[kosmogrl]

it’s sunny, it’s warm, everything is beautiful outside and you spent too many months wishing for days like this. so get up and go feel the sun on your back

[plantley]

i have a terrible gut feeling that my cancer is back :( i’m bruising like a peach and that was one of the warning signs before my last diagnosis… my normal oncology office doesn’t take my new insurance so i dont have a doctor i can call. i’m scared to call my insurance to help find a new oncologist because also 1. im scared this insurance won’t actually cover a lot 2. what if the answer is yes

i can’t do this again… i almost rather die than do chemo again

[gender-avenging]

Shout out to the real freaks

[plantley]

we’re going on a second date tomorrow night :)) and i’m so excited

[plantley]

that was so nice :) it didn’t feel like a second date, it felt more like the middle of a relationship. i got off work and went over to his place right after, and he opened the door with a towel around his waist and goddamn he’s fit. but i hung out on his couch while he finished showering and went out for dinner. we drove around town for a bit before deciding on asian and very cute he grabbed my foot from under the table. then we got icecream and just it felt like we’ve been doing this not like this was the first time getting dinner. on our way back to his place, he was like “oh i need to stop by target and get deodorant”, so we popped in and walked around grabbing a couple thing and it just felt so domestic and natural. then back at his place we spent forever going through horror movies figuring out what to pick and the were just cuddled up all movie. it was just so cute and felt so easy

[oozins]

love you miss you always your sweet pea

[plantley]

we’re going on a second date tomorrow night :)) and i’m so excited

[plantley]

if things keep going well, i really wanna invite him to go to a music at the pier with my friends. like fun night, dancing, drinking, swimming, and dating a guy who gets along with my friends is like all i want in life. i’ll need to check with boys, bc i don’t wanna be the girl constantly asking “can my boyfriend (he’s not even my bf) come?”

[plushefemme]

not to be a hedonist but. pleasure IS the whole point, my loves. we are made for pleasure. humans have not survived out of spite or sheer grit or simply to make more humans. we live for pleasure. the pleasure of licking the last delicious crumbs off your fingers and feeling sunlight on your skin and massaging a loved one's shoulders. we're made to fill our bellies with delicious food, to nap in soft grass, to touch each other in joy and comfort.

there is no shame or guilt in our bodies doing what they were made to do. and we are made for pleasure.

[plantley]

ahhhh i finally went on a date with the cute bartender :)))) i met up at his place and originally the plan was to go out somewhere, but then we had 2 cocktails and neither of us really wanted to go and were having a good time talking and listening to music. he’s just easy going and easy to joke with. he also loves country and classic rock, outdoorsy stuff, and seems like he’s down for like fun things. we ended up making out some, and he’s totally respectful with me wanting to wait to do more but also fuck he’s so attractive. he’s also looking for something more serious/long term and not into casual hookups (thank god) we’re trying to do another date this weekend, but he’s swamped with work so we had to reschedule the one we planned for sunday but he’s like very into me and was like “i’d be fine seeing you even if it’s just for like 5 minutes after work” and good to know allison and max already like him, considering particularly allison did not fuck with my last boyfriend.

[plantley]

tattoo inventory

sunflower on forearm

cherub on ribs (has some errors and artist def went too deep)

“and so it goes” on bicep in grandpas handwriting

firefly on inner elbow for 21st birthday with emma

blackberry vine on shoulder that was supposed to be after graduation but postponed for a year bc of cancer

cadillac emblem on outer arm for cancer friend bc he got a tweety bird tattoo bc that’s his nickname for me

“tis but a scratch” on upper thigh quote from monty python by self harm and stretch mark scars

[plantley]

8. daffodil on bicep

[plantley]

9. honeysuckle vine on back of shoulder/arm

[holdingcaulfields]

on identity

ojibwe / noah kahan / richard siken / unknown / elliott smith / oamisoa / cameron awkward-rich

[liltingaway]

random button pngs

[plantley]

AH i fear i have a crush!!! my friend and i went to grab dinner at mellow mushroom and ended up sitting at the bar to play trivia and we ended up knowing the host, but the bartender was around our age and quite cute. i’m never one to flirt or think too much into a bartender being nice and chatty, but we ended up talking to him for like several hours. turns out he also likes hiking, climbing, and also wants to learn how to dance. he said he’s trying to make friends bc he doesn’t have that many. i confirmed with my friend after, that i THINK he was flirting a bit with me (but could just be being a bartender) and we kept eye contact a handful of times (like more than i think is normal). turns out next week is his last shift before moving jobs, and we said well come for his last shift and i’m 99% sure i’m gonna leave a note with my number saying we should go dancing

