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I’m slowing becoming obsessed with tumblr again.

[plentyofgay]

I need you to tell your parents that we are literally just friends. That that’s all we will ever be. That we had a “talk” and that I’m not physically attracted to you. You’re not my type and that you’re too young for me. That I consider you one of my haunt babies. But that we have a brother like relationship.

But know that I don’t feel like that. You know how I feel. It isn’t gonna change. And it isn’t going anywhere. I can compartmentalism it and have it not be an issue. NOT IN A BAD OR TOXIC WAY. I can have it ready if you decide one day that you’re ready.

Or we can just be best friends. Hopefully best friends that cuddle and still hang out and hug. Cause I love you. Wether it be platonic or romantic.

If you and Kai date. Which I’m worried that you will. And worried that they are going to hurt you. I will be here. I’m always gonna be here. You’re always gonna have a cord of energy attached to you from me and vice versa.

I know your here to show me love that I haven’t received. Whether or not you’re the only one that’s suppose to show me that or not I don’t not know yet. That’s the journey we are currently on.

You’ve never had someone care for you like I do? Have you? Is that the same reason that I’m in your life.

The painting that I made reins true. I’ll find you again wherever we end up next. That resonates with me.

Yes I’m gonna back off with the lovey dovey stuff. The whole reason I think I’ve been doing it is cause I want you to do it back to me. Step out ya comfort zone. I think I like to challenge you.

Don’t be worried that I’m obsessed with you. I just love you. There’s not an obsession. If I was obsessed I would have done some stupid shit. I would have made you think I’m a perfect person and manipulated you. Granted. I don’t genuinely know how I would do that. I’m just being authentic and fully me with you.

I’m attached I believe because you’ve shown me what no one else has. Actual love, kindness, understanding, stability, a genuine connection, you’re supportive. Hell you may not tell me I’m cute and sexy and all the things I wish you would. That’s why I ask you a lot.

I don’t want you to get hurt again. Cause I know you’ve been hurt really badly in the past. I don’t want that for you. I’m so worried that someone is gonna sweep you up. You’re gonna fall for them, they are gonna tell you that you’re not allowed to talk to me or you have to block me, and then boom you’re just gone. I’ve done that with so many people. I always give and give and give. I never get anything back.

But. With you. I’ve gotten stuff back. The energy and effort I’ve put into you I’ve received back and then some.

When you told me earlier that we needed to talk. My brain automatically thought. This is it. He’s gone. This is what you’ve been afraid of. This is your biggest fear. Him showing you something youve never had before. And poof he’s gone like that. But you’re not. You’re still here. You still love me. You still care. Granted we both want what we can’t have. But that’s okay. That’s something we work thru. Nothing is easy. Especially this.

You’re telling me this cause you don’t want me to get hurt. Cause you’re afraid you’re gonna hurt me and I’m gonna get mad and never speak to you again?

That ain’t gonna happen. Ever. Never ever. “I’ll find you again wherever we end up next.” Hold on to that phrase remember it. Cause it’s true. I’m always gonna find you. You’re always gonna be a part of my life. I guess I’ve been waiting for you. That’s that. We may be soul mates we may not be. I have nooooo idea. We are something tho. That I can promise. Shit if I died today. We’d find each other again. I’d always be with you. Honestly I could die happy at this point. I think you’ve shown me genuine kindness and love. You’ve shown me something new.

I’m still gonna buy you shit that you don’t need or want. Just cause I do that for everyone. I literally bought a bunch of worms just cause Emily wanted a worm curtain.

Hell we may move on from each other. That may very well happen. I’m not cutting myself off for you. If someone that I think is cute and that I think they like me too then imma prolly try it. Is that okay? Is that gonna hurt you??? I haven’t really found anyone like that yet. Just you so far. But I’m not gonna limit myself.

I will say tho. That if you say. Yes I wanna try to be boyfriends. It’s not gonna be an immediate yes. You still gotta take me on some dates and we still gonna have to like work on some stuff. Just like anyone would. For right now we are just what we are. I don’t wanna call it just “friends”. Cause I don’t wanna label it that. But I don’t think we are quite romantically talking either. We are just doing what we wanna do. When it’s time to not. Well know.

