no, you don't understand—i'm no one!

cole | he/him | 18+ ONLY | repulsive and incomprehensible vibes occasional art doer, film freak, general pervert

[itslillyillustrates]

made for @creep-at-the-vampire-mansion's ntbts zine ❤️🧼 digital zine link, pdf link

[holisticcomedian]

me when i'm the best scene of the entire webseries

[ilovemattjohnson]

This scene ALWAYS makes me cry so I’m twinning with Matt

[polybiiiuus]

this dumb little obscure 2000s webseries has no right being this emotionally impactful

[friendsofiction]

tgey call him Luca because he lucs a you with his Camera

[friendsofiction]

They call him Jared because that's his name

[friendsofiction]

what do they need all this footage for

[mattys-marbles]

sure matt! whatever you say matt!

[polybiiiuus]

holy fucking FUCK

[jewfrogs]

wretched 4th of july everyone may the american empire turn to dust in our lifetime

[polybiiiuus]

an evergreen sentiment

[okjaybird]

matt johnson in operation avalanche (2016)

[polybiiiuus]

matthew johnson in business attire and suspenders for an entire movie changed my life

[polybiiiuus]

HAPPY BELATED CANADA DAY TO THEM SPECIFICALLY

[kingofallgirls]

i love the jokes about Matt chaining Jay to his radiator and stuff but I wanna say, a core part of Matt is that he doesn't actually want to totally take away Jay's autonomy. like he could if he wanted, I believe in his ability to. but what Matt wants is to be chosen by Jay over and over in the same way he chooses Jay over and over. he'll do stuff to manipulate this decision obviously lol. and argue. The Buffet was entirely an exercise in getting Jay to realize how much he needs Matt. and he doesn't stop Jay from getting a job. he even relents and apologizes for his freakout. it's not about the job interview, it's about Jay confessing that Matt doesn't fulfill all his needs and that feels like being shot with a gun. he didn't stop Jay from going to a party, he just turned up and made Jay choose him again, even if Jay wasn't aware of it. Matt presented a choice between him and Kayla and wanted Jay to choose correctly, he didn't block the exits. Matt just needs to be chosen and so Jay needs the freedom to choose and this is the Matt torture nexus because even as Jay will always come around, he will keep Matt doubting for the rest of their lives. it's great, it's really great stuff. that's why there's no radiators in Jay's future and why I'm less into the characterization of Matt as being that brand of controlling

[rosssnd]

Matthew .

[polybiiiuus]

dare i say this is one of his sexiest looks

[polybiiiuus]

quick doodle of beautiful cherub boy

[fattjohnson]

MISERY PLAN! it's like Misery 1990 except they're both into it

[okaydadmp4]

i am gross and perverted

[yellohouse]

[polybiiiuus]

hooking onto his chest like a suckerfish to aquarium glass

[polybiiiuus]

Sat on my ass all day, jerked off, read the entirety of fight club in one sitting, gave myself my T shot, did a nirvanna the band the show the movie/the dirties double feature. I’m in transgender heaven. Everything is awesome. Never kill yourself

[nervousyoungrabbit]

[polybiiiuus]

finally started reading fight club the book and the VERY FIRST solid 15ish pages were full of so much phallic gun-in-mouth imagery that it was almost mindboggling to read. Wasting absolutely No time. i don’t even Have to stretch this to find homoerotic subtext and here i thought the movie was gay enough

[kinnoth-2]

Fucked up that in the fantasy version of themselves they made together, the one major part of their backstory they immediately changed was the age difference. Like what if we were never 16 and 14 or 14 and 12 or 2 and a baby, what if I never had to wait for you, what if you never felt like you had to catch up to me, what if we came into the world together at the same time and what if we knew what a soulmate was before we knew what the world calls men who choose each other?

What if we kept the childhood photos of ourselves propped up on every surface of the house we live in together, because I knew you at that age, and you knew me, and what a wonderful reminder it is to know that you've always been there