions long enough to consider the circumstances that brought you here. You’re standing here in stockings and sheer lingerie and red bottoms and he wants to dismiss you? No, no. You don’t even hesitate to go for the kill, go right for what will piss him off the most. 

“Oh, that’s fine,” you start, voice deceivingly angelic as you glance down at your pristine manicure, paid for by him of course. “Bucky seemed to think I could come make your day, but if you want to be a dick about it, I’ll go see if he is willing to take full advantage of all of this.”  

You don’t even wait for him to say anything, digging your heel into the carpet as you turn your back on him, your body trembling all over in anger. You make sure he gets an eyeful though, the cherry on top surely being the sway of your hips, the view of your ass he can never say no to. 

You make it two steps towards the door after reaching for your coat before his hands are on you.

He wraps a thick arm around your waist, his other hand coming up to curl around the front of your throat, yanking you back against his chest. You can immediately feel the way his own body trembles with caged emotion, and while it should be a comfort to you, it is anything but. It could be pent up emotions from the day, it could be ones you’re bringing out right now. It could be a combination of the two. Either way, you do not find solidarity in your shared outbursts.

The fight within you is strong. You’re ready to take him on and if he wants to go about it in such a physical way, then so be it.

“You wanna run that by me again, kitten?” he spits lowly into your ear, holding you roughly against the rigid line of his much larger body. You don’t make it easy for him, twisting and bucking as much as you can as he pulls you back further into his office, further away from the door. As physically useless as the fight is, pushing back feels good. You dig your blood red nails into his forearm, thrash against his hold. 

“Yeah, sure,” you bite out like a brat, making sure to speak clearly. “If you’re not going to take advantage of me, I’m sure Bucky would love to. In fact—” 

Your words are muffled by his hand, the last of them drowned out by his growl. You kick over a chair as he picks you up off the floor, knocking it to the ground as you flail, and as you reach his desk, you happily tear your teeth into Steve’s palm. He only grunts in frustration, hand coming back down to your neck in an instant, frustration evident in the way his fingers curl around the column of it.

“Shut your fuckin’ mouth,” he whispers against your temple, and you can’t stop your husky laugh as it tumbles out of your mouth. 

“Daddy doesn’t mean that.”

With a noise of frustration, he has you shoved over his desk at the waist, hip bones digging sharply into the expensive oak. Your coat is long forgotten a few steps back and his hand is on your ass without pause, squeezing roughly at one cheek and then the other. The set of smacks that follow are startling, painful and succinct. 

You love it.

The huff you let out is intended to be one of irritation, of shock, but instead it comes out laced with throaty pleasure. Damn Steve Rogers and the size of his hands, his strength, his intimate knowledge of everything that makes your pussy throb and your walls crumble for him and only him. 

He may have you deliciously and physically restrained, but you’re still more than upset he didn’t want a taste of what you’ve brought to him, a taste of this. But he still hasn’t covered your mouth, and you’re not quite done pushing his buttons. 

“Daddy loves it when my mouth is wide open. Right, Daddy? Didn’t you say something like that last night?” 

You rarely speak to him this way, goading and aggressive, and you momentarily question whether or not you’re crossing a line. That is, until you feel his cock dig into the cushion of your ass cheek, the grind unintentional if his grumble turned bitten-off groan tells you anything. Perfect— you’ve just figured out how to help improve your boyfriend’s mood. 

You roll your ass back into his cock, swirl your hips back against his bulge.

With a snarl, he flips you, tosses you onto your back onto his desk. 

Goddamn. You pause for a moment to take note of how fucking hot Steve is when he’s angry. It’s different when it’s at you, you see this now. You’ve witnessed his anger directed at others, but you’ve not once been on the receiving end of it. Maybe you should make him angry more often. 

His chest heaves as he looks down at you, stormy eyes slow to rake over your surely flushed body, a normally slicked-back lock of hair curling over his forehead. The tattoos that lace the column of his throat seem more pronounced with his open collar and his heaving chest. There isn’t a stray beard hair in sight, the salt and pepper hairs trimmed close to his skin. The pause drags on for a few seconds more and you almost feel the need to heel and spread your legs and to give in. But that’s not what Steve needs. 

Instead you spread your legs and bring the point of your heel up to dig into his shoulder. 

He visibly grits his teeth as he gazes down hotly at you, his hands coming to grip your waist tight enough to make you wince. But you don’t break eye contact, even as he leans into your heel, even as he digs it further into his shoulder. Fuck, you’re in love with this man. 

“You think Bucky would tell me to keep my mouth closed?” you whisper without shame, leaning up onto your elbows to drive the point home. “You think he’d appreciate me coming into his office in his favorite pair of panties of mine, just about begging to be fucked?” 

It’s harsh, yes, but you’re still upset and you have a job to complete; you’re not a quitter. And it pays off immediately when Steve all but growls, “You think he can give you somethin’ I can’t?” 

Perfect.

You dig your foot into his chest with a hard shove. 

“No.” 

You can’t see the confusion in Steve’s features but you know it’s there. He can stay light on his feet all he wants but you’re hard to keep up with, you know this. 

Dropping your foot from his shoulder, you wrap both of them around his waist, damn near yanking him towards you. The impressive bulge in his pants is hard as steel and you whimper softly yet unashamedly when it grinds in tight against your panty-covered pussy, eyes still on his. Feeling his need for you, it’s easy for the anger to slightly clear and for you to finally consider the kind of day he’s had, that he needs you to prove to him that this is part of your purpose as his partner. 

“No, he can’t, Steven,” you sternly tell him, voice low yet demanding as you reach for the collar of his shirt, tugging. “No one can give me what you can give me.”

A spark of a flame reaches his eyes then, hitting him right where it counts, right in that possessive bone in his body. You speak into his mouth, his warm breath on your tongue causing your chest to constrict.

“But if you want to be a dick about me showing up looking hot as fuck, showing up just so you can fuck me and go about your day as the boss, then yes— I’m gonna tease you about someone else appreciating me” 

Steve rolls his hips slowly, deeply, rumbles as he rakes his hands up your torso to palm roughly at your breasts over your bra, your nipples pebbling immediately. He pinches them both before his hands are moving on. You hiss, clit throbbing at the rough attention. 

“You’re a real fuckin’ piece’a work. You know that?”

You dig your heels into his back when you huff, brazenly nipping at his chin. 

“Of course I know that. Now, fuck me, Daddy. Take it out on me, use me to feel better. Come on.” 

Steve never needs to be told twice; he’s a man of action. He takes full advantage of being told he has complete access to your body, reaching for the strings of your panties and ripping them down your legs carelessly. 

“Of fucking course you wore the stockings. Knew from the moment you walked in here. With these on, you’re up to no fuckin’ good.”

He grabs and squeezes at handfuls of your thighs as he speaks and you finally cave and give into the moment with a whine, head falling back onto the desk. Steve shoves your legs apart in the air around his body, his hand coming down tightly over your bare pussy, first one time and then a few smacks after that. Fuck. The sting of it is exactly what you want, what this moment is worthy of, and you clench desperately around nothing in response. 

“Motherfucker,” you damn near snarl, and where you’d normally spread your legs further and pout, you try your hardest to pull them tightly closed. Steve needs a fight, needs to burn off more energy than a normal fuck will provide him with. He proves you right once more when he pries your legs apart, uses a kind of force that you rarely see. You’re no match for his strength. Your legs are barely pressed together for two seconds before he’s got them spread yet again with a growl. 

You barely get out a hiss of “Yes,” before he’s draped over you, mouth latching onto your neck. It’s so much. In your head you hadn’t got as far as this, your plan only reaching up to you convincing Steve to have his way with you, and even that hadn’t gone as planned. You hadn’t considered how difficult it would be to keep your goal and purpose in the forefront of your mind while Steve actively ravaged your body. 

His mouth is brutal on your neck, the press of teeth and the suction of lips enough to leave you gasping, your hands making weak attempts at pushing him away. You feel him reach between your bodies and fumble with his belt, the zipper of his pants, and you force out an impatient noise to rile him up further. 

“Come on, Daddy— give it to me,” you murmur, reaching around to dig your hands into his ass. “Show this little pussy why you’re her Daddy, why you own her.” 

“Fuckin’ hell, kitten…”

He brings his hand up to his mouth, collects spit on a few of his fingers, brings them back down to his cock. He doesn’t slam his way inside of you, and while he ensures you aren’t in unwanted pain, that first deep slide is enough to shove you halfway to your climax already. The girth of him never fails to take your breath away, to send you sailing into orbit. 

His deep and appreciative groan is enough to have made all of this shit worth it, the chaos that was this almost failed attempt at providing your boyfriend with stress relief. It’s also enough to send you that much closer to your orgasm. 

There is no difference between the pushiness and aggression leading up to this point and this moment; Steve fucks you with unabashed emotion and need. You aren’t used to this, this sort of raw need, this force. The walls of your pussy strain to take him, to adjust. The sensation of Steve on top of you, between your legs, the whole weight of him pressing you into his desk, being selfish is foreign. 

Where Steve is usually smooth and focused and giving, this version of him is anything but.

He isn’t concerned about you for a second, not your pleasure or your feelings. His hands delve up into your hair, the both of them, twisting them as he fucks roughly up into your pussy, grinding and rolling and humping. He holds you where he wants you, restricts your movements and keeps you where he can best get his dick soaked. It’s a form of bliss you’ve not once experienced, and your shared eye contact, this heavy gaze he refuses to break, makes you choke on a sob. 

“Fuck it,” you bite out against his mouth, barely able to hear your words over the rush of blood in your ears, over the sound of him fucking into you with abandon. “You fuck that pussy like no one else can, Daddy. That’s Daddy’s pussy.”

Steve curses. Even as you say the words, you feel them directly in your clit, the throb of them intense. The forceful grinds with every other thrust presses the base of Steve’s cock tight against your clit, each one making you choke down a whimper. You’re shaking where you lay, nails digging encouragingly into the meat of Steve’s ass, legs spread wide, knees pressed back towards your shoulders. Steve has full access to you, as he deserves. The glide of him is sublime, the stretch of him enough to leave you panting, in and out, in and out. 

Your pussy feels so good being used the way that it is. You can’t catch your breath.

You aren’t the least bit surprised when your orgasm tears through you.

“Oh shit, that’s yours, that’s Daddy’s. That pussy comes for Daddy, all for—”

“Jesus Christ, you’re gonna milk me fuckin’ dry. Haven’t even been inside’a you for a minute and you’re fallin’ apart.” 