Also. You’re not even 20 yet. You’ve still got shit to do. I’m 24 I’ve still got shit to do. I’m not ready for a long term relationship anyways. It just wouldn’t work right now. I wasn’t even looking for someone to date. Then you rolled around and I was like. Well shit. I just wanted to have sex with you at first. But then ya worked some kind of avery magic and we are where we are now.

So yes. Date Kai if that’s what you figure you want. I don’t think you really need to tho. I don’t think you need to date anyone at the current moment. I think you need to work on other stuff. Just keep like talking to whoever and having fun. But be honest about it. Don’t hide anything.

Just still love me and hang out with me. That’s all I want and need. Even tho sometimes I long for more. But ultimately that’s all is needed. I know I have some work I need to do on me even before I’d be ready to be your boyfriend or anyone ones.

So. Just keep coming over. Maybe we’ll have some sex, maybe we’ll make out. Maybe I can teach you some stuff. Help you discover new things. But we will still hang out. Cause I love you.

I’m not gonna be missing out on anyone or wasting my time if I wait for you. People do not get romantically interested in me. Trust me. So I’m not wasting my time. You’re not wasting my time. If someone comes along and I fall in love with them. You’ll be there first to know. But rn you’ve got me. Soooooo. Imma just be patient. Until you tell me that I shouldn’t. When you tell me there is no chance in hell that we will date that’s when I’ll start getting over you. Till then imma just be patient.

Typing these out make me less anxious. Granted I’ve HAVENT gotten out of my bed since yesterday. Cause I still don’t know what’s going on. I still don’t know whether to let you go or to keep you close. I’m just confused and sad. I haven’t cried again yet. I haven’t self harmed. I haven’t even really felt like it tbh. I haven’t really felt like much actually. I think I’m still processing yesterday. It was really back and forth.

So what are we now? If we keep hanging out is Kai gonna stop talking to you?? I’m really worried about that. That’s not fair to you. And if you do date Kai. I’m not gonna be mad. I’m gonna be very very worried. I don’t believe your ready for a relationship and I think it would end not so well. BUT that just what I think. And I’m still kinda worried about Kai. I’ve just had a weird feeling and I still do. That’s just me being honest and open.

I think I’m okay with just hanging out and not being lovey dovey for now. I’ll do my best to not be lovey divert. If I do just tell me.

[plentyofgay]

Hello it’s me again

This is prolly me jumping to conclusions am also very angry while typing this. If your parents are gonna let us hang out then you realize how hard that’s gonna make things for us? Even if we were just friends? I wouldn’t get to see you but in passing. I really don’t know much about your relationship with your parents. From what I take they aren’t too fond of gay people tho. Me jumping to conclusions again. But why does it suddenly seem like they don’t want you around me? I feel like I get to see you for a small amount of time and then they won’t let you hang out for a month unless you sneak around them. But that’s really hard to do.

I want to do this. But I have to know you want to do this too and that you want to fight for it. If you don’t wanna fight for it then I don’t know what we should do. I don’t wanna stop being what we are. I don’t wanna have to just be friends. But I’m so worried at the rate things are going that it’s just gonna end up where I’m banned from existing in your life.

What happened to back when they would let you come over whenever. What’s changed? I genuinely don’t understand. I need to know. I want to see you more.

Just like cut me off. Don’t talk to me. Date Kai. I honestly give up. I don’t want you to. But I kinda think it’s the best at this point. I don’t think you should talk to me. It’s gonna make things too hard for you. I know I stress you out and you worry about me. You shouldn’t. And I know I freaked you out. I’m sorry. Really sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I want to crawl into a hole and not exist at this point. I never wanted for it to get to this point. But like you’re better off with Kai. Not me. I’m not good enough for you. I wanna cut myself off from the world and just go away.

FUCK IM TIRED OF STRESSING OVER STUOID SHIT. Why I gotta be like this.

[plentyofgay]

Hey hi me again. Posting questions

These are v intrusive. Idk if they make you feel vulnerable. They sure as hell make me feel vulnerable. If you want me to not then tell me pls. I also read you the ones that make me sounds bat shit crazy. If you want. ALSO KEEP IN MIND IM NOT LIKE THISBYEAR ROUND. Just this time of year is hard for me.

