Poking Holes - CPTSD Warrior

In Recovery from CPTSD.

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I love going and sitting by the ocean. It's soothing and regulating to my nervous system. I always get visited by the local ravens, coming to see if I have a snack to share. ❤️ Follow @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Follow my Blog and Subscribe to my YouTube channel at the link in my bio @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Sharing my healing journey so that you feel seen, heard, held and supported. You're not alone! ❤️ Don't forget to heart, comment, share and save this post for later. ✌❤ #nature #cptsd #childhoodtrauma #complextrauma #complexptsd #developmentaltrauma #relationaltrauma #cptsdwarrior #thebodykeepsthescore #somatichealing #innerchildhealing #nervoussystemregulation #healingjourney #cyclebreaker #mentalhealthadvocate #traumainformed #selfcare #selfcompassion #selflove #selfpreservation https://www.instagram.com/p/CmLawEKLcvm/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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When you’re reminded of a traumatic experience, your amygdala goes into overdrive, acting as though you were experiencing the trauma for the first time. The prefrontal cortex becomes suppressed, so you’re less capable of controlling your fear and then you become stuck in a purely reactive state. This is what makes it hard to process thoughts and emotions when triggered/activated. It also leads to reduced activity in the hippocampus, which functions to tell the difference between past and present, so your brain can’t tell the difference between the actual traumatic event and the memory of it. Follow @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes @drpeteralevine Follow me on my Website/Blog and Subscribe to my YouTube channel at the link in my bio @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Sharing my healing journey so that you feel seen, heard, held and supported. You're not alone! ❤️ Don't forget to heart, comment, share and save this post for later. ✌❤ #fightflightfreeze #rraumaresponse #triggered #executivedysfunction #dysregulation #peterlevine #walkingthetiger #healingtrauma #somaticexperiencing #polyvagaltheory #cptsd #childhoodtrauma #complextrauma #complexptsd #developmentaltrauma #relationaltrauma #cptsdwarrior #thebodykeepsthescore #somatichealing #innerchildhealing #nervoussystemregulation #healingjourney #cyclebreaker #mentalhealthadvocate #traumainformed https://www.instagram.com/p/CmKEECdvOfq/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Growing up in an abusive home environment made me question everything about myself. I even question my own thoughts and emotions. Sometimes, I struggle with knowing what is the right thing to say or post. Is this okay? Is somebody going to be offended? Is somebody not going to like me anymore? Am I going to be left alone? My brain is constantly trying to keep me safe. Hypervigilance is so exhausting, but it was how I survived in my dysfunctional family. Now, when I notice I'm being Hypervigilant I acknowledge what I'm feeling, locate where I feel it in my body, and I thank my brain and body for keeping me safe. Then, I try to ground myself in the present moment by feeling the ground or the chair beneath me. I look around the room, orient to my surroundings, and remind myself that I'm not that little girl anymore. I remind myself that I'm a grown woman with children of my own and many accomplishments that I am proud of. I remind myself that I am allowed to talk about what happened to me. That I am a grown up. That I am safe. Post ❤️ if you relate. Follow @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Follow my Blog and Subscribe to my YouTube channel at the link in my bio @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Sharing my healing journey so that you feel seen, heard, held and supported. You're not alone! ❤️ Don't forget to heart, comment, share and save this post for later. ✌❤ #cptsd #hypervigilance #copingmechanism #copingskills #affirmations #orient #childhoodtrauma #complextrauma #complexptsd #developmentaltrauma #relationaltrauma #cptsdwarrior #thebodykeepsthescore #somatichealing #innerchildhealing #nervoussystemregulation #healingjourney #cyclebreaker #mentalhealthadvocate #traumainformed #selfcare #selfcompassion #selflove #selfpreservation https://www.instagram.com/p/CmHNSOmppTA/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Please share so my fellow warriors can find me!! I truly can't believe that this has happened as I haven't done anything to violate community guidelines. 😪😠☹️😤 Please follow me here at my back up account as my main account has been deactivated. @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes 🌟Click the link in my bio to Subscribe to my YouTube channel, follow me on my other Social Media, and sign up to my email list on my Website/Blog so you can always find me. @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Sharing my healing journey to help you feel less alone. Wanda aka CPTSD Warrior ❤️ #cptsd #complexptsd #complextrauma #cptsdwarrior #cptsdsurvivor #nocontact #smearcampaign #flyingmonkeys #dysfunctionalfamilysystem #toxicfamily #narcissisticfamily #narcissisticmother https://www.instagram.com/p/CmGRoUJutWC/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Just like it says, I think my family/sister got my Instagram account disabled. Slide to watch an excerpt from the YouTube video I uploaded about this. Click the link in my bio to watch the full video. @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes Please follow me here at my back up account, which is now my main account. @cptsdwarrior_pokingholea #smearcampaign #narcissisticfamily #cptsd #dysfunctionalfamilysystem #toxicfamily #cptsdwarrior #nocontact #boundaries https://www.instagram.com/p/CmFzzpWrydv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I uploaded a new video to my YouTube channel speaking about my sister again and how I'm navigating what has gone down between us. ➡️Slide for an excerpt from the video. 🌟Click the link in my bio to view the rest of the video. @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes #cptsd #cptsdwarrior #cptsdsurvivor #nocontact #estrangement #boundaries #healthyboundaries #SelfForgiveness #youtuber #cyclebreaker #traumaeducator https://www.instagram.com/p/CmC8J7OPAa5/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Still waiting for my main account @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior to come back. I'm so sad. I spent so much time building that account up trying to reach as many warriors as I could. I'm not sure if this is just something that happens randomly, or if I posted somebody's work and they reported me for copyright instead of messaging or leaving a comment. It's possible. I'm going to start making all of my own content for the feed I think, and only sharing others posts in my stories. 🌟Please follow me here and on my website so you'll always be able to find me. Click the link in my bio and go to my blog. Then on the right hand side margin click to subscribe to my email list. @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes I'll see about making a direct link to my email list soon. That will make it easier to find. Thank you to those who have followed me here and on my website already. ❤️❤️❤️ ➡️I'm still able to see my feed, my profile, and my settings as you can see from the screenshots I've taken after my account went down. I just can't post or interact. It seems I've lost a few posts and followers through this process. I'll just be glad to get my account back. #cptsdwarrior #cptsd #mentalhealthadvocate #cptsdsurvivor #freemyaccount https://www.instagram.com/p/CmCfUIHvgo3/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Hey everyone, This is very concerning. I have no idea what I've done wrong. I was about to take a break too. Now it looks like I have no choice. Instagram has been behaving strange lately. I've noticed and heard views are down, now this. However, I can't help but wonder if some flying monkeys have been up to some sabotage. #cptsdwarrior #cptsd #pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/Cl-oMtbO5U0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Reposted from @dr.victorieus Repost and share❤️ Join 16 Strong Project and Dr. Torie Williams, ACEs expert, as we lead the fight against the youth mental health crisis. This event will be a fully youth-led peer-to-peer discussion. This is an initiative to talk about adverse childhood experiences (ACEs), the biggest public health threat facing our nation’s youth and a major contributor to the stark rise in mental health challenges among young people. Session is designed for youth ages 14-24. Click below to register in advance for this meeting! After registering, you will receive a confirmation and Zoom link in your email. https://lnkd.in/gtQz7xRc *We are looking for youth leaders willing to help lead the ACEs youth movement! If you are interested, click on the email in my bio for more information! ❤️ #mentalhealth #adversechildhoodexperiences #youngpeoplematter #childrensmentalhealth #educationmatters #mentalhealthawareness #acesyouthmovement https://www.instagram.com/p/CdmL1wavqEy/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Who's with me? ❤ I need nervous system capacity now! I have a 12 year old child who needs all of me. I need me. 😞 This is one of the suggested intentions for recovery from Pete Walker's book, Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving Follow @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior for more trauma healing content and resources. For my Blog, YouTube Channel, and other Social Media, see the link in my bio. @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior Please follow my alt account @cptsdwarrior_pokingholes on instagram Don't forget to share and save this post for later. ✌❤ #cptsd #petewalker #intentionsforrecovery #intent #cptsdrecovery #selflove #traumahealing #traumarecovery #healingjourney https://www.instagram.com/p/CZ79ovuvg61/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Watch "New Career Path? Powerful Somatic/IFS Therapy Session" on YouTube