You openly sob, tears springing to your eyes as the sensitive walls of your pussy suck Steve in, flutter and pulse around his girth. He doesn’t stop, cock digging into that sweet spot inside of you, movement prolonging your orgasm as you groan. Your pussy is so wet you can feel it soaking the inside of your thighs, the base of Steve’s cock. 

You have half the mind to note that your plan is working, that Steve is finding his footing again, that he’s confident and feeling dominant, in charge. You can’t hold back your lax smile, and the way Steve all but scoffs at the sight of it makes you turn your face and reach for his teeth with your jaw. 

“Surely that’s not all you’ve got,” you hear yourself pant shakily, your voice and the way your limbs tremble betraying you in an instant. “Come on, big daddy— show ‘em why you’re the boss.”

He’s climbing onto the desk, still inside you, without a second thought. 

“Yes, yes—”

“Un-fucking-believable…” 

The smile that’s spread across your face is only present for a few seconds before you’re biting it away, Steve’s hands in your hair moving, one curling to scruff you by the nape of your neck. The other tears at your bra, impatiently ripping one cup down, your breast spilling out and into his waiting hand. He squeezes at you roughly, fingers smacking down tightly over your nipple. 

Your head bounces with his thrusts, only to be pulled back by Steve’s hand on your nape. He uses you like a doll, like a toy. It all makes you want to scream: the new angle allowing for Steve to fuck messiliy into you, the complete physical dominance, the animalistic noises Steve continues to let out, how wet and wrecked you feel and sound. It’s enough for tears to begin to stream down your face. 

Looking back, you’ll surely blame it on how startlingly emotional you became as he fucked you mercilessly, how unprepared you were for your body and mind’s reactions. You may blame it on how cockdrunk you are, how out of your mind the feeling of Steve dicking you down so thoroughly made you. 

You raise your hand and bring it down hard across his cheek. 

The crack of it is so shocking to you, both in sound and sensation on your palm, that you gasp raggedly. The moment seems to have called for it, such harsh treatment, but you hold your breath when Steve grunts, hips stilling, eyes wild when his head snaps back down to look at you. 

When he doesn’t say anything, you whimper, your whimper easily turning into a hiccup, too nervous to speak.

He punches his hips forward, silencing you with the stretch of him, with feeling him up in your guts. You blink back your tears as you bite down onto your lip.

“Again,” he finally rasps out, the hand on your nape slipping around to the front of your throat, squeezing. “Fuckin’ hit me again, kitten.” 

That’s it for the both of you.

Your opposite hand is up in the air and you do what you can to bring it down onto Steve’s other cheek with another sob, all while he fucks into you so roughly your body scrapes across his desk with every thrust. The smack is sloppy and only slightly makes contact with his jaw, but it’s enough to send the two of you hurtling towards your orgasms. 

Yours is so blinding it almost hurts, the way it bursts from your center and outwards. You can’t make a noise, a scream lodged in your throat, body making a valiant attempt at arching up into Steve’s own, shaking. You lay there and take your climax, let Daddy rob it from your body, drink it up. 

You know he’s coming by the way he squeezes your throat and bites out a gritty, “Fuck.”

“You better think twice about comin’ into my office and teasin’ me with your pussy again, little girl,” he pants into your ear, voice rougher than you’ve ever heard it to be, just able to cut through the fog in your mind. “Fuck, you wanna come up into my office tellin’ me you’re gonna go let somebody else have what’s mine?”

There’s not an ounce of fight left in you as your pussy continues to pulse and quiver around his cock, as you lay there splayed for him, taking his load.

“No, no! It’s Daddy’s, s’daddy’s pussy, all for Daddy. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Daddy. I’m—” 

You’re babbling nonsense, the roll of Steve’s hips not slowing, the stroke of his cock along your inner walls making you dizzy. Your voice has turned nasally, small and whiny, just like Daddy likes it. Steve’s hand trembles around your neck. You can feel his come leak out of you, how messy you feel as he continues to fuck into you, hips slowing but not halting like you’re used to.

“No,” he groans, shaking his head, his lips smearing messily against your cheek, your jaw. “You’ve got nothin’ to be sorry for, baby. You know me so fuckin’ well, know just what your Daddy needs. You’re perfect, fuck, a perfect goddamn angel.” 

Euphoria. 

There’s nothing else he could have said that would make you feel the way you do now. You’re pushing overstimulation, thighs trembling around Steve’s waist, chest heaving as you’re left sucking air into your lungs. Your body and mind have been sent to hell and back and you didn’t realize how badly you wanted to hear Steve reassure you that this was okay, that everything you’ve done and said was acceptable. 

You pull him down to you with another hitch in your breath, fingers slipping through his hair, arms winding around his neck.

He begins to litter your face with kisses once he finally does slow and eventually stops the slide of his cock, hissing, body settling down onto your own with a heaving sigh. The weight of him is hefty but welcomed, the reminder of his sturdiness something that you let settle into your bones. 

“Don’t be sorry, kitten. I won’t allow it. Not after that.” 

You hum.

“So bossy,” is all you murmur into his beard, your legs slipping down the backs of his own, holding him close. 

“I’m pretty sure you were just tellin’ me to prove I was the boss, so…”

You merely harrumph in response; you’re done arguing for the day, possibly the week.

After a few blessed, silent moments of breathing and coming down from your shared high together, you begin to let a sense of accomplishment slip through your mind. You were brought in to help, to bring Steve out of his head and to improve his mood and therefore the mood of everyone else in his presence. You’ve made a difference, have helped your Daddy, were thoroughly dicked down in the process. And even though this was more emotionally heavy than you anticipated, you feel good. 

“I’m sorry,” Steve eventually breaks the silence with, pulling his head back in order to look you in the eyes as he apologizes. He always has to look you in the eyes when you’re sharing serious words. Communication is something he values highly, your constant honesty with one another a must for him and in turn you. In his line of work, how he spends his days, he can’t risk the two of you not being on the same page.

He kisses your lips softly, his hands slipping through your hair.

“I’m sorry for not giving you the attention you deserved when you walked in here, baby.” 

You shake your head. “I should have been more cognizant of your mood and how your day has gone. I’m sorry too.” 

He kisses you again, once and then twice, lips soft and gentle with your own. 

“What I’m not going to apologize for,” he whispers then, voice deep and mischievous, “is everything that led up to you smackin’ me.”

You giggle, first softly and then louder as Steve grips your chin and doesn’t let you shy away from his eye contact. He nips at your chin. 

“Fuck, sweetheart. Where the hell did that come from?” 

“I don’t know! I…it just felt right. I’m so—” 

“Nope,” he cuts you off quickly, nose nudging your own. “No apologizing, I already said that. You’re perfect. I’m serious— this was just what I needed.”

You sigh into his next set of kisses, exhaustion slowly seeping into your bones.

“Well, you’ll have to thank Bucky for this later.” 

“I will do no such thing.” 

He slips from your body then, motioning for you to stay where you are and to not move. You don’t think you could sit up without help. He comes back from the adjacent bathroom looking everything provider and Alpha and Daddy, slacks buttoned and white shirt tucked into them. He cleans you off with a warm washcloth, puts the pieces of your sexy getup that are out of place back to where they belong. His hands linger on your thighs, stroking at the softness of your stockings. 

He touches you with such gentleness and care. It’s so different from the touches he gave you just moments before, the ones you can feel growing sore already. 

“I love you,” you find yourself whispering once he’s pulled you into a sitting position on his desk, taking a seat behind it in his chair. He pulls you easily to the edge, takes both of your hands into his own, brings them each to his lips. 

“I love you as well, sweetheart,” he purrs, hands moving to grip at your hips, to pull at them like he does when he’s feeling ready for another round. Surely he isn’t, not after that. He leans forward, kisses the top of each of your breasts. 

“I was rough on you wasn’t I, kitten? Gonna have to make it up to her later, get my mouth on her and give her kisses to—” 

Bucky doesn’t even knock when he enters the office, walks right in as if it’s his own. He doesn’t care that you’re practically naked, that you’ve obviously been fucked to the edge of your life, that the two of your are surely flushed and marked enough to prove what you’ve just been spending your time doing. He walks right up to Steve’s desk, hands in his pockets, casual. 

“You missed the show, Buck,” Steve grumbles, pulling you closer and gathering you into his lap, not wanting your near naked body to be seen by his right hand man. As if he hasn’t seen it before. Bucky whistles low, throws a wink over your way that you catch over your shoulder. 

“Oh, no no no,” Bucky rumbles knowingly. “I don’t think anyone in this house missed that show…Daddy.”

[pixidustprincess]

Reader insert is not usually my thing, but if Mama K writes it, I'm damn well going to read it - and I did not regret this one bit. <3 I love Kinktober - so many delightful little treats to read!

[frodo-baggins]

“I want to see the wild country again before I die, and the Mountains; but he is still in love with the Shire, with woods and fields and little rivers.”

[crackdkettle]

Look, I didn’t make Bucky’s capture and possible death the catalyst that caused Steve to fully embrace Captain America. I didn’t make Bucky’s death the thing that shifted Steve’s moral center from “I don’t want to kill anybody” to “I’m not gonna stop until all of Hydra is dead or captured”. I didn’t write a conversation about romance where Steve uttered the line, “It’s kind of hard to find someone with shared experience,” about fifteen minutes before Bucky miraculously reappeared with a boatload of shared experience. I didn’t make a vow of lifelong devotion the thing that broke through Bucky’s seventy years of brainwashing. I didn’t write it so the mere mention of Bucky’s name caused Steve to lose focus long enough for someone to almost blow him up. I didn’t make Steve so devoted to Bucky that he went against not only his own government and half his friends but also one hundred and seventeen nations to protect him even when Bucky was actively trying to run away from his help. I didn’t make Steve try to stop a helicopter with his bare hands to keep Bucky with him even though Bucky was trying to kill him in that moment. I didn’t make Steve fight Tony literally almost to death to protect Bucky. I didn’t make Steve drop his shield for Bucky, symbolically and literally choosing him over being Captain America, not just once but twice. I didn’t base Steve and T’Challa’s alliance mostly on T’Challa’s willingness and ability to protect and take care of Bucky when Steve can’t. I didn’t make Bucky the only person Steve ever truly and fully smiles at in Infinity War, and I definitely didn’t choose him as the person to disintegrate before Steve’s eyes, leaving him shocked and devastated.

In short, I didn’t write Bucky Barnes into the traditional role of Steve Rogers’ love interest, but I sure as hell noticed when Marvel did.

[karadin]

I also didn’t write a great character named Peggy Carter that stood on her own as equal to Steve, who lived an entire fulfilled life without him and in her old age became his mentor and anchor in the present, which gave her more value that a love interest to another character.