🖤am also hust curious what you and ya dad did in Madison. I kinda like to live vicariously thru other people father relationships.

🖤Do you trust me? That I would never hurt you?

🖤Are you afraid to ask to hang out with me cause you think your parents are gonna be suspicious

🖤Are you overwhelmed with how much I ask to see each other?

Are you just making up excuses or finding ways to get out of hanging out? It’s really okay if you don’t want to. Just like tell me.

🖤If I’m getting to be too much I can back off. Everyone always says I’m too much. But I know so far that you can handle me so that’s why I’m letting you have all of me at this point.

🖤What happened to us hanging out more? I genuinely miss that. It’s getting to where I don’t see you but for a few hours every other week and that’s really really hard. I know that your busy but is that it?

I don’t know how you generally feel about that.

🖤Do you like crave getting to see me?

Like I literally crave getting to see you and hug you and kiss you. Like I want that all the time.

I know it’s hard to sneak around. I know. I don’t want to get you into a issue with your parents

So it just gives me more reason to like fade away from your life. I don’t wanna do it. But I’m starting to think more and more how it can benefit you. That thought really actually breaks me heart. I’ll try anything other than that. Unless that’s what you need. I know it’s not what you want. But do you need that?

maybe. You’ve been so so so busy these past few weeks. I know it’s hard to make time for you to see me. I don’t blame you at all. But it still makes me angry and sad and upset.

Shit I’m sure you could tell your parents that you were going to hang with Kai and they’d be fine with it or that Kai was coming over for dinner and they’d prolly be happy about it.

I have no idea what they’d think if I came to have dinner and hang out. I want to really bad. I wanna come see you everyday if I could. I can make up excuses to come hang. Even if we can’t act like we like each other. I can do that. I will gladly do that. I’ll literally do anything for you.

🖤Like I said I know you love me and I know you like me like I like you. Just things have been happening that keep me questioning it. But things tell me not to doubt it cause that’s when things fall apart is when doubt sets in.

🖤So I’m gonna be confident and optimistic even if i get sad that we can’t see each other as much as we’d prolly like. Honestly you’d prolly get sick of me if you did.

🖤I just wanna cuddle and take naps and play games and get drunk and tickle you even tho you hate hate hate it cause it always turns into us loving in each other.

🖤God I honestly hate how much I want you. I want to know why I’m like this. It bothers the he’ll outta me. Even if I try to forget you I can’t. Not in the way you think I mean it. I think

🖤I’ve tried multiple times. I even had a guy come over that one time and went out on a date with a guy cause I didn’t think you liked me. But all I coukd literally think about was how much I wanted that guy to be you. This was before we even really really got to know each other. Why am I so fucked up? What’s wrong with me?

🖤I just want thing to be happy and everyone to be happy and ti have a solid relationship that’s typical and sweet and fun. I just want that. I want what we have to turn into that. I want a typical basic ass relationship with you. I WANT IT SO BAD.

🖤These things make me feel stupid that I have these random thoughts that make me hella over think.

🖤Like I’m pitiful cause I’m sad that I don’t get to see the guy I like so I sit in the bed. In the dark. HOPING that he may get to come over. It’s so stupid. I’m so stupid.

If him and I don’t work then I’m really really reaaaaally done with dating. I’m not gonna fall for another guy. I don’t think I can handle it. Fuck I can barely handle this.

🖤I’m so fucking thankful for him. I can’t explain how thankful I am for him. There are no words to explain. It’s literally a new emotion.

🖤Here’s a list of things I currently wanna do.

🖤Go out on a date date, go watch the stars, go get a fish for my tank, just fucking cuddle, just fucking kiss you, have sex with you, take naps together, come hang out with you at your house, help you make life choices, take you to meet my mom, take you hiking, take you to my favorite spots, take you shopping, play video games with you, watch you be happy and enjoy life.

🖤God all I want is for you to be happy. I wanna give you the happiness you give me.

🖤Everything is okay? Nothings changed other than the fact that ya know all the things about me now? That’s not making you wanna keep away from me? It’s okay that I’m giving you 120% of the real Ryan?

🖤Is me getting you things too much? I enjoy getting you stuff. But I don’t wanna make that what our relationship is about.

🖤Am I being too pushy?

