MY MINDS ESCAPE.

When my legs can't run fast enough, my mind will. 

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Numb

I can write you this verse but it feels wrong cause your supposed to feel the words It's sounding too rehearsed I'm sliding my hands over brail, But all I feel is hurt What do you call someone with one point of view A story teller with no truth Two sides to every story Two eyes see the lies That your performing Acting is a profession people do for free these days Don't believe half of what you see these days 99% of what you hear is staged Thought you knew Stages are for entertaining Thought you knew stages weren't meant for degrading Thought you knew no one deserves shaming Not even you but you steady forgetting And it's so unpleasant seeing the present It's a gift no ones really accepting Appreciate what's happening

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Rock Bottom

Can someone point me in the right direction?

i am trying to find rock bottom.

I keep finding places that look like it, 

But then again, I have no sense of direction.

 I’m told it’s different for everyone when they get there,

 And that you can only go once in this life.

I just really want to get there, so I can leave.

Can someone point me in the right direction?

I don’t want to keep taking the wrong turn,

I feel like I keep missing my exit.

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Feeling

Once you start getting that feeling, push it down.

Once you get that first thought, silence it.

Once you see flashbacks, torch the images.

Once you catch the words slipping out of your lips, staple them shut.

Anything to not feel.

My iPhone keeps notifying me about not having enough storage,

But really its my head that needs to buy new memory.

I am not ready to feel, I know one day I will have to deal 

Like a game of roulette, you win some, you lose some. 

Question is who do you put your chips on anymore? 

Time is amazing,  

Twenty three years of pain can all come spilling out in twenty three seconds.

But then again, in the end we all want more time,

So why am I wasting it on this feeling?

Push it down,

Silence it,

Torch the images,

Staple it shut,

Anything not to feel,

Feeling.

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Tired of being so sad, Tired of getting so mad, baby Stop right now, You'll only let me down...

Demi Lovato

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What a high, for just a few seconds everything seemed to be falling in to place…I must of held on too tight, What a low.

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INNOCENT BEAUTY

False promises

The only words you ever spoke to me.

You took advantage of my young naïve heart, that didn’t have a chance from the start.

You knew exactly what you were doing.

They say “actions speak louder than words.”

If only I could have seen, what you were doing to me.

  When I feel like this, I have to speak about it.

When I feel like this, I have to scream real loud about it.

Make sure you hear, hear how you crushed my dreams.

You ripped them from right under my feet.

You ruined me.

Like a tidal wave, you knocked me down on the ground.

But you’re too ignorant to even see, you destroyed innocent beauty.

  I let you in my world, you came through it like a storm.

Pretty to the eyes, but full of secrets and lies.

And as I stand outside, the cold rain falls down on my face.

It reminds me of you, and everything you put me through.

The last day we spoke was one of the worst days’

I COULD EVER RECALL.

You stripped me down, like a flower with no petals,

You wilted me.

Then left me there on the ground, for someone else to find.

But Its ok baby.

Each day gets easier, as I let go of you.

I watch you fade away to a dark place,

Soon, I won’t even remember your face.

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DO YOU EVER?

Do you ever catch yourself squeezing your hand from a daydream?

Does your heart ever race at the image of someone you once knew? 

Do you ever wonder if theres a special person put on this earth just for you? 

Do you ever whisper before you go to sleep, "I know your out there, hurry up, and save me."?

Do you ever wonder if the only person to save you, is you?

Do you ever?

Why don't you?

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HE DOESN'T.

He doesn't know, that I know he's telling me lies.

So I hope, he won't expect a goodnight.

A goodnight, I love you.

And I can tell that drink, is loving him too.

He doesn't know, how tired I am.

Of him always, being tired. 

He works really hard, but I do too.

 When he's out with his friends,

The good times don't end,

But when he's by my side,

He's asleep by 9.

i just want, to go back in time.

He doesn't.