I remember certain writers who were then making money on creating a Bucky-centric narrative who said ‘Peggy was only someone Steve kissed once’ and then in reshoots had Steve awkwardly kiss her great niece once after a bizarre turn where Black Widow keeps trying to set Steve up with dates with women. 

I was also not the writers who never mentioned Peggy once in Infinity War, or never put Peggy into any of the promotional material for Endgame, but literally made Bucky Steve’s shadow.

And I was not a director who decided that making Bucky conspicuously absent during the battle and distant during the ending scenes made the absurdity of Steve going backward figuratively, morally, literally even more stark. (pun intended)

[sphinxx-eternal]

Fucking THANK YOU. I’m sick to death of people saying that my dissatisfaction with Steve’s ending is all about shipping. I am 100% just as mad for Peggy. She deserves better than to be the “prize” after she worked so hard to move on and build a healthy life for herself. Like Frigga told Thor, Endgame Steve is not Peggy’s Steve.

Endgame Steve isn’t my Steve either. My Steve wouldn’t leave dozens of people looking to him for leadership to go play house in the 50’s. My Steve wouldn’t LIE to everyone (except Bucky) about his intentions. My Steve wouldn’t sit around for the next 70 years knowing Hydra is festering in Shield.

[the1918]

Thinking about Bucky just.. Sitting on farmer Steve's dick, maybe squirming a little and using him to get off, the two of them trying to see how long Steve will last before coming or just snapping and fucking his boy *_* hours? How long do you think Steve would last?

This is such a wonderful thought (so wonderful that I have literally been thinking of an answer for weeks now). Here’s what came rolling through my head...

I think Bucky asking Steve if he can use Daddy’s (thick, thick) cock to get himself off is something that happens fairly frequently, both because Bucky loves the way it feels and because Steve will do just about anything if it means pleasure for Bucky. This is a man who never says ‘no’—unless he thinks it will hurt his baby, of course.

The thing about Farmer daddy Steve is that he has endless self control when he really wants to. If Bucky hadn’t been the one to come onto him, their relationship straight up never would have happened.

But man... when Steve just fucking losing it is something he knows will make Bucky shake even harder on Daddy’s dick?

...Yeah. Steve is a lot less attached to his self control when that kind of situation comes around.

So I think Steve lets Bucky use him (with Steve’s help, his baby always needs a little bit of Daddy’s help when he’s sitting on that big cock), and he lets him make himself come over and over, messing up his own stomach like a pollock painting on a blank canvas.

He lets Bucky have his fun until Steve notices him getting a little tired; maybe it’s losing its charm after two mindbending orgasms in a row, or maybe his thighs just hurt from holding himself up.

(Steve sweats bullets the whole time—not from exertion, but from making himself sit still and not just take)

Steve waits until just the right moment... and then he gives his baby exactly what he knows Bucky wants to see.

Daddy. Fucking. Breaks.

Or he lets himself break, rather

I need to you hear the roar of a sound that I'm hearing in my head. Where are they? Are they in the bedroom? Is Bucky straddling Daddy's hips while he grinds that insane, rock-hard dick over his own prostate?

("Yeah, that's it sweetheart, play with your sweet spot all over Daddy's cock. This is just for you, you know that? You're so fucking special...")

Okay then, the bedroom it is—Bucky's back ends up on the sheets in the span of a heartbeat, body bent cleanly in half, fucking howling as Steve finally takes and takes and takes what he wants.

Or are they in the living room? Did this all start because Bucky wandered downstairs while Steve was lazing about in front of the TV, climbing into Daddy's lap with a slicked-up plug holding him open and ready? Did he turn around and slide down on Steve's wet dick, breath hissing through his teeth, and start bouncing on it hard enough to feel Steve's cock through the skin of his own stomach?

("I can feel you Daddy. Oh, fuck. Daddy—Daddy I feel you everywhere, gonna come, gonna make another mess, oh no—”

"Let it go, sweetheart, don't you keep that from Daddy...")

Okay, the living room—Bucky ends up staying right where he is, thighs splayed wide over Steve's (those fucking tree trunks), but now Daddy has his thick, hairy arms wrapped tight around Bucky's entire body so he can hold Bucky's weight down against his lap while Steve fucks up into him, rutting into that tight heat with grunts and growls like an animal that's finally gotten a hold of what it wants.

Doesn't matter where it happens; on these days, Daddy fucks Bucky until he cries.

...Yeah. Sigh.

So to answer your question: Farmer Daddy Steve last exactly as long as he needs to last—but not a second longer.

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[ixalit]

Jesus fucking fuck

[pixidustprincess]

Oh my dear God almighty...

[howdoyousleep3]

There was only one thing that made sense for me to give to you for your gift of 2K followers to me.

I love you. I would not be here without you.

Daddy Steve and Baby Bucky would not be here without you.

So without further ado...

Rating: T (Teen) Pairing: James “Bucky” Barnes/Steve Rogers Wordcount: 6.8K Tags: Meet-Cute, First Meetings, Steve Rogers Feels, POV Steve Rogers, Developing Relationship, Bucky Barnes Feels, POV Bucky Barnes, Fluff, Fluff and Humor, Nat is the best Wingman, Clint is also the best Wingman, Mentions of Past and Toxic Relationship, Insecurities, Only Happy Endings Here Summary: How it all began.

Bucky doesn’t even hesitate once the beer is set down in front of him, doesn’t even grimace as he swallows down his first swig of it.

“This is disgusting,” he remarks flatly, going in for another gulp. If he drinks more, he’s sure it won’t be long before he doesn’t care about the taste of the beer in the slightest. Then again, was it even possible for him to get drunk from beer? This local IPA that Nat insisted he get makes him hopeful of just that.

“Mmm, good thing we’re not picky,” Nat responds with, reaching for her own glass and tipping it back. Bucky grimaces, agrees to disagree, and instead dips a fried pickle deep into a cup of ranch.

“You know this might be the best decision you’ve ever had. Why talk about our feelings when we can just…eat them?” Bucky asks rhetorically and with a flick of his fingers towards their tabletop. Lamb meatballs, spinach artichoke dip, truffle fries— treat yourself comfort bar food at its finest.

“Right, but also when we were at home like thirty minutes ago you were crying after having communicated with me very clearly what your feelings were so…”

Bucky smiles, taps a few fingers under Nat’s chin two times before reaching for a few fries.

“It’s the best of both worlds, baby.”

It’s been one hell of a week for the two of them, one thing after the other, encouragements of keeping their head up fading and becoming weaker as the days passed. Nat has spent the majority of her time at work, her asshole boss overworking her, taking advantage of her thinning kindness. Bucky has barely seen her this week, their paths crossing between classes and work, showers and breakfast. And with his schedule and his workload from classes, he spent most of his time at the library preparing for Dr. Banner’s midterm exam.

The two of them finally reconnected, Nat crawling into Bucky’s bed once she got home well into Thursday night, Friday morning. It felt good to let his feelings out, to talk to his best friend, to cuddle close and have his hair played with.

“Just us today. We’re gonna do whatever we want to do today, Buck. Fuck everyone else,” Nat had told him, and he wholeheartedly agreed, mind already light from letting out the stress of the week with a good cry.

“Yeah, fuck ‘em…”

Bucky likes this bar. It’s a bit dingey but somehow charming, the music soothing and low, the warm chatter of other patrons surrounding him. It’s comforting and everything that would come to mind if Nat were to suggest a bar, which she had with an easy, “I know one of the bartenders, c’mon.” Bucky is about to give Nat shit for the way the bartender’s eyes lit up when he saw her, for the way he said her name and the way she replied in kind, when Bucky sees him.

Holy shit.

Bucky has to pull his eyes away almost immediately as soon as they land on the man at the bar. His chest grows warm and it isn’t because of this bitter beer.

“Holy shit,” he repeats out loud, dropping what’s left of his handful of fries into the basket of friend pickles. He wipes his hand on his jeans, adjusts in his seat, chances a glance back up to the man at the bar.

“What?”

“Nothing, it’s…n-nothing.”

“Oh my god, did you stutter? Why? What’s—”

“Nat! Don’t look!” he hisses, gives his best attempt to avoid making a scene when Nat turns in search for what it is that Bucky has seen to cause such an immediate reaction. It fails. Nat spots him immediately as well, head slow to move back in Bucky’s directions, eyes wide nonetheless.

“Holy shit.”

Bucky’s cheeks go up in flames. He can feel it where he sits, that throb of color, that wave of sensation. He reaches for his beer, manages to look over it and back at the bar as Nat whistles lowly.

“Buck…”

“I know, I know.”

“Jesus fucking Christ, is that your walking wet dream?”

“I don’t…oh my god.”

He doesn’t even have the space in his mind to protest any further, knows anyone who has ever crossed paths with this man would know Bucky is full of shit if he made an attempt to.

Bucky’s never seen anyone so beautiful before in his life.

This man has a face and physique for a runway, a Vogue catalogue, for in front of a camera. His side profile alone has a ball of arousal dropping into Bucky’s stomach like a stone, a boulder, sharp and rugged. A strong nose, a neatly trimmed beard, a pout Bucky can see from here, effortlessly swept back hair. Even sitting down, Bucky knows this man is a large man, that he takes up space in more way than one, is broad.

Bucky swallows heavily.

Casual yet professional, a dark polo that gorgeously clings to curvature of his arms and the span of his shoulders, jeans that miraculously fit and stretch around thighs so thick they make Bucky’s mouth water. A simple pair of brown boots and to top everything off, what Bucky thinks is a watch. Simply looking at him has Bucky wanting to think up incredibly inappropriate thoughts starring this man and this man alone.

Bucky is inexplicably drawn to him.

“Buck—”

“Nat, don’t,” he mumbles, eyes not leaving the man at the bar as he speaks and sets his beer down. Nat turns around against, chances another glance of her own.

“Bucky, you have to talk to him.”

“What?” Bucky squeaks, leaning forward in his seat to make himself clear. “Are you insane? Not a chance in hell. He...he's probably just looking at you anyway. Maybe he's...maybe he's not into men!”

Natasha grabs for his wrist, the closest part of him she can get a grip on, leans forward to face him head-on.

“You’re going to talk to that man before we leave here tonight.”

“Thanks, Clint,” Steve sighs as the other man brings him another glass of whiskey, not even the good stuff. That rightfully made Clint’s eyebrows raise when Steve requested it, “Well is fine.”; this isn’t the kind of place to drink shitty whiskey. It is almost painfully harsh, no depth, just pure burn, but it’s what Steve wants in this moment.

“Y’alright, Rogers?”

Steve is sure his smile falls flat so he covers it up with another drink, nods his head.

“Yeah, yeah I’m…m’okay.”

