A young girl who became suicidal

she/her. TRIGGER WARNING: my blog is a trigger warning. used to be sorrythatiletyoudown. you can ask about me but its an anonymous blog so don't surprised if I don't wanna tell you. if you ever need anything please feel free to message me anytime, I'll get back to you asap. please call 1-800-273-8522 or vist, http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org and talk to someone online. vist my feel better tag if you're feeling down. I love @suicdalbitch15. that's my girl.

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Gonna try to do better tomorrow and next week about having a routine and doing stuff that needs to be done. Goodnight

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I'm a carrying person. I want people to remember that about me.

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I just want to not feel sick all the time and like how I look.

[vexheart]

This

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You are more than what you look like.

I feel like as women, we sacrifice comfort to look "good" to others, and it's not fair.

Where fewer clothes when it's hot, cut your hair how it's easiest to manage, eat what is easiest for you, and doesn't make you sick.

It's unfair that we stay burning up in the summer because we have to "cover up" and we have to sacrifice our mental health so we can have long pretty hair even though it makes it hard to get ourselves to take a shower, and we have to not eat at all because the only thing we can stomach is unhealthy and we are supposed to stay thin.

I'm tired of not living life because I'm too busy being worried about how I'll look.

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I don't know what to say or do. I don't know how I feel. My mind pulls me 100 different ways. I just want to feel better and fet stuff accomplished. I wanna feel like myself and be happy.

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My boyfriend was leaving the store closest to my house and saw my sister and her boyfriend (my sa'er) going in and it just makes me feel really defeated because what's the point in healing my agoraphobia if I can't leave the house anyway? I have to fear where I go in my own city. What's the point of being alive if it doesn't get better? It won't, it can't. Once, when I walked out of a store after seeing them, I was told I was over dramatic and attention seaking when I didn't even say a word and just left. So I really can't win. So I don't know, but it makes it hard to get out of bed or even try when I know stuff won't get better.

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You never know the full story

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It would be different if my hair was like it used to be but my old medication ruined it.

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I really don't get people

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Its not that simple

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I wish people knew how much it bothered me and could see

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So like what's the point?

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People don't understand how difficult it is

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So which is it?

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So mad at myself for not doing more.