i was born in september @pleaseseptember - Tumblr Blog

ну какой же он еблан я просто поражаюсь, только истинные ебланы орут как не в себя на животных, оскорбляют их матами и пинают ногами 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 мало того только истинные ебланы орут матом на ебучую умную колонку за то что та не понимает его💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻

pleaseseptember

Reminding for not communicative people

I can’t say that i’m antisocial but i definitely have problems with communication.

Remember, that saying “hi” is easier than rebuilding a lost relationship because of your non-greeting.

That’s what happened to me and now i step over my cringe phrases but trying to fix it, because I want to be friend with this girl!! It seems like she has the same interests as me and I don’t wanna lose a chance to have more than one bff.

Don’t look away, say “hi” on time.

pleaseseptember

she is one of my best friends now :)

also misleading info - my blog is 5 years old actually, i got signed up 9 ago tho

pleaseseptember

i cant

i wanna be a programmer, but i don’t think that i’m smart enough. i can’t solve my IT homework , can’t think fast while doing exercises with my tutor. my classmate is going to be a programmer too, but he understand and work much better and he is helping me to do my hw now. ;( i know that it’s stupid to compare myself with anybody and i know that success is 5% talent + 95% working but it so fucking hard to believe in yourself!!!!!!!!! i really try to banish the bad thoughts

i know that i can do everything.

pleaseseptember

spoiler

i am a programmer

you can really do anything i life, it’s up to you

well hi tumblr, haven’t seen you for a while. i think you know why i’m here - i got hurt again. my tumblr is 9 years old now actually and that’s really a lot. for 9 years i’ve been coming here to spill my pain, but with time i stopped doing it at all, which is good! but yeah today i’m here to tell that i grew up a little ahah, i’m 22 now. and i have a job. and i wanted to move out. my relationship with mom is great now, i still remember the pain she caused me and one day i’ll talk to her about it, but now it’s more than enough, i’m really pleased. but father.. oh well. he is still piece of shit he always was. i still hate him and he continues to bring toxicity to my life. but what changed is my perception of him - now i understand him. or at least some part of him. he’s really afraid of losing me, he’s afraid i will leave him, he afraid that i will turn my back to him. so he tries his best to keep me near him. and it was always like that since the very beginning. he caused me lots of pain because of it. before that he could just say no to me and refuse to help, but now i have my money, i have my strength, i have my friends and i have my mother. the only thing that he can use is threat. i said i wanted to move out and he said he will kick me out of family for that. yes. ahah, shit, that’s so fucking bad. i’m genuinely surprised that other fathers just support their child on their way in life. he caused me so much pain… my heart is breaking into pieces… he never supported me when it was important… i even remember when he justified teacher for giving me a bad mark, when i was literally crying out of unfairness. yeah that’s really bad. he never supported me and i hate him for that. i hate him for breaking my heart and causing me trauma. for gaslighting me and putting blame on me. this blog should never existed but it does because of him.

i’m gonna watch sex education now, i hope it will help to get distracted and fall asleep.

славно что я все еще могу прийти сюда и поныть о своем ебанутом отце

сидит пиздит как все не убрано и грязно, как никто ничего не моет, какой он молодец все чистит убирает за собой, да пизди больше ебаный мудак, ожидания блять понизь, не один живешь а с людьми если что, никто тебе ничем не обязан, мать каждый день терпит твое нытье о том как все лежит не по твоему и как все не готово к той самой секунде которой ты хочешь

как же блять заебало мнение отца которое он считает жизненно необходимым засунуть в каждую дырку

эта тревога о будущем так сковывает сердце, душит изнутри, вселяет страх

прихожу сюда раз в столетие поныть

как же заебало тревожиться

я блять физически ощущаю как все считают меня хуевой

хочу блять выпилиться от неуверенности в себе от ненависти к себе

почему ненависть к себе приходит так внезапно 🙄🙄🙄

бляяяя как же заебала эта социальная неловкость…….

just fuck off

please

буквально плачу когда подруга присылает сердечки…… она редко это делает….

я блять каждый год сдаю анализы и все мониторю ебана ну отьебись уже хватит капать на мозги

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