poetry and all

hi i'm moe. this is some poetry that i write

[poetrybymoe]

the sick

algorithm

of being alone together.

the sick, disturbing silence

that we share

in every moment we spend together.

my stomach 

overflowing with vomit

because we’ve grown accustomed

to each other.

living with you makes me sick

but i can’t

stand to live without you

[poetrybymoe]

it's all shit, it's all gone to shit

every repetition, every cycle that hurts you even more, even deeper

so deep that, after so many times of repeating repeating,

you don't even feel the hurt anymore

your body gets accustomed

but your mind does not

[poetrybymoe]

Sometimes i mix up all the places

that i have ever existed in

places that i have been to

quite some time ago

[poetrybymoe]

i'm out here all alone

walking through the streets of paris, admiring the big moon over the city

kinda wishing it would rain

streetlights illuminate the dusty hot streets

i want to stroll around for hours in a night like this

meeting strangers, drinking wine

i go inside a noisy bar, fill it with a little laughter and then leave again

and as im standing underneath the glow of the old street lights and dawn is just around the corner, i feel a tiny drop of rain run down my cheek

or is it a tear

[poetrybymoe]

you miss my smell and the feeling of my breath against your chest when you hold my head in your arms..... don't ya

[poetrybymoe]

life sucks for everybody but i just write poems where i complain about my life

[poetrybymoe]

bees buzzing around my head

in a tiny little summer dress

i carefully lean back and start to smile my heart out

i open my lips more and smile wider and wider and wider

more and more, i rip my mouth out until i can't smile any harder

[poetrybymoe]

stupid, lazy eyes

dumb from all the chemicals

they stare right back at me

it's so hot and my eyes still sweat

salty, lazy, stupid tears

yesterday i cried in front of you

and you held my hand through it

and sang to calm me down.

but it didn't calm me down.

i just cried a little more

and then i stopped

[poetrybymoe]

your honey eyes

make my heart skip faster

and i crave your touch,

especially when i'm home alone

[poetrybymoe]

2.33 am.

i drunk text you once

and you call me to check if i'm alright.

but i've already fallen asleep to the bright phone screen.

so i miss your call and you text me that you're worried about me.

you call again and i wake up from the vibrating phone pressed against my face.

we talk for 4 minutes and i fall asleep again with you on the phone.

you whisper 'good night my love' and hang up.

and my last thought is how much pain and worry i cause you and that i'm sorry.

i'm so sorry

[poetrybymoe]

we had panic from the drugs

at night i started shaking and you started crying

and then i stopped and you stopped too

but you were still afraid

[poetrybymoe]

just write a bunch of poetry, pretend it never happened

[poetrybymoe]

do the drugs still get you high?

[poetrybymoe]

rick and morty in the background while you're making love to me

[poetrybymoe]

i'm broken and bruised

from your angelic touch

your fingers around my throat

slide off into the distance

[poetrybymoe]

the feel of your lips on mine and your poetry in the air

all this is so new, so fresh and so easy

i don't know if it will last

or sink in the waves of the sea

[poetrybymoe]

tiny moon shines through the covers of my mind

so thin it barely illuminates my room

bake some bread and leave this town

auf nimmer wiedersehen