I’m having a hard time again feeling normal. The weight gain has been really bad lately, and the 2nd consecutive month of no sex, soon to be three months and just no communication about it has really sucked. The books aren’t even enjoyable anymore because I just don’t feel I’ll ever be able to be desired like that. Idk I thought the photo shoot would help and maybe it has. Maybe I’m just not enough, I probably never was. Maybe celibacy is the right path. Love being dramatic .

