Clint doesn’t look convinced but nods his head and blessedly leaves it at that and moves onto the next customer. Steve’s sigh is long and is a relief that racks his body. He fills up his lungs with air, holds it momentarily, breathes out, brings his glass back up to his lips.

“Right, Steve but…you’re not happy. And I’m tired of seeing you try and pretend that you are. You know who you are, you know how important having a loving and doting partner is to you. You need to be consumed. That’s just who you are! I hate seeing you go through these patches where you pretend you’re alright with somethin’ physical, but then when the time comes for that conversation, that ‘what is this’ talk, you lie and say you’re fine with what you have with someone because you think you are protecting yourself and saving face. But you’re hurtin’ yourself, man. You’re hurting yourself. I’m sorry…”

Steve hasn’t stopped thinking about Sam’s words since he heard them three nights ago. They’ve kept him up at night, have been ringing through his head, have weighed heavy on his heart. They are words he has been thinking for months, years, words that Sam has tried to slowly tell him over time but in an emotional outburst ended up saying all at once over dinner.

They were long overdue but stung nonetheless. Steve didn’t know who he was trying to fool anymore, words out there for him and the person closest to him to see, crystal clear. He’s spent months bed hopping, trying to make the most out of physical relationships, yearning for more yet pretending he was okay with merely fucking around when that kind of relationship was the last thing he desired.

His age, his job, his lifestyle, his personality—every part of Steve, everything that makes up who he is, is desperate for a partner in life.

He has the house for another person, a stable career, the space in his heart. Maybe this is a wakeup call, one that he has needed for a long time, one that he has been too stubborn to see himself. Sam is right—he doesn’t deserve to take this treatment from himself. His immediate follow-up thought is a negative one, is how difficult it is to find someone who is open to and accepting of his intensity, of how he thoroughly enjoys falling head over heels for someone. People tend to not take to that well, don’t like that about Steve, that he’s an all-or-nothing kind of guy.

Steve is bringing his glass back up to his lips, is ready to toss the rest back and ask for another, when he seems him.

“Holy shit.”

“What’s that?” Clint asks, Steve blindly unaware that he was within ear’s reach, but he sets his glass down onto the bar top anyway.

“Nothin’, nothin’. Another?”

Steve thinks Clint nods before he turns and takes Steve’s glass with him, Steve diverting his eyes to the floor. He blinks a few times, maybe he hadn’t seen correctly, glances back up at the man sitting across the room.

Holy shit.

He releases the breath he hadn’t realized he had been holding out, low and slow, as soon as his eyes rake over this man’s face once more. Steve feels his heart hammer against his chest a few times, the aching thing making a reappearance that he tries his hardest to tamp down. He’s almost certain he’s never seen someone more beautiful in his life, has never been swept away by someone’s physical appearance before. He’s met beautiful people, has seen them, has been intimate with them, but this is something entirely different.

This kid has a face that would make angels weep. A pair of sinful lips, rose-tinted cheeks, caramel-highlighted hair that curls and wisps as it pleases and is artfully effortless—Steve wants to tuck this one close to his chest for fear of others setting eyes on him. He has boyish charm that Steve has never come across and when he watches this man laugh, eyes wrinkling in the corners, nose scrunching up delightfully, Steve feels something he hasn’t felt in so long stir in his chest.

Hope.

The realization that this feeling is indeed hope has another one tucking in alongside it.

Doubt.

This final awareness that Sam has brought to the forefront of his mind has Steve uncharacteristically doubting himself. He’s on shaky ground, slipped footing. Where he is normally confident and self-assured, he is overthinking and questioning every action and thought he comes across. He feels like he once did when he first started dating, unaware of what is acceptable and what is not, overthinking every possible future scenario inside of his deafening brain.

“Here ya go, man,” Clint announces, placing Steve’s glass down in front of him. He pauses before reaching for it, pulls it towards his body a bit, yanks his eyes away from the man across the bar.

“Clint,” he starts before he can stop himself. He picks up his glass, uses it as an excuse to lift his finger. “Do you know them by chance? That redhead and the…the guy with her?”

He sips his whiskey as Clint turns and looks across the bar. He smiles.

“Eh, kinda. I know the girl’s name is Natasha, been tryin’ to get her number for weeks. She’s stubborn. I like her.”

Steve doesn’t hesitate.

“And what about the man with her?”

Clint shrugs his shoulders, “Yeah, not sure. Sorry, guy.”

“Nah, don’t…don’t worry,” he brushes off, lets his hands cup his glass as he feels nerves he hasn’t felt in years slip through his system. He wants to keep his eyes downcast, wants to reel himself in, but he feels an undeniable pull, an unavoidable urge, to take in as much of this man as he can while he’s been given the chance. When he looks back over across the bar, his heart leaps up into his throat as he sees the man looking over at him.

Shit.

He would like to think it’s the small amount of mustered up confidence that keeps his gaze locked across this busy room, locked onto what he swears is a pair of summer sky eyes, but he’s only fooling himself. It’s like he’s in a trance. Steve swears this is what people feel like when they claim they are “lovestruck”. It feels more like “dumbstruck” though. His palms grow sweaty, his heart races, he tries to find something to do with his hands and fumbles with his whiskey glass.

Either way, he meets this man halfway, looks on for a time that is more that socially appropriate, but one that feels so very right. When Steve lets his eyes wander down this man’s face, the curve of his jaw, to the delightful dimple in his chin, and back up, he’s broken his gaze and is turned towards the redhead with him.

“You…you wanna know what he’s drinking?”

Steve looks over at Clint, had entirely forgotten he was standing so close. Steve swallows, noise loud in his own ears but to no one else, looks down at his hands.

Does he?

It’s a simple and generous question, one with a heavy implication. Steve cannot ignore the timing of this moment; how divine it almost feels to be sitting here questioning what he wants in a future relationship and being in the middle of promising himself things will be different when he sees this breathtaking man.

"You...you think he'd be interested?"

"Only one way to find out, bud," Clint answers easily enough.

Sending a drink over is harmless, is something he would normally have no reservations in doing, would in fact take it over himself. But if he’s trying to be changed, if he’s seeking out a different kind of relationship, is this the way he wishes to go about it?

When his eyes cross the bar again and land on a blush that makes Steve’s gut curl pleasantly, hid decision is made.

“Yeah, why don’t you lemme know what he’s drinkin’…”

“He keeps looking over here, Buck…”

“Nat, I swear to god,” Bucky starts, unsure of what he is swearing about and unable to finish his sentence because her statement is true. The man at the bar keeps looking over in their direction, has continued to do so since he mortifyingly caught Bucky looking over at him. The only reason Bucky knows this to be true is because of the fact that he too cannot stop looking up and over at the man at the bar.

His stomach flips pleasantly and nervously when he sees the bartender talking to the man at the bar, unable to contain his noise when he sees them gesturing gently over to them.

“Oh god, they’re pointing over here, they’re looking over here!”

“I’m so serious, Bucky. If he doesn’t make a move and if you still sit here struck stupid, I’m going to get involved somehow. This will happen.”

Bucky has no comment in response, finds no use in refusing her efforts when he is almost certain he wants to talk to this man. Who wouldn’t? Panic rises up in his throat, thick and heavy, familiar. Why would a man to whom everyone would wish to talk to have an interest in Bucky? His eyes wander over to the bar once more, greedy for any crumbs of this man he can tuck away into his brain, when he sees the bartender start to walk over to their table, mischievous smirk on his lips, beer in hand.

“Oh my god, Natasha.”

“No fucking way. Clint didn’t take another order of ours, did he? That’s gotta be—”

Clint is all sparkling and tickled eyes when he saddles up to their tall table, sets the beer down in front of Bucky.

“My good sir,” he starts, shifting his body in a way that doesn’t block the man at the bar from Bucky’s view. “Another beer for you from my dear sweet friend sitting at the bar all alone over there.”

Clint gestures towards the man, arm extended, and when Bucky follows the movement, his eyes meet a gentle smile followed by a wink that has a physical force to it.

Oh.

Bucky’s tongue is thick in his mouth, a pleasant tingle at the nape of his neck, the warmth of his no doubt opaque blush creeping down his neck as he looks down at the beer. The smile that blooms on his lips is a slow one, but a loud one that is accompanied with a giggle, one that a bitten lip cannot hold back.

“I hate this beer,” is what he stupidly says in response, his giggle uncontrollably growing as Nat rolls her eyes and begins to laugh with him. She turns to Clint, lays her hand on his forearm and says, “Thanks, Clint. Looks like I need to take it from here.” The way her touch and his gaze linger is not lost on Bucky.

Clint claps his hand down onto the table, goes to turn away and walk back towards the bar, when Bucky asks, “What’s…what’s his name?”

“That’s not how it works, pal. The drink is an invitation to go over there and find out for yourself.”

Damn.

Bucky stares down at the amber-colored beer, mind racing, practically begs himself to not look up and across the bar. He feels Nat’s hand on his arm, a squeeze then.

“Are you freaking out?” she asks even though it is quite obvious that he is indeed freaking out. He speaks before he can think to keep his thoughts to himself.

“Why…why did he buy me a drink?”

Nat’s eyebrows knit together, Bucky looking up at her.

“Buck, he’s hitting on you. He wants you to talk to him.”

Bucky shakes his head.

“No like…why did he buy me a drink?”

Nat’s eyes soften as she brings her other hand up to grab for Bucky’s hand. Her eyes are specifically soft for a reason only she is aware of. Bucky reaches to squeeze for her fingers, swallows down the lump in his throat.

“Buck…” she starts, and Bucky knows what is coming yet needs to hear it anyway, even nods his head to encourage her.

“You deserve positive attention. You deserve to be wanted. This man is requesting your attention and you have every right to say no or walk away at any time.”

Bucky will not cry. He’s done that already today. This is too positive of a night and too exciting of a moment to ruin it with more tears. Nat’s words are one hell of comfort, one that settles over his shoulders and runs down his back, into his mind. These are words she has told him before, words she has lovingly given him time and time again when he needed them the most.

Brock didn’t treat you right. You aren’t the names he calls you. One day you’ll find someone who worships you and loves you the way that you deserve, someone who doesn’t make you feel bad for the things that are you and the way you are made. You are stronger and better than he’ll ever be.

It’s been months, almost a year, since Bucky finally walked away from his last relationship, one that was very unkind to him in many ways, one that Nat had begged him to leave for fear of his physical safety.

“It’s words now, Buck. It’s the words and the manipulation but it could become physical. Please.”

He had gone back to therapy, moved back in with Nat, worked on his physical health, even gone on dates and had purely physical relationships with others. All things he is immensely proud of, that anyone would be proud of, yet here he is questioning his self-worth in a bar.