I finally quit the job I have been on medical leave from, but a part of me made me hold onto it this long even though I knew I never wanted to go back there.

We were able to uncover what that was about in a therapy session with my somatic/IFS therapist. It had to do with my dad this time.

For some reason I couldn't shake the feeling that if I do quit this job that I'm a quitter and a failure, even though I hate the job.

Side note: The very job itself goes against my morals. I was torn the whole time. I never realized how much of the job would be trying to force traumatized people like myself back to work and off government social assistance, but that was a big part of it. I can't do that anymore!!! Most of my clients are survivors of intergenerational trauma as a result of the colonization of Canada. I may make a video speaking more about this, but for now I need to see if I'm even legally aloud to speak about it.

I threw that limiting belief, of me being a quitter for quitting a job I hate, into the ocean and watched it sink until I couldn't see it any longer. Very powerful visual and experience.

***Also, I've got plans for a new career path that I will need to return to school for, and I'm excited about that!! Let me know what you think!! ☺️✌️❤️

If you're interested in hearing more please watch the video on my YouTube channel or my blog by clicking the link in my bio or on my story/highlights.

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😂 Follow @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior for more Reposted from @iamthirtyaf Credit: @popculturedmemes I share my healing journey from CPTSD on my YouTube channel and my blog. ✌❤🦋  ▶️ The link is in my bio to Subscribe to my YouTube channel or to Follow my Blog. @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior  #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #cptsdwarrior #cptsdsurvivor #complextrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #sharingmystory #myhealingjourney @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CYNEmM7lBW_/?utm_medium=tumblr

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This time of year is rough. ❤️ #emotionalflashbacks https://www.instagram.com/p/CXo-4KPPTvM/?utm_medium=tumblr

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You do not need to forgive your abusers in order to heal. If anybody tells you that you need to forgive in order to heal, you should get them out of your life because they do not have your best interests at heart. ✌️❤️ Follow @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior for more I share my healing journey from CPTSD on my YouTube channel and my blog. ✌❤🦋 ▶️ Link in bio to subscribe to my YouTube channel or follow my blog. @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior #cptsd #cptsdrecovery #cptsdwarrior #cptsdsurvivor #complextrauma #DevelopmentalTrauma #dissociation #depression #anxiety #socialanxiety #sharingmystory #myhealingjourney @pokingholes_cptsdwarrior https://www.instagram.com/p/CXjvOTbPCTc/?utm_medium=tumblr