🖤I know this is a selfish stupid thing to ask but you are really actually busy right? Not just making excuses so you don’t have to hang out? I know in my heart that you’re not lying to me. But I guess this is just me wanting to hear it from you. Trust issues ya know? They ARE getting better. But it takes time for me to really really trust someone. I’m getting there with you. That’s why I have these talks with you. I’m trying to get rid of the doubts. I know I can just trust you. But I always have that little intrusive thought in my head that tells me he’s lying to me to push me away easily. Or telling me your avoiding me to be with someone else. That’s happened way too many times to count.

[plentyofgay]

Yay more little notes of my brain being stupid.

So do you think I’m manipulating you? My ex always told me that. Then he broke things off with me.

Still wanna know just how much you get to hang out with the other person.

Still wanna believe that I’m not a toxic human. But I’ve always been made feel like I am.

Still feel like I’m constantly bugging you.

I honestly just wanna see you and give you a hug and I would feel better

My brain tells me you’re ignoring me and making time for the other person. But I know you can and it’s easier to. Just purely for the fact that they can come see you without you being questioned.

Something still tells me to hang on and hold out. I don’t know what. I still feel like I’m just gonna make things harder for you. I still don’t know why you’re sticking around.

I know you love me. I do know that. I wanna spend all the time in the world with you.

What do you feel like when you’re with them?

How do they make you feel?

I want to make you feel warm and fuzzy and happy when you lays eyes on me or when I text you or say something sweet.

I want you to smile when you think of me.

I don’t want you to stress about whether your gonna hurt me in the end. You may and you may not.

Do you know what your getting yourself into when you talk to me.

Are you prepared to deal with me? No one can handle me. I think you may be able to. That’s why I’m so attached. I love you. You show affection when you can.

There’s this part of me that wants to just disappear and forget everything cause I don’t wanna get hurt.

Then there’s this part of me that thinks we are gonna be forever. Honestly I want forever. I know you don’t know what you want in this moment in time.

I’m also worried that this other person is gonna hurt you really bad and you may not see that. I’m so so so so worried about that.

I’m so worried that you make a decision and then you regret that.

If you do make a decision and it’s not me I’m not going to hurt myself. I won’t. Ever again. I’ll keep going on. I’ll be upset and hurt and sad and all the emotions for a little while. But I’ll come back to the normal me. You’ll still have a place in my heart however. You can tell em im the worst human in this earth and that you hate me. But I’m still gonna love you. Just because you’ve given me actual happiness.

You’ve given me genuine love and care like I’ve never had before.

I even do tarot readings on myself and you. Just to see what our outcome will be. It literally always says that we will be the endgame. That it’ll be us.

I think that’s why I worry so much. I’m worried that my cards are just telling me what I wanna hear. But I really don’t think they are.

I guess I’m just worried about how you said that person would just ghost you and forget about you if you decided you liked me.

That one painting of the skeletons I did. I kinda see that as you and I.

I think we have been together in all the lives we’ve lived. I’m drawn to you.

I was drawn to you the first day I met you. You gave me butterflies. I literally told myself that I want something with him. Even before I knew your name. There was something under that long curly hair and quiet demeanor. I wanted to know it. I felt like I already knew it tbh.

Things are so easy with you. So so so easy. Scary easy.

Another thing that’s wild for me is that our hands fit comfortably together. For me that’s always been a sign of things are going to happen between us. The past two boyfriends I’ve had our hands didnt fit well together.

I feel electricity or a string between us. I feel like I’ve been waiting and waiting to meet you for so long now. When I thought about someone that I was gonna fall for I imagined someone like you. Caring, loving, someone who listens, someone who understands. Someone who loves me in my bad moments and someone who loves me in my good ones.

But still I feel like I’m that second choice. The back up. I know I’m not.

I still wish you could make time for me. I wish I could come surprise you at your house. I wish your parents could love me. And love us. I wish your mom could come up to my car and be like “I hope my child falls in love with that person”.

I want so many things. So so so many. Most of all I just want you. I want you to be my other half. Even tho you don’t have a whole other half to give rn.

Maybe that’s what it is. You don’t have a whole other half to give me rn. Maybe that’s what I’m waiting for the other half. Maybe that’s what my cards are telling me to wait for. Telling me to be patient and wait. Good things are always bound to come to those who wait.