This has turned into one hell of a night.

“I’m gonna go over there,” he decides with a squeeze of Nat’s hand. As soon as the words are out of his mouth, his body is wracked with nerves, so much so he has to let out a whooshof air, a few more to follow.

“Holy shit, I’m gonna go over there.”

“Thank god. I was going to go over there if you weren’t. Buck, look at that man. He’s a sweet talker in the best way possible, I know it, I can tell. And you not only need a sweet talker, you want a sweet talker.”

“Nat, don’t…don’t get my hopes up, please. Shit.”

He slips from his chair, his feet hitting the floor, and the second thoughts come rushing in. He wishes he had put on a nicer outfit, wishes he would have put on some moisturizer, done up his hair—all of those physical alterations that can enhance a first meeting. He’s got on dark jeans, some old college robotics club shirt on, a jean jacket. He’s certain his face makes it look as if he’s been crying recently, and he has, but this man doesn’t need to know that.

He grabs for the beer, takes a few steps.

“Don’t leave without me, please,” Bucky mumbles to Nat as after he kisses her on the cheek. She squeezes his arms once more, nods her head.

“Remember, Buck—you look sexy as hell when you bite your lip.”

Steve signals for Clint to bring him another round the moment he looks up to see the kid walking over to Steve with the drink he had delivered to him in hand.

The rejection stings more than usual. He isn’t used to it and it happens to be right as he is feeling his most vulnerable. It most certainly doesn’t help that the closer this man gets to him, the more Steve wants him. He’s gorgeous, devastating, has features and carries himself in a way that has Steve’s insides yearning, pulling, aching.

Steve turns towards him as he approaches anyway, softens his features, looks as welcoming and confident as he can knowing what is about to happen. He’s bashful, this one. Doesn’t look up at Steve until he’s all but three steps in front of him, but when he does, good lord.

“Hi,” he says, simple and nervous, his crippling smile growing once he sees Steve’s own welcoming one. He sets the beer down on the bar.

“Hi,” Steve starts, ready to get this over with so this kid can get back to his friend. “I’m sorry if this was forward of me and I understand why you wouldn’t be interested in my forwardness, it’s just—”

“No, wait,” the man says with a quick shake of his head, his eyebrows knitting together. Steve stops talking immediately, a bit startled. “I…I’m very interested in your offer of a drink I just…I hate beer.”

Oh.

“But you’re drinking it?” Steve inquires gently, a smile playing with his lips, unable to hold it back as relief and hope sweep in through his chest. Cutie huffs, rubs the back of his neck and leans, rests an elbow on the bar.

“Yeah, umm…my friend said I’d like it and she uh, she was very wrong.”

With every passing second Steve spends in this man’s presence, the more comfortable he feels, the more he can sense his confidence returning with the undeniable pull between them. It slips off of his tongue easily, naturally—

“Alright, well lemme get you one you actually enjoy drinkin’, sugar.”

The reaction to his words is immediate and absolutely delicious. If Steve was a tad nervous saying these words out loud, throwing around a pet name, this reaction has his mojo solidifying like concrete underneath his feet. The man’s cheeks glow pink, he bites his lip, almost preens into the sweet name Steve gives him. Steve doesn’t know if it’s intentional, but he also tilts his head, exposes his neck as he wiggles where he stands. This one may be bashful but he’s dangerous.

“I’d love a Moscow Mule?”

“Excellent choice.”

Steve waves his hand, knows Clint is busying himself nearby on purpose, unable to prevent his knowing grin from shining through. He turns back to the man by his side, holds out his hand.

“My name is Steve.”

“Bucky. My name is Bucky.”

Bucky.

Their hands meet, Bucky’s skin as soft as it looks, grip firm, a tight shake. Steve doesn’t want to let go and that’s cheesy, awful, but it’s true and Steve lets himself feel the want coursing through his body and his heart in full, doesn’t shy away from it. Bucky doesn’t seem to want to let go of Steve’s hand either, but as he does, he sinks down into the seat next to Steve, right where he belongs.

Clint returns with a twinkling eye and Steve orders his drink for Bucky, turning his attention back to him once Clint has walked away with a wink.

“It’s nice to meet you, Bucky. What’s brought you into this bar on this rainy and gloomy Friday night?”

Steve is grateful that Bucky chooses to turn his body towards him instead of sitting next to him, almost face to face and not shoulder to shoulder. It makes him feel more at ease, calmer, to have someone’s attention in such a way, for it to seemingly be on him and no one else. Steve likes that.

“I was feeling pretty gloomy myself,” Bucky tells him, voice gentle and pleasant. Steve is taken aback by his honesty. “My friend and I decided to cheer ourselves up, ease our spirits with some bar food. How about yourself?”

The two of them share a laugh, but Steve is quick to address Bucky’s emotions.

“I’m so sorry you’re feeling gloomy, Bucky. This sounds like a reliable plan to make yourself feel better though,” he hesitates before continuing, cautious of oversharing himself, but Bucky deserves the same level of vulnerability he’s given Steve. “I’ve been feeling down as well. Thought a bit of a moody moment, a drink in a bar on a rainy night, might make me feel better.”

Bucky thanks Clint, drink in his hand as he immediately grabs for it. Steve watches as he eyes it for a moment, takes the tiny straw between two fingers and stirs. When he looks back up at Steve under his lashes, the look is coy, is gutting, his little lip bite sexy as hell.

“Do you feel any better after your drink in a bar on a rainy night, Steve?”

Steve lowers his voice purposefully, meets Bucky’s gaze.

“The drink isn’t the thing that’s makin’ me feel better, sugar…”

Bucky is in love.

He’d never admit it out loud, to Nat, to himself, but he’s certain that Steve is so very special and that this is a moment that Bucky will remember for years to come. Even if they part ways tonight and never see one another again, he knows in his being that he’ll remember this night he spent at the bar with Steve.

Steve Rogers.

Bucky’s never felt more comfortable with another person so quickly. Their shared conversation rarely stops flowing, nor do the winks and the chiding, and Bucky knows Steve has to be exhausted of hearing Bucky giggle or seeing his cheeks glow red at his flirtatious behavior. Bucky doesn’t care. Steve makes him feel at ease and Bucky is three drinks into their conversation and Steve’s eyes are full of warmth and Bucky doesn’t care.

Steve is kind. He listens to Bucky as he talks, eyes on him, not distracted, like what Bucky has to say is the most important thing in the world at the moment. He asks Bucky about school, his majors, what interested him in pursuing such a lofty double-major. Steve even compliments Bucky, tells him how impressive that is, how smart Bucky must be. It has Bucky practically melting right through the floor.

“What do you do, Steve?” he asks, wanting to divert the attention away from himself, wanting an excuse to hear Steve talk more, to say his name. Bucky hadn’t realized the two of them have gotten so close, chairs already near one another, their bodies even closer, leaning towards the other. Steve has to be a warm person. Bucky knows that if he touched Steve, he’d want to wrap all of his limbs around him, would absolutely cling to him.

Bucky wants to touch Steve. He wants to do more than touch Steve.

Bucky needs to start drinking some water.

“I’m a lawyer,” Steve says easily, tilting his head into his hand, watching for Bucky’s reaction as he takes a sip of his own drink. Bucky is impressed, transparent as his eyebrows raise.

“That’s impressive.”

“Well, thank you. It’s not a bad gig.”

“If it ain’t that bad, why don’t you sound excited?”

Bucky doesn’t expect Steve to smile softly, for his eyes to wrinkle handsomely at the corners. It makes Bucky’s lips curl in kind, hopefully one that pulls Steve’s answer out of him. To seal the deal, Bucky mirrors Steve’s head tilt with his elbow on the bar.

“That’s a really good question, sugar.”

Sugar.

It’s been dropped a handful of times already and Bucky never wants to be referred to as anything else from this moment on. It makes his tummy turn pleasantly, indeed makes him feel sweet. It feels old fashioned and makes Bucky feel desired and Steve says it with such confidence it makes Bucky ache.

“I think…” Steve hesitates, looks over at Bucky with a thoughtful grin. “I think I’ve reached the point in my life where work isn’t my everything. It has been easy, ya know, up to this point in my life to throw myself into my work and let it be my all. I just…I don’t think I want it to be my all anymore.”

Bucky can’t hear anything but Steve’s words and the meaning behind them. The noise and words of the people around him turn into a dull roar. Steve shares his thoughts with Bucky with such emotion, he almost feels as if he should apologize to Steve for asking that sort of question within their first meeting. Did he push too hard? Should he not have asked? This doesn’t feel like a conversation he should be having with someone he’s met just an hour earlier but that thought is the only thing that makes this feel wrong.

It feels very right to be communicating with Steve this way.

Which is why, heart racing as he asks the questions of, “And what do you want to be your all now?”, he knows the answer will be—

“Love.”

Bucky is going to remember this night for the rest of his life.

He feels as if he is sealing some sort of deal when he murmurs, “Yeah. Love is…love is a pretty valid thing to throw your everything into.”

Steve’s soft smile feels like a warm blanket draped right around Bucky’s shoulders. There have been few times in Bucky’s life where he has not regretted being so vulnerable and open with someone and this moment will be added to that short list. Eyes locked, knees almost knocking, belly warm with vodka, ginger beer, arousal, and sugar, the two of them resort to sitting there and drinking each other in instead of their drinks, of sharing any more words.

Bucky maps out every minute detail he can of Steve’s face, from how soft the hairs in his beard look to the way his eyes seem like storm clouds ready to break, back to his bitten, cherry-red bottom lip. Do people do this? Stare at each other longingly, no words being shared, all in dimly lit bars? Maybe Bucky has been doing this whole dating thing wrong for the past few months. Maybe this feeling is because it is Steve.

Shut up, heart.

“You two want another?”

Bucky doesn’t even jump back at Clint’s boisterous interruption. That’s most definitely the vodka’s fault. Maybe it’s the whiskey coursing through Steve’s own body that that has him reaching forward, closing the short distance between them with a hand. Bucky’s heart doesn’t have enough time to even stutter by the time Steve is brushing Bucky’s hair back from his face, his fingers gently tipping Bucky’s chin as his eyes dance between his own, over the features of his face. Bucky almost whimpers when Steve’s hand falls from his face, when that warm touch is broken.

“I think your friend might be gettin’ a bit restless, Buck,” is what Bucky hears Steve murmur, watches him say, eyes locked on the older man’s lips. A tap on the underside of his chin has him comprehending what Steve’s words mean. He forgot all about Nat to be honest, but that realization doesn’t have him pulling away from Steve in the slightest.

