The words “This is everything I’ve ever wanted” have been repeating in my head since I’ve met you. You’re the type of love and affection I’ve always wanted but never had.
I’ll never forget the night you mused about how badly you were resisting saying a “certain combination of words”. Your vulnerability from the very beginning was and remains one of the reasons I began to fall for you.
I didn’t know what it feels like to be loved by someone even in their semi-conscious state until now. From asking if I’m okay when I stir in the night, to giving me a kiss and telling me you love me when I accidentally wake you up at 2:00 AM. I can’t tell you how loved and cared for you make me feel. As I finished writing this, you wrapped your arms around me, buried your face in my back, and continued snoring. Who knew listening to the sleepy breaths of the one you love could be so comforting.
Since the moment you said it to me, every time I feel insecure about my pooch belly I think of you telling me “Well that’s where your uterus is, sweetheart”.
To add on to my point about you loving me, even in your sleep. I was watching you sleep and moved your pillow slightly to get it away from your face. I watched you stir, and then kiss the pillow, assumingely thinking its me you’ve been snuggling with
I absolutely adore the way I can make you smile and blush. From watching your stream and sending you a goofy text, to sending snapchat videos flirting back and forth, the giddy flutter I feel when I can make you smile is a beautiful thing.
Nothing makes my heart swell like hearing your hearty chest laugh
You make me feel so incredibly loved. I love our weekends together and wish they never came to an end
You have no idea what it means to me that you fell in love with me when my acne was at its some of its worst. Thank you for sticking by me, unwavering, and without making me feel insecure.
I can’t express how beautiful of a thing it has been to experience how you jumped into the roll of a boyfriend without hesitation. It comes so naturally to you because you are an incredible partner.
What you said to me today:
I’ll be your rock when you’re feeling like a pebble.
Sometimes when there’s rain there’s thunder.
I moved into my new place over the weekend. Last night we were sitting on the floor underneath my dining room table, laughing, and struggling to get the screws in right. I saw the future with you in that moment.
You’re a patient partner. It means the world to me
“I’ll give you butt pregnancy”
There’s these little things you do that I love, like how you run your hand down the wall every time you go down the stairs at your parent’s house or how you scratch your palms randomly in your sleep.
PS: I’m glad I was with you this Christmas.
“Why are your toenails so long? They’re like talons”
I miss how you would gaze at me even when my eyes were closed. I miss you
There’s a playlist of songs that have gotten me through losing you, the anguish and anger. I genuinely never expected that we would end that way.
I think I may have found someone who deserves me. At least I’m hopeful. Closing the door, onto the next chapter. Saying goodbye. Goodbye J.
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