So I’m gonna wait. I’ll wait it out. Till then. I’m here. I’m waiting. Patiently for you to realize that I’m here for you. Even if I’m not what you want in the end. Even if I’m want you want and can’t have. I wonder if that’s what it is. I’m what you want but you feel like you can’t have me for some reason.

You can have me. You can have all of me. You already have a lot of me. You know everything about me now.

I don’t know what sparks these thoughts.

I kinda wanna drop you and act like we’ve never met. Just to see what happens. That runs thru my head sometimes. But I know that wouldn’t be good. I know I would regret every single second of it.

I can’t even do simple things without thinking about how you’d enjoy this or how this could be cool if we got to do it together.

I have so many little things that I wanna do with you. That no one ever wants to do that I know you would.

I can go on and on cause my brain doesn’t stop.

But these make me feel better. It’s a way for me to get stuff out of my head.

[plentyofgay]

Hey it’s me here again. Just venting.

Some questions I’m putting here to ask someone.

You said I’m different for anyone you’ve ever met. What does that mean?

I know you hang out with this other person a lot more than me. I just wanna understand why? Is it cause it’s easier? Cause you feel better around them? What sets them and I apart?

Is there anything i can do to help improve our relationship?

Do you love me like I love you? Do you think about me the way I think about you?

When you’re with the other person are you the one that initiates the cuddling and kissing? Do you two make out? Get hot and heavy? Get turned on?

Do you really actually enjoy kissing me? Why don’t we actually ever make out? Why is it when your drunk your more open to being more sexual or making out?

Are you doing this all just to make me happy? Or are you actually getting some type of enjoyment out of it?

How would you feel if I said I wanted to be just friends? Relived? Upset? Wishing that I didn’t?

How do you feel when your with me?

Do you think we could actually have something in the future?

Would things actually be easier if we were just friends and if I let you and this person grow your relationship more?

I know I’m going to get hurt eventually. I know how things like this usually end. I’ve been through it before and it was very very hard. But I’m willing to try again. Because you’re different from anyone I’ve ever met. I’m just worried you don’t feel the same about me.

In all honesty I think you’d be better off without me. I feel like I’m dragging you down and making your life harder and more stressful. Is it worth it? Am I worth the stress? Am I honestly worth your time?

Is there anything I can do to help break down walls to were you’ll actually kiss me? Or hold my hand? Instead of me “making the move”

When I say “I love you” why do you reply with “I love you too man” it really throws me off.

Do you actually understand what you mean to me?

Should I distance myself from you? I don’t want to but would it be smart to do?

Am I getting in the way of you moving forward with things in your life?

I genuinely believe I’m out here on earth to help people with things and then people leave me. I’m very scared that’s gonna happen with you. Even tho you tell me that it won’t. It always does. No matter what. I still don’t understand why I let myself be so vulnerable around you. I actually wear my heart on my sleeve. But I don’t know if you recognize that.

Does it bother you how much I really have fallen for you?

Why do you stick around?

Are you actually attracted to me? Or is that something you’ve said to make me feel better?

Why don’t you compliment me? You only do when I ask you too. It’s generally something I really need. I don’t know why.

Most of this comes from trust and abandonment issues. It’s honestly hard to trust you’ll stay around when you have an easy way out.

You’re life could be easy and normal. But yet you still wanna be around me. Why?

Is the reason we don’t hang out as much as you and the other person cause of your parents or are you afraid of something?

What are you afraid that’s gonna happen if we do get closer and hang out more.

Yes I’m jealous of you and the other person. Cause I want you to myself. I know that’s selfish. But I want you. I want you to be mine. But I’m fighting a losing battle. I can feel it.

Are you using me to gain something? Are you staying cause your fascinated by who I am?

Is your last trauma the reason why we aren’t intimate?

Have you actually been intimate with this other person recently?

Have you lied to me about stuff? Or have you just been too towing around things?

Have you been truthful to the other person about you and I?

I kmow that you and the other person hang out much more than we do. Is that because it’s easier? Do you feel more comfortable around them? If you do then why?

Is there something that I can do to make things better?

I genuinely think everyday about how much easier life would be for you if you’d never met me.