[plantley]

ok so we went to trivia on monday and the first thing he said was “i’ve been thinking about y’all all week wondering if y’all’d actually show up!” and like so you’ve been thinking about me all week. and it was busier so he didn’t talk to us as much but when he had a minute he’s still come over (but like also could just be doing his damn job)

then when we were ready to pay the bill my friend and i split our and had a coupon from last weeks trivia and apparently it split with an 11¢ difference and made a point to give that to me not my friend and i joked “oh so i’m your favorite?!”

i was starting to write the note with my number (was so nervous i misspelled dance twice) when he came up and said “so since im quitting, how do i get in touch with yall” and i asked “we’ll do you have a functioning phone number?” and he said yeah and i wrote a note with my number, then he had to go off and do his job. and our guy friend was itching to leave so we left without waiting to say bye and were talking just outside the door and i asked my friends “so do we think he likes me?!” and before they answered he came out and was like “you were gonna leave without saying goodbye?!!!” acting all hurt so we joked and said bye and when he left my guy friend said “well i think that answers your question, he wouldn’t do that if he wasn’t into you” so i drove off feeling SO confident he was gonna text… then he didn’t text that night or the next day so im thinking he just isn’t going to. and the options are either he’s just not interested and threw it away or my bruise ego was convinced he accidentally lost it and was heartbroken and surely i need to show up at his now job (but also wasn’t gonna do that because i don’t wanna be a creep if he’s simply not interested)

but then yesterday he FINALLY texted, and turns out he did lose it but found it in his cash tip and joked a little. he was responding quickly but he stopped after like an hour and hasn’t said anything since :(( i just sent a “hey?” text but perhaps i’m making a fool of myself

[plantley]

HE DOES LIKE ME, he’s just possibly the worst texter alive

[plantley]

AH i fear i have a crush!!! my friend and i went to grab dinner at mellow mushroom and ended up sitting at the bar to play trivia and we ended up knowing the host, but the bartender was around our age and quite cute. i’m never one to flirt or think too much into a bartender being nice and chatty, but we ended up talking to him for like several hours. turns out he also likes hiking, climbing, and also wants to learn how to dance. he said he’s trying to make friends bc he doesn’t have that many. i confirmed with my friend after, that i THINK he was flirting a bit with me (but could just be being a bartender) and we kept eye contact a handful of times (like more than i think is normal). turns out next week is his last shift before moving jobs, and we said well come for his last shift and i’m 99% sure i’m gonna leave a note with my number saying we should go dancing

[plantley]

ok so we went to trivia on monday and the first thing he said was “i’ve been thinking about y’all all week wondering if y’all’d actually show up!” and like so you’ve been thinking about me all week. and it was busier so he didn’t talk to us as much but when he had a minute he’s still come over (but like also could just be doing his damn job)

then when we were ready to pay the bill my friend and i split our and had a coupon from last weeks trivia and apparently it split with an 11¢ difference and made a point to give that to me not my friend and i joked “oh so i’m your favorite?!”

i was starting to write the note with my number (was so nervous i misspelled dance twice) when he came up and said “so since im quitting, how do i get in touch with yall” and i asked “we’ll do you have a functioning phone number?” and he said yeah and i wrote a note with my number, then he had to go off and do his job. and our guy friend was itching to leave so we left without waiting to say bye and were talking just outside the door and i asked my friends “so do we think he likes me?!” and before they answered he came out and was like “you were gonna leave without saying goodbye?!!!” acting all hurt so we joked and said bye and when he left my guy friend said “well i think that answers your question, he wouldn’t do that if he wasn’t into you” so i drove off feeling SO confident he was gonna text… then he didn’t text that night or the next day so im thinking he just isn’t going to. and the options are either he’s just not interested and threw it away or my bruise ego was convinced he accidentally lost it and was heartbroken and surely i need to show up at his now job (but also wasn’t gonna do that because i don’t wanna be a creep if he’s simply not interested)

but then yesterday he FINALLY texted, and turns out he did lose it but found it in his cash tip and joked a little. he was responding quickly but he stopped after like an hour and hasn’t said anything since :(( i just sent a “hey?” text but perhaps i’m making a fool of myself

[flythesail]

You should automatically get time off work until the light returns to your eyes and you feel like a real person again

[whisperintoass-deactivated20200]

[plantley]

AH i fear i have a crush!!! my friend and i went to grab dinner at mellow mushroom and ended up sitting at the bar to play trivia and we ended up knowing the host, but the bartender was around our age and quite cute. i’m never one to flirt or think too much into a bartender being nice and chatty, but we ended up talking to him for like several hours. turns out he also likes hiking, climbing, and also wants to learn how to dance. he said he’s trying to make friends bc he doesn’t have that many. i confirmed with my friend after, that i THINK he was flirting a bit with me (but could just be being a bartender) and we kept eye contact a handful of times (like more than i think is normal). turns out next week is his last shift before moving jobs, and we said well come for his last shift and i’m 99% sure i’m gonna leave a note with my number saying we should go dancing