“I think that’ll be our last, Clint. I’ll pay for their meal as well,” Steve tells Clint, eyes not leaving Bucky’s as he speaks, merely glancing down once to retrieve his wallet before his eyes are back on Bucky’s. Bucky’s gut burns pleasantly hot at Steve’s show of money, of his show of providing and taking care of Bucky. It scratches an itch that is a deep one for Bucky, one that hasn’t been scratched properly before, one that Bucky wants Steve to keep scratching.

If Steve asked, Bucky would go home with him. He’s only done that a few times before, but he’d do it for Steve. One question and that’s all it would take for Bucky to go home with Steve.

“Bucky,” Steve starts, and Bucky watches as Steve stands from his chair, and fuck, he’s bigger than Bucky thought he was. Even sitting in a barstool seat, even with Bucky being six-foot himself, Steve is a large man. Bucky’s mouth waters. Just one question, just that one question and Bucky would be out the door with Steve in a heartbeat.

“Can I give you my number?”

That isn’t the question Bucky was expecting but it’s…it’s better. You don’t give your number to people you intend to never talk to again once you spend the night with them. Right? Bucky isn’t sure but he likes this question more, likes the idea of having Steve Rogers’s number in his cell phone to utilize for whatever purpose he deems necessary in the future.

Steve smells so good and he’s so warm, and Bucky isn’t even touching him. He’s incredibly close though, and when he looks up at Steve, tilts his head up while still feeling that tap under his chin from seconds prior, Steve steps in close.

“Yes,” Bucky breathes, almost stutters, as Steve slips his hand into Bucky’s jacket pocket, pulling out his phone on his own accord. Bucky reaches forward and naturally rests his trembling hands onto Steve’s hips, nothing Bucky would ever feel confident doing it this weren’t Steve. He is warm. He’s sturdy as well, feels like all things strength and power underneath Bucky’s hands. Steve holds out Bucky’s phone, Bucky types in his passcode. The confidence has the tremble in Bucky’s hand shifting and rolling throughout his entire body.

Bucky doesn’t want to let go of Steve.

“I’d like to see you again, Bucky. I know we didn’t have long together tonight but I think you’re special and I’d like to take you out on a proper date,” Steve practically purrs as his fingers work on Bucky’s phone, and Bucky feels like he’s about to combust on the spot.

“I’d…I’d like that, Steve,” Bucky breathes, still in awe at his luck, how this night has turned out, and how someone like Steve Rogers wants to take him out on a date. Steve’s smile reaches his eyes and then some, makes his features glow. Bucky’s fingers twitch where they rest on Steve’s hips.

“That’s good, sugar,” Steve tells him and oh, Bucky is going to be thinking of those three words all night, all week, all month. Steve slips Bucky’s phone back into his jacket pocket, taps it and lets his hand linger on Bucky’s body. “You just let me know when you wanna see me and I’ll make it happen, I’ll be there.”

“Now?” Bucky presses too quickly, too eagerly. He’s mortified for a moment, swiftly thinks of a way to play it off as a joke, but Steve’s smile is growing, features going soft and mischievous.

“Buck,” Steve breathes, coos, and this time a soft, strangled noise does slip passed Bucky’s lips. “Now doesn’t give me the proper amount of time I want with you.”

Oh.

Oh.

Bucky burns.

“Steve—”

“You’ve been drinkin’ and I don’t think your friend over there would like it if you left with me anyway, no matter how much I’d try to convince her I’d do nothin’ but take good care’a you.”

“Steve…”

Bucky doesn’t know why he says the other man’s name a second time, maybe as an excuse to watch the way Steve reacts to it, heavy eyelids and slick lips.

“Text me. Call me. Please, Buck?” he requests, hand rising back up to Bucky’s chin, the back of his knuckles running along the front of Bucky’s throat in a casual show of touch that has Bucky struggling to take air into his lungs.

“I will, I promise.”

“Mmm, I’ll talk to you later then, sugar,” Steve whispers as he ducks his head, presses his lips into Bucky’s heated cheek. Bucky wishes it were a kiss on his lips, wishes he could push Steve back into his chair and follow him, climb right into his lap. But that’s probably the vodka talking. Or his hindbrain.

Steve is slow to pull back, is slow to remove his fingers from Bucky’s chin, is slow as Bucky drops his own. He looks down at Bucky as he does so, lets his fingers slide to squeeze at Bucky’s hand as he turns, tucking his wallet back into his pocket, Clint returning with the bill.

“I’ll see you later, Buck.”

“Bye, Steve,” Bucky smiles and Steve turns on his heel and walks towards the front door and out, Bucky’s eyes on him every step of the way. As soon as the door closes, he has no choice but to turn and press his forehead against the bartop, to let out a heavy and loud exhale as he does so.

“Oh my god.”

“Well, I for one am horny after seeing such a display,” Clint shares, a low whistle following his words. Bucky giggles, Clint’s thought amusing and his own mind and body unsure of what to do with all of this pent-up energy.

“Yeah, you aren’t the only one, Clint. Jesus fucking christ, Bucky. I can’t believe what I just witnessed. Did that just happen?”

Nat settles into Steve’s old seat, Bucky reaching for her as soon as he hears her voice.

“I was hoping you could tell me. Holy shit, Nat. Is this a dream?”

Clint hums.

“Hmm, let’s see, kid,” he starts, turning to Nat. “You wanna utilize this newfound horny and capitalize on it together, Natasha?”

Bucky doesn’t see the look that Nat gives him in return but it’s enough to have Clint quickly conceding with a, “Nope, nope— not a dream. This is real life, my friend.”

“Did you get his number? Are you seeing him again?” Nat presses without much patience and Bucky is huffing out a giggle once more, raising his head up to look at Nat. He squeezes her hand.

“He gave me his number, I’m…I’m gonna see him again. Oh my god, Nat—I’m gonna see him again.”

“Hey, it’s…god I’m so sorry I had to push back plans. No, I know it’s like the fourth time I’ve done this, but I swear I have a good reason this time, swear. No, I can—yeah I can meet you there instead. I uh…no I met someone. God, Sam he’s…this one’s different. A fucking hour and I know he’s different. He's so special. I feel…god I feel so good. No, yeah I’m gonna see him again, I’m…I’m gonna see him again.”

see daddy steve and baby bucky here 💕 listen to their playlist here 💕 read more of their story here and here 💕 come shout with me here 💕

[pixidustprincess]

Oh my GOD...how did I not see this until now??? Ugh, so amazing (excuse me while I go reread the entire series...)

[kocuria]

Featured:

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🖤 Film Noir by romanticalgirl  future fic, director!Chris || 35k, E

🖤 (baby won’t you please) run your fingers through my hair by luninosity  friends to lovers, D/s || 20k, E

🖤 Body Politics by musette22  strangers to lovers, congressman!Seb || 9k, E

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🖤 Sugar Daddy by orphan_account age difference, architect!Chris || 91k, E

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Honorable mention (featured in xmas edition):

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full sizes on ao3 HERE! 

stuckyflix vol. 1 || xmas edition || shrunkyclunks

aided and abetted by @epicstuckyficrecs 🖤

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[pixidustprincess]

I've been gone forever (life is really busy right now) - but WOW this is so cool!

[kocuria]

Featured:

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Originals:

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[pixidustprincess]

for later!

[darter-blue]

Okay, so someone I dearly love has asked me for a little helpful advice on how to get started writing. I take this as an ENORMOUS compliment because - well,,, you know me, anyway, focus, sorry. Okay.

So.

This was this question, about a brilliant set of ideas that have been put to paper and are desperate to be made into a fic:

‘I think we actually want to try and write it but….how???? Do you have any quick tips for me?’

And I do!

Okay let me start with the first and it is this -

There is no right or wrong way to write.

There is no process that is a holy grail. Everyone is different and everyone works differently and it’s so important to know that if something is not working for you - try something new. Don’t give up. Just shift to a new process. And keep shifting until you find your stride

(this is especially true of how and were you write, listen to music or alone in a quiet room, in marathon 3 hour sessions or do 2 x 20 min sprints in a week. Its totally up to you).

That said, there are a lot of really helpful writing aids out there, that are free, and easily accessible if you have a computer or a library card, and you can and should look at websites/books that give you tips for the following:

formatting

grammar

syntax

rhythm

Try something like this: https://firstmanuscript.com/format-dialogue/ which is laid out really well and gives you amazing tips on how to write dialogue

Or this: https://www.grammarly.com/blog/active-vs-passive-voice/ which is a great and easily understandable way to improve your active voice over passive (which will make your writing snappier and sharper)

Okay and I’ll prefix the rest by saying - this is helpful tips on my process, and  what works for me - so take that with a grain of salt because - as I said before - everyone is different. Remember that.

Write a plan or a map.

At the very least - if you are not a map/plan kind  of person… Write down three things, the beginning, the middle, and the end. It’s really important that you have an end in place -and that can be as simple as ‘They get together’ especially if it’s stucky or a similar ship.

What your reader wants is a narrative that follows a thread - and that will weave its way back to itself. Even if its a simple romance or rom com, have the characters work their way to some kind of resolution that was obvious from the beginning. and a map - even a really basic one - is the easiest way to make that happen.

Flesh out your characters

Write a character dossier, even a super simple one, even for fanfic.

You want your characters to seem real and relatable. And the best way to do that is to give them a background - even a quick one. And then give them a unique voice, way of speaking (use your dialogue or internal voice) and make them behave in ways that seem realistic and understandable with respect to the world in your story.

World build

This can be really simple, it doesn’t have to be about sci fi or magic or anything - just give your characters a place to live - give the background some depth.

If you’re in a coffee shop - make sure you show how the coffee shop works, what it looks like, who else works there, give some indication of whether its a good or bad place to work, to drink coffee, is it busy or quiet? Do the other staff love or hate their jobs? Is there that one customer who is always there in the back corner and you just bring him bottomless cups of tea all day and he tips like crazy… little things like this will make your readers feel like they are in a real place. Which makes the whole fic seem more real.

Show, dont tell…

This is the biggest one for me. Don’t just start out your fic with a big list of what happened or where you are. Weave it into the action and the dialogue slowly.

Don’t just tell - ‘Steve is a lawyer for a big corporation and he hates his job. It makes him unhappy.’

Show - ‘Steve is dreading going back to the office today. He doesn’t want to have to play nice with his boss, he doesn’t want to have to smile at his clients who he knows are guilty. He’s dreading it so much it makes his stomach hurt.’

Okay and the hardest one to get used to as a new writer -

Find a POV (point of view) and Tense and be consistent

I recommend third person limited. This means you write from that persons point of view and see, think, feel, only what they see, think and feel. You cant see or hear the other characters thoughts or feelings about something. You can’t physically see something happening that is not within your characters viewpoint.