Why do you leave me on read when I ask you important things? Is it cause you’re afraid to answer? Is it cause your afraid you gone hurt me and then feel bad about it?

What made you want to surprise me the other day?

Do you look at the other person the same why you look at me?

Do you feel sexually attracted to me?

Have you told anyone about me?

I know you’ve told other people about this other person.

Why are you so afraid of committing to a specific person?

Why do I feel like I’m forcing you to kiss me or hug me sometimes?

Do you actually want to kiss me? And love on me? If you do then why don’t you start it? Why am I always the one saying that I miss you and that I wanna see you?

Do you actually wanna hang out with me?

Cause I genuinely feel like you don’t most of the time.

I feel like I’m just the back up plan that you keep around just in case

Or when it’s convenient to you.

Do you stick around cause I buy you things? That’s why my last bout stuck around. Is cause I would do for him first and I would do without.

Do you realize that I would actually take a bullet for you. Like if you were about to be shot I would jump in front of the bullet to save you.

I would do anything for you. I love you so much and I don’t know why. It’s hurts. It really hurts how much I love you and you don’t love yourself like I love you. I really want you to see how much I care.

I wanna tell you all these things but I’m afraid your gonna freak out like everyone else does. I’m being selfish and paranoid and in my head by asking all these things yes I know. But I don’t think I have a right to kmow all these things.

Especially if you’re gonna make out with someone else and cuddle them.

I still don’t know why you like me. Or why you think I’m attractive. I know why you like this other person and why you think they are attractive. Cause you’ve literally told me.

Are you trying to distance yourself from me? Cause it’s just gonna make it harder for me when you do decide your done.

If you want to date the other person then just please for the love of god do it.

You’re hurting them and I by just holding us hostage. It’s honestly not fair to either of us. We both agreed to it because we both have fallen very hard for you.

I know your not ready to make a decision. I know. But when you are please tell me

I want you to tell me every single time that you and then kiss or hug or hang out. Why? Cause I’m jealous and want what y’all have. Cause I’ve never had anything real before. I want to have sex with you. I want to cuddle with you. I want to hold your hand randomly. I want to be affectionate with you in front of your family. I wanna do all the things with you that you do with the other person. I want to come over to your house every other day. And I want to see you I person every other day. I’ve really been considering just letting you go. I know the other person wants me to. I’m not stupid. At all. I wish y’all would just date. I really do. I wish I could make you happy like them. But I know I can’t. It breaks me that I can’t be what you really need. But I keep with it. Cause I love you and somewhere deep down I hope I’m good for you.

Why do you love me.

[plentyofgay]

It’s me again. Super depressed mentally unstable Ryan. Where do I start.

I’m super lonely. Like super super lonely. I’ve tried to not be lonely but I some how always end up by myself and disappointed. Things aren’t going to great at this point in my life. I’m literally suffocating. I can’t keep up with my bills at the moment. I making myself do things so I don’t just give up and end it all. I feel like I’m really close to just giving up tho. I’m really really tired of trying and not getting anywhere. I feel stuck. I don’t know what to do to get out or how to function. My brain is not okay. My mental health is so so so so so bad right now. I won’t kill myself cause I have to much stuff that people depend on me for. I do it on purpose tho. I’m trying to be a good friend and I’m trying to be happy but it just isn’t working I guess. I feel like there is zero purpose for me at this moment in life. I’m literally kinda just either waiting to die or waiting to start self harming or waiting for something to happen to make me happy again. Let’s hope something makes me happy again. I’m just kinda rambling my thoughts out there. Kinda in hopes that someone I know sees this and asks if I’m okay and lets me open up to them. But also I don’t want anyone to see it. I honestly don’t know how I got to this point if I’m being honest. I made my life take a 360 for a reason. But I’ve lost that reason I guess. I can’t go back to before that cause I know that cause drastic things for me. I have really great things going for me rn. I guess the bad is just being more prominent tho. Idk what triggers me to get like this. It could be people forgetting about me. I know that makes me feel awful. Really awful. I think this is kinda been building up. I’m sure I’ll be okay. I’ll survive and make it thru this as always. I’m just gonna go to sleep and try to sleep it off.

[rebathecompleteseriesdvdboxset]

reba trying to say ice

[southerngent1227-deactivated201]

The struggle of a southern accent!!!

