Positively 365

I have a choice in how I perceive and experience the world around me and what I take from it and what I give back. My goal for this blog is to share my journey in positivity while I continue to grow and explore the world around me.

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Georgie. #doglady #dogsonloan #nephew

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Saturday morning sports. #doglady #stoptryingtomakefetchhappen #agilitydog #athlete

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Guest poet. Friday night writes. #notapoet #smellslikeold #thisisneat (at Downtown Los Angeles)

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Whoever wrote this is me. It was nice to read that someone really truly understands me and that while I'm not unique, my experiences are real and my struggle is valid. I had never heard of HALT and it really resonates with me: H=Hungry A=Angry L=Lonely T=Tired I'm not addicted to anything, but I have been described by my therapist as someone who is going through "recovery" in much the same way an addict would go through a 12-step program. So it makes sense that HALT would be relevant. My weakest moments are when I'm hungry and/or lonely. Sometimes I'll start to feel myself sinking to a place where I can't stop my thoughts from spiraling. I'll be trying to talk myself down, telling myself I'm being too hard on myself and that I need to be more patient. Telling myself that I'm fine. And then I stop and think: "when is the last time you fed yourself?" And if the answer is that I suddenly realize I'm hungry, or should be hungry, I can often curb the spiral with a solid meal with protein, dairy, and some carbs. (The next question on my list is usually, when did you last shower, followed by a nice hot shower.) Typically a meal and a shower can steer me back in a safer emotional direction. Tired and lonely often come together in the sense that, like the author, it's hard for me to sit still and not be "going" until of course I get tired. Then I rest, and when I'm resting and not going, I'm not distracted from my thoughts, which gives me time to pause and count the ways in which I feel alone. Those feelings of "alone" when I'm tired, spiral into thoughts about how I'm worthless and my friends hate me and I have nothing. The best remedy for this is often a good cry, a phone call to a friend, or sleep (or any combination of those). At the very least, know that it's okay to feel this way and you're not alone, and your feelings are valid.

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Happy beach doggie 🐶 #doglady #rosiesdogbeach #sunsouttonguesout (at Rosie's Dog Beach)

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This brave girl GRADUATED Agility 1 today!!! 🐕👏🏻😁🍩 #prouddogmom #doglady #agilitydog #zoomroom (at Zoom Room Culver City)

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When you have a bad day, but you also have the most amazing support system, these show up. Sunny, just like your name, you always brighten my life. Love you immensely boo. p.s. This might be better than the time you had three different postmates deliver three different kinds of booze. Maybe. 😂😘💐 #goodperson #reallygoodperson #bitchesgetstuffdone

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Chapter I I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk I fall in. I am lost … I am helpless. It isn’t my fault. It takes forever to find a way out. Chapter II I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don’t see it. I fall in again. I can’t believe I am in the same place. But, it isn’t my fault. It still takes a long time to get out. Chapter III I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in … it’s a habit … but, my eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately. Chapter IV I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it. Chapter V I walk down another street.

There’s A Hole In My Sidewalk: Autobiography In Five Short Chapters

By Portia Nelson

This is one of