You can switch between characters as long as you have a delineated break - and let the reader know you are switching (I always give a heading for a new character)

I also recommend you use present tense - it’s much easier to keep consistent. But it’s totally up to the individual. Just make sure you don’t change it (and a beta reader can help you with this)

So.

That feels like a lot of information to throw at you, let me give you a really quick list of what you need to do to start -

Map out your beginning, middle and end

Choose your main character and your POV (which one will tell the story best, who will have the most emotional impact - do you want to switch and see both POV? think about who the real main character is, who is most of the action happening to)

Choose your secondary characters and give them some backstory - especially about how they are connected to the main characters.

Choose a setting and give it detail.

Start writing - get your ideas down.

Read your dialogue out loud so you know it sounds like something you would really say.

Go back and edit later

Research things you’re not sure about - but also you can just say >check science< or >which restaurant< and come back to it later to keep your ideas flowing.

Send it to someone who is happy to look over it for you and help you edit (but only once you have edited it yourself and made it as clean and sharp as possible)

Be super proud of yourself for the  amazing thing you have just done.

Post it to tumblr or ao3 if - and only if - you want to.

Okay. Well… I hope this was helpful!

Come ask me anything about any of it! I’m happy to elaborate.

And good luck!!!!!!

[pixidustprincess]

Saving for later - I have aspirations of writing more at some point.

[howdoyousleep3]

Rating: Explicit (E) Relationship: Steve Rogers/ James “Bucky” Barnes Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe—No Powers, Daddy Kink, Age Difference, Established Relationship, Size Difference, Dom/Sub Undertones, Light Dom/Sub, Topping From the Bottom, Daddy Steve, Baby Buck, Praise Kink, Power Dynamic, Power Play, Mirror Sex, Sex Talk, Kink Discovery, Kink Exploration, Sex Toys, Topspace, Subspace, Anal Sex, Dirty Talk, Dry Humping, Collar, Feminization, Humiliation, Verbal Humiliation, Intimacy, Porn With Plot, Porn with Feelings, Mutual Mastubration 

When Steve looks up and over at Bucky on his phone at the other end of the couch, thinks and murmurs out loud, “I love you,”, Bucky barely lifts his head before whispering back, “I love you too,” without thought.

It’s that easy, that bone-deep, that instinctual.

Steve is going to wear a collar.

After being caught off-guard by a curious inquiry by Bucky one morning, Steve is consumed by thoughts that he’s never had before, that question his role in his relationship with Bucky and his ability to provide for Bucky’s wants and needs. Embracing this change head-on, the two of them work through their newfound feelings and desires as one in a way that surprisingly deepens their love, appreciation, and devotion to one another.

Chapter 1 available to read here! 💕

shout with me here ✨ see Daddy Steve’s collar here ✨ catch up on the series here 

[pixidustprincess]

Well, of course this was a masterpiece <3 

[idiomsir]

Irish Language and Steve Rogers: a meta

Disclaimer 1: This is my opinion re: Steve and Irish, and some historical background on Sarah and Steve and their relationship to the Irish language. Write as much Irish-speaking Steve as you want, have fun. 

Disclaimer 2: I am a medievalist by training and the true love of my life is prehistoric (as in Neolithic) Britain and Europe. 

I have a degree in Celtic Studies (the history, languages, art and literature of Ireland and Scotland from prehistory-20th century) and I learned just enough about modern Irish history / the Irish diaspora to make this face when Steve speaks Irish in fic:

[GIF of David Tennant raising a sceptical eyebrow at someone]

I was like, why am I making that face at Irish-speaking Steve? He is Irish-American, after all. So I went and poked the internet, and some of my Celticist friends, and dug up some historical context for Steve speaking or not speaking Irish in the 1920s and 30s in NYC. 

First, historical background! 

1. Irish vs Gaelic vs Gaeilge, wtf?

Gaeilge is the name in Irish for the Irish language, which is anglicised to Gaelic. Irish Gaelic (Gaeilge) is spoken in Ireland, and Scottish Gaelic (Gàidhlig) is spoken in Scotland and bits of Nova Scotia. For a long time, the elites in both countries spoke Classical Gaelic (Scottish Gaelic: Gàidhlig Chlasaigeach; Irish: Gaeilge Chlasaiceach), which was the language of literature and law and most written material from the 13th to the 18th centuries. Over time, they changed enough to be different languages. 

So we’ve got two different kinds of Gaelic. Scottish Gaelic is usually referred to as Scottish Gaelic or Gàidhlig. Irish is generally, nowadays, called Gaeilge or Irish, since it’s the language of the country of Ireland. That’s the quick and dirty version. This is all still under/up for debate, as far as I can tell, and will probably continue to be a topic of contention for a while yet. If you’re interested in the state of Modern Irish and Scottish Gaidhlig, look into Language Policy in Scotland and Ireland. Plenty of people still don’t see why Gàidhlig/Irish shouldn’t just be wiped off the map and replaced with English, since they’re “dead” languages, anyways. (I have met these people. I have dated these people. I am related to these people. We don’t talk politics much.)

Language is never a neutral thing, is what I’m saying. Especially Irish at the turn of the century. Which, hey, is smack when Steve is growing up. Let’s look at that. 

2. Potted History of Ireland (it matters!)

The English have been settling in Ireland since 1170, and there were legal distinctions between English-speaking settlers and Irish-speaking natives from at least 1366 (the Statutes of Kilkenny) [wiki link, but the only other thing I found that’s not behind a paywall was the literal statutes], but the real cultural change that impacts Sarah and Steve Rogers began when Henry VIII and Elizabeth I confiscated land from Irish citizens and gave it to English-speaking Protestant “settlers”. This marked the beginning of 300 years of concentrated efforts to control and eventually destroy Irish language and culture. 

(Seen Outlander? Yeah? Yeah. Different country, same language, same shit.)

The Irish Catholic Diaspora by Lawrence John McCaffrey gives a quick overview (Google books link) of Anglo-Irish relations from 1170-1801. McCaffrey kind of skims over Cromwell’s Irish campaign, which to this day makes Cromwell one of the most hated men in Ireland.

Most Irish remember him as the man responsible for the mass slaughter of civilians at Drogheda and Wexford and as the agent of the greatest episode of ethnic cleansing ever attempted in Western Europe as, within a decade, the percentage of land possessed by Catholics born in Ireland dropped from sixty to twenty. In a decade, the ownership of two-fifths of the land mass was transferred from several thousand Irish Catholic landowners to British Protestants. The gap between Irish and the English views of the seventeenth-century conquest remains unbridgeable and is governed by G. K. Chesterton’s mirthless epigram of 1917, that ‘it was a tragic necessity that the Irish should remember it; but it was far more tragic that the English forgot it’.

(- John Morrill (2003). “Rewriting Cromwell: A Case of Deafening Silences”, Canadian Journal of History. December 2003.)

Catholics and (most) Irish-speakers were relegated to the poorest land on the west coast of Ireland, which is where the modern Gaeltacht (Gaelic-speaking area) is located today. 

So we have, from 1170-1800, concentrated efforts by successive English governments to suppress and destroy native Irish culture and, by extension and necessity, the Irish language. And then the famine hit. 

The English had spent 250 years suppressing the Irish language by the time the Great Famine hit, and the effects of the Famine were catastrophic. A million and a half people died, a million more immigrated, and those two and a half million represented the demographics who were most likely to still be speaking Irish as their mother tongue: poor, rural, from westward counties. And that was all 50-ish years before Sarah was even born, so by her heyday, primary speakers (defined as people who spoke Irish as a first language and used it daily) were a decided minority, mostly middle-aged or older. You can find stats gathered during the Gaelic revival that show the low incidence of fluency in the relevant period (1890s-1910s for Sarah) and U.S. census data showing the same pattern stateside among immigrants. (from @bangawang‘s post here, which has more general information on Steve and Irish)

 [source, source, source, source, wiki overview]

Irish-speakers were on the back foot. Entire communities were basically destroyed over a few centuries, and those who had survived Elizabeth and Cromwell and their successors moved to America and Canada in order to survive the blight.

This was not Sarah’s generation- these would have been her grandparents. So, by the time Sarah’s grandparents are alive, the Irish language in Ireland has taken a serious hit. And then it gets just a little bit worse.

This is a really fun movie I’m going to recommend to you. 

[Image of a woman being thrown to the ground by a group of Black and Tans]

3. Sarah’s Childhood

So, uh, look at that table there. The right-hand column is the percentage of Irish-speakers in Ireland per the census. By the time Sarah was born (assuming she was ~20 when Steve was born, we can guess that she was born in ~1898, give or take a few years.) 

14.5 percent of the population speaks Irish according to the census. Now, I don’t know the exact methodology cenus-takers used to arrive at this number, so there may be some leeway for numbers one way or another, but no matter how you slice it, that’s a really really low number of Irish-speakers left around. 

On top of the brain drain, as it were, Sarah would have been going to a National School. National Schools were founded in 1831, in an effort to provide a non-denominational “British” education to Irelands’ new British subjects. It was believed that if children from all denominations learned together then they could live in peace as adults. [source]  The Belfast Monthly Magazine, Vol. 2, No. 8 (Mar. 31, 1809) had this article outlining the basic tenets of these schools:

(excerpt)

Irish language was not taught or spoken at these schools, and was only grudgingly included, for advanced students, after years of campaigning from the Society for the Preservation of the Irish Language. Patrick Keenan, the Head Inspector of the schools in 1856, is quoted as saying: 

“We are quietly but certainly destroying the national legend, the national music and the national language of the country.”

This was the case right up until the 1920s, so- until after Steve was born. In 1904, Commissioner Professor G. Fitzgerald wrote to Irish academic (and future President of Ireland) Douglas Hyde: “I will use all my influence, as in the past, to ensure that Irish as a spoken language shall die out as quickly as possible.” 

(Buachalla, Séamas Ó. “Educational Policy and the Role of the Irish Language from 1831 to 1981”. European Journal of Education 19.1 (1984): 75–92. Web…)

So you can see why I raise an eyebrow at Sarah just casually speaking Irish and at “first-language-Irish” Steve. This was not a language you just learned or passed on… nonchalantly? There’s a lot of politics attached to speaking Irish and passing it down to your family. That’s not to say that Sarah didn’t speak it, or that she didn’t teach it to Steve, but the odds are stacked against it even without her moving to America. 

On the other hand, maybe she teaches it to Steve to make a statement. Maybe it’s a matter of pride for her. But if that’s the case, it helps to understand all the history and politics attached to that decision, and how it might impact Sarah and Steve even in 20′s and 30′s Brooklyn. 