[plasticcflower]

i arrive at the ball in my finest gown. i descend from the stairs like an angel from heaven and strike a pose

[plentyofgay]

Hahahahaha I’m so tired of trying to date or hookup. I think I’m just gonna be okay with the fact that I’m not gonna date anyone ever. As it seems so far I’m not destined to have anyone fall for me. They either ghost the fuck outta me or don’t have the time. lol I’m fucking done. I’m done feeling lonely and sad cause all my friends are in relationships. So ya know what I don’t give a fuck anymore. Time to push those feelings aside and be single for ever.

[plentyofgay]

Hey hi. I come here to say things I wouldn’t say to people I kmow. God forbid someone I know sees all these.

UPDATE ON LIFE.

My mental health is gone to SHIT. I’m surviving. By a thread. A very very worn down thread. No like suicidal thoughts. Which is a good thing. I keep sending out hints that I’m fucking struggling tho. No one really picks up on them. I don’t know if they are ignoring them or don’t know how to help. All I need is a hug and to cry on someone.

I moved from my home on a whim. It was okay at first but shit got real very fast. I have a new job tho. I think I’m doing good, but I hate being the new guy and not knowing everything. I was screwed out of moving into a place with a friend that caused me to have a mental break. Due to the fact that I was told “everyone can stay here but you”. Even tho a few days before I was told “ you’re welcome to go get your stuff and move here”. But it wasn’t the friends fault. She had to choose who could and couldn’t stay. Unfortunately I was the one that couldn’t stay. So I got booted back to where i am currently staying. There are many plans up in the air about when I’m gonna move to somewhere with someone. But honestly I think the best plan is for me to move somewhere on my own. Fuck having a credit score. Mines reaches the barely acceptable point for getting a place. I also have some bad payment history left over from where my dad died and I had zero help with things that I needed to pay. I currently don’t have phone service cause I’m trying to pay for my car that is 4 months behind. I know that I’ll be able to make two payments in a week which is wonderful. But then I’ll still be 2 months behind. Hopefully after that I can dish out the $160 I need to cut my phone back on. I also owe people money that they let me borrow when I needed it badly. I feel like I keep getting fucked over. I also feel my self distancing from everyone. No clue why. But I know it’s happening. I see that peoooe are happy around me and that I’m just dragging them down. Like I’m following them like a lost puppy. I don’t wanna be that person so I just end up removing myself from that situation. People don’t question it when I do. I just need someone to drop me some coin, a boyfriend, and a stable mental capacity. After that I’ll be all set to go. The good thing is that I’m happy where I am currently I just gotta get things going and starting my own life is HARD. So send me good vibes. Thanks for listening. Granted I know nobody I know sees this. I don’t like to have people know that I’m struggling this hard. Okay. Thanks. Byeee.

[plentyofgay]

Hello I come here to be sad cause no one pays attention to it here.

Everyone gets tired of me. They all leave eventually. I’m too much and I try to not be but it just doesn’t seem to work ever. I somehow push people away. It sucks but I guess I’m used to it again. I’ll just go numb like I was and I’ll coast through life with no meaning. No happiness. Nothing to look forward too.

No reason to worry about me tho. I’m sure I’m being over dramatic and everything will be fine. I have this stupid thing called intrusive thought that likes to take over when I’m sad. That’s all for now.

[sovereigndramatica]

this is gross of course but I'm stuck on the implication that men Need to see penis in the bathroom or it's a human rights violation

[bax16]

I go to the dick room, I expect to see dicks. Else I go apeshit

[whitepeopletwitter]

[plentyofgay]

BIG OOF

I live crying myself to sleep.

[malketor]

Looking up Scottish mythological creatures and

Wulver: a werewolf in Shetland, that is said to have had the body of a man with a wolf’s head. It was reported to have left fish on the windowsills of poor families.

That is the nicest Werewolf legend I’ve ever heard of.

[thegreenwolf]

Now I wish I could draw because I’d love to draw this.

[defilerwyrm]

i tried

[goodsuggestions]

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[bellaxiao]

[falconpunchyourmom]

Parallel Earth.

[thefingerfuckingfemalefury]

AMAZING

[thaebae]

I LOVE