hi,
I wanted to post an update here mainly for my future self. I keep this simblr here as an online type of diary sort of thing, and in times of doubt I tend to scroll through this tumblr as it reflects some of my happier days and days when I had something that I am passionate about. and also it reflects my personal growth as I have quite literally grew up with this simblr.
my hometown has been the frontline for 9 months. my home, my actual house has been about 15 kilometers away from the actual frontline with the actual fighting for about 9 months. after liberation of Kherson, the frontline has been pushed away from my house with the incomprehensible efforts of our people and with the help of our allies. writing this does not feel real. I cannot find the right words to describe what I should have said here.
for anyone wondering, the pink star in the south is my hometown. i know the maps marked with occupied and librated territories’ markings by heart, but if you wanted to see how it has been, you can always look up the maps online (via DeepStateMAP for example).
most of my family and close people are still in Mykolaiv, are still in Ukraine. I cannot even begin to describe what it feels like. it all feels like a tangled ball of yarn, and I am not sure when and if I personally will ever be able to comprehend how it all was.
I feel a lot of bitterness I have never felt before. I can actually feel the heart breaking into tiny pieces, having to keep together for my family and for my people. I feel a lot of hate I have never felt before. all my life prior to 2014 I have never felt hate. it was too much of a strong word for me. after february 24 2022 this word got a whole new meaning.
list of resources to help Ukraine can be found here: https://www.standwithukraine.how/
please consider helping in any way you can. please spread awareness of the war as much as you can.
signing off here. I wanted to leave a message here so I can look back at this year later.
hope you are all safe. see ya!