You want your Irish-speaking Sarah to be politically aware and proud of her heritage and culture? Go for it! 

But first let me recommend that you at least watch The Wind That Shakes The Barley. 

Have some cheekbones. 

[GIF of Cillian Murphy, tied to a post, playing an Irish Nationalist]

It’s a Ken Loach movie set during the Irish War of Independence (1919-1921), and it gives you a decent feel for the world Sarah would have left behind her when she emigrated.

(By the way, a car bomb went off in Belfast two days ago. It’s been attributed to the centenary of the 1916 Easter Rising. So this isn’t some old dead conflict.)

I’m not covering the entire Irish Independence movement in this meta, it’s outside my scope, but if you want to use it as a reason for Sarah to have Irish and teach it to Steve, read up a little, watch some movies, try to gather some context for it. Please. 

4. A Letter From America

When Sarah arrived in New York, she would not have been completely cut off from Irish-speaking society, assuming she spoke Irish. There’s plenty of evidence for Irish communities in Brooklyn and other parts of New York, so she would probably have been able to live and move among her countrymen, but this doesn’t automatically mean she’s going to pass Irish on to Steve (or, I reiterate, speak it herself).

@fidelioscabinet nicely sums up my basic theory about Sarah and Irish in Brooklyn: 

I suspect class plays a part in this among emigrants as much as anything; if you’re working on maintaining and building skills to survive in a new country, teaching your children a language of limited utility may seem like a dangerous and unaffordable luxury if you’re already fighting to stay afloat. (Yiddish had far more speakers in New York than Irish would have in the 1920s and 1930s. It’s easy to find old pictures of storefronts with signs in Yiddish but I don’t know of any in Irish, although there are examples in Italian and some others as well.) [source]

Nancy Stenson, in her article,“’beagáinín": The Use of Irish Among Immigrants to the United States”, points out that English was the prestige language in America- what you had to speak to get ahead in pretty much any meaningful way (as it was in Ireland, before Sarah left). She concludes that 

“Maintenance was not a priority; survival was… The result was a rapid loss of Irish language among native speakers in the United States that proved, in most cases, irreversible.”

Furthermore, Gillian Ní Gabhann’s article on the Gaelic Revival in America suggests that 

Many emigrant groups identified their language as a symbol of national identity and carefully maintained it on arrival. The Irish did not. An Gaodhal suggests many complex reasons for the change in language, ranging from indifference and insecurity to economics. Emigrants left an Ireland where Irish was associated with poverty and shame. Certainly, such concerns may have been a factor in language changeover, but the evidence points to a more complex range of emotions. [source]

Sarah has no economic incentive to teach Steve Irish, which won’t help him get ahead in America. Assimilation will get him much further in life. This is an America where eugenics is having its heyday and Steve is a Catholic disabled immigrant. Having Irish might not have been an outright impediment for Steve, but it served little to no use outside of his home and maybe his immediate community, depending on which parts of NYC he was living in. 

@bangawang adds:

And then there’s what happens when she gets to America, even if she spoke Irish every day when she was back at home. The atmosphere in the U.S. was actively hostile towards immigrants, and the pressure to assimilate was enormous. Irish-Americans did organize politically around their identity, but Irish-Americans weren’t and aren’t a politically homogenous group, and what those politics were is significant; it wasn’t always what people today might extrapolate from recent history. 

Nowadays the progressive view is that holding onto your culture is a matter of personal dignity, but that doesn’t translate 1:1 to the political landscape of a century ago, even given the anti-immigrant violence and forced assimilation of those days. The idea that Sarah would have consciously maintained an Irish-only household because she held leftist beliefs doesn’t necessarily mesh with historical trends, just as “liberal” and “conservative” have altered their meanings over time. It sounds perverse to us, but back then pride in your community often meant pride in how American you could be, and honestly, I like thinking about those implications for Sarah and Steve. It’s a game that immigrants are still being made to play, but with the board shifted. [source]

There was a Brooklyn Philo-Celtic society, among other Irish-Language Groups in NYC, but it seems that, to the frustration of their founders, they were mostly attended for entertainment purposes by local people. 

(Ní Bhroiméil, Úna. “The Creation of an Irish Culture in the United States: The Gaelic Movement, 1870-1915”.New Hibernia Review / Iris Éireannach Nua 5.3 (2001): 87–100. Web…)

Basically, it seems that Irish-Americans after WW1 were more concerned with their identities as Catholics and (respectable, white, assimilated) Americans than they were with conserving their Irish language. 

This isn’t to say Steve can’t grow up speaking Irish, but there’s a lot of cultural and historical context attached to that idea and it’d be good to see it explored before (or when!) Steve decides to call Bucky Mo chroí/Mo stóirin/mo ghile mhear. 

In Ireland, we don’t say ‘I love you’, we say ‘an bhfuil cead agam dul go dtí an leithris’ which means ‘you will forever have my heart’. I think that’s beautiful.

[Gif of Bucky squeezing Steve’s shoulder from CATWS]

Important final note: if you got something useful to add to this post, add away. I’m literally a medievalist with Strong Opinions. Also, if someone wants to write me fic about Steve trying to connect with his heritage from 2016, please. Please do that. Yes.

[pixidustprincess]

Fascinating. I haven’t come across any Irish speaking Steve fics, but this is a good summary with more expertise than I have about why it would be really surprising to read. All I’ve got is an undergrad course on British history and a general interest in Ireland.

[hansbekhart]

Meta Master Post

The How to Brooklyn Series - Resources and meta for writing pre-war and modern stories set in Brooklyn

Steve’s Shitty Rear Tenement - Is having your front door opening to a vacant? lot? a normal thing? because there’s not much street going on during the “end of the line” scene. 

Pt 1 - The Basics of New York City, or What the Hell Are Boroughs? - Yes, there were docks. (Sigh.)

Pt 2 - For the lov’a Pete, Put the Subway in Your Stories - A story set in New York City that doesn’t even reference the subway might as well be set in middle America.

Pt 2.1 - The New York City Subway is Fucking Gross - Seriously though, can you imagine how those cushions smelled?

Pt 2.2 - The Brooklyn Trolley System - This one doesn’t even hit my historical boner, it hits my I’d love to be able to travel between Queens and Brooklyn without three train changes and two pack mules boner. 

Pt 3 - The Ubiquitous Tenement Apartment  - Although we associated the word tenement with shitty slum life, back in the day this just what people called apartments. 

Pt 4 - What’s the Deal with the Brooklyn Dodgers? - All right, so we all know how no recently frozen Steve Rogers is complete without shocked references to How Expensive Things Are, What the Fuck Is This Banana, and The Dodgers Moved to Los Angeles?!  But the thing you gotta understand first is that baseball was invented in Brooklyn.

Pt 5 - Steve & Bucky’s Jobs before The War - Almost definitely not working down at the docks, sorry.

Pt 6 - What did they do for Fun, Other than Dancing? - Hah, I’m a terrible person; my first instinct is to say, they got drunk.  Am I projecting?  Maybe.  Drinking’s a competitive sport here.  Anyway, I really like this question, this is a good question.  So, are we talking what they did as kids, or what they did as grownups?  Let’s do both!  I like both.

Pt 7 - Modern AU Headcanons (Steve, Bucky, Sam) - There’s not one way to experience this borough or city, and if I ever claim there’s a right way to “Brooklyn” then please punch me in the face immediately. So what I want to do instead is give you some options!  Let’s base them off of fandom tropes, shall we?

Pt 8 - We Have Always Been Here (LGBT history in New York City) - This is part of our cultural conversation, the one we’re having right now - arguing for more representation, for safe spaces, for political equality, for queer head canons, for trans head canons, for race bent head canons, to say yes I belong here, I am here, I have always been here. 

Misc. Posts & Meta

What I do with All this Damn Research: My AO3.

The Brooklyn Accent

Getting to the World Stark Fair by Subway

Mr Rogers Gayborhood/99% Docks

Steve Rogers & Modern Art

The Saga of Cute Twink Bucky

Is it realistic for Bucky to have been a Sergeant? 

Bucky Barnes Makes Weird Faces

Modern Art History, and opinions thereof

Further Resources

How Expensive Was That? by @a-social-construct​

Brooklyn Historical Resources by @a-social-construct​

1940s Census Data by @a-social-construct (individual data)

1940s Census Data by @a-social-construct (by neighborhood)

NYC Historical Subway Maps

1940s New York

Tenement Photos - 1930-1939

New York Transformed - NYCHA Photos 1939-1967

1940s LIFE Magazine Archive

World War II Writing Resources

Historical Newspapers via @fidelioscabinet​

Irish Language and Steve Rogers: A Meta, via @oiseaudete

Bucky in the Army, via @fidelioscabinet

Follow for more, or track my tags: Historical New York, The City So Nice They Named It Twice, How to Brooklyn.  This post will be updated periodically with additional meta, commentary, and resources.  HTB posts will be general topics only to save my sanity, but I’m happy to answer more specific questions privately or in a less sprawling format.  If you’d like me to reply to an ask privately, please say so.

Comments, questions, requests?  Let me know!

[pixidustprincess]

Saving for next years Gilded Age stuff. Literally talked about dumbbell tenements today to my juniors.

[aborddelimpala]

Cordell Walker, Texas Ranger | Series Premiere, Thursday January 21

[pixidustprincess]

Giving this a chance only due to Jared - watching next week :D

[lokis-fenris-wolf]

I made a playlist for The Dust and the Seed by the amazingly talented @the1918 because the story is just so awesome it needs a soundtrack ❤️❤️

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4s6MZf4FTmL2955X5Xhs5j?si=rGdPEHbERoaAVKwjU2SOPw

I hope the link works ❤️ Here you go Lynne! And thank you again for the beautiful story! ❤️

[the1918]

I cannot emphasize enough how amazing it is that someone is enjoying this story enough to make a playlist, let alone a PERFECT playlist. I have been listening to this nonstop since they sent to me and I’ve been writing SoRE the whole time!

Take a listen! 🎶

[pixidustprincess]

This is the perfect playlist - for the fic, and possibly just in general.  So many of my favorites!! If you’re also reading @the1918​‘s amazing story, you should get on this playlist ASAP.  Also if you are a general fan of southern-is rock sounds.  Awesome work @lokis-fenris-wolf​ :D

[toiletpapercurrency]

[poet-by-heart]

Once again thinking about the Captain America trilogy:

Steve Rogers: Avenging Bucky Barnes Steve Rogers: Bucky Barnes Steve Rogers: Fighting literally everyone for Bucky Barnes

[labyrinthresource]

Jareth + Outfits

[s-jay]

[pixidustprincess]

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