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just a little lover / angry and hollow / trying to fill back in with the warm and gentle colors of my heart / 34, trans, sapphic, married, disabled, schizoaffective, venezuelan

[poolofdevilspit]

found a cool pillow at a garage sale

[unteriors]

Sherry Street, San Antonio, Texas.

[birdbyt3]

a message to my fellow wonderful disabled/chronically ill butches and femmes: there is a place for us, we’ve always been here. you don’t have to follow the ‘big strong provider butch’ or ‘perfect put together femme’ archetype to belong, and you don’t have to explain yourself to anybody 🫶

[poolofdevilspit]

the traumatized lover can post some selfies as a treat

trying to act engaged and hopeful and like getting engagement on selfies will help me feel better doesnt feel very good or real but im trying to instill myself with some "fake it till you make it" energy

just.. trying to do my best. giving in to grief and despair makes me act like someone im not. it means to just lie down and wait. i need to resist how reasonable of an option that seems like to me. i need to.. stay me. giving up erases all that.

so here i still am. trying.

[mantits24-07-24]

one of my favorite lines from utena

[lamignonette]

[poolofdevilspit]

cw: discussing the longterm aftermath of a suicide attempt

if you drink a bunch of lye, years later (or maybe sooner) your teeth will literally start to break into pieces and it sucks at the beginning but unfortunately it keeps getting worse as it just keeps happening

ive lucked out on getting short wait times on these last two chips, hopefully getting this one fixed next tuesday 🦷🩹✨

anyways dont drink lye, it will just fuck you up really severely

[videogameoutofcontext]

[morganmackerel]

Let's nightcrawl with mama!

(another request, love these things)

[walk-up-songs]

[one single bloodcurdling agonized scream] ok time to lock in

[puppiesdoglover]

Be kind to every sort of puppy

[poolofdevilspit]

Haven't been posting too much of my work lately, sorry

I've been super busy becoming a homeowner with my wife and also dealing with realizing my new schizoaffective meds were making me ideate/very angry so now im unmedicated for awhile and that sucked hard especially during such a happy event

anyways here's three tiny HEMA tournament prizes in construction im making on commission

[rudebisco]

no thoughts head empty just 1 minute of egregia in a surge channel from last summer

video description: a tangle of egregia menziezii (feather boa kelp) fronds in a narrow intertidal channel, moving gently back and forth with the motion of the waves. the fronds are very long, and have small bladelets and floats coming off the centre axis. they strongly resemble golden-brown feather boas. there is no audio, only the sound of the wind and the waves

[poolofdevilspit]

I love this book

everytime i offer to make something for someone, this is the energy im trying to express

ive been reading this a lot lately to try and feel normal and less stranded in how i feel and think about the world and myself..

its like a warm hug from myself

i do not want to sell any milk

may life continue 💕

[poolofdevilspit]

shirt idea for fellow anti-assimilationist trans homies ONLY

[charliechapstix]

cheerleading is more important now than ever

[poolofdevilspit]

the transfeminine urge to replace yer insides with a fuel chute, forge pot and ash catcher so you can just eat charcoal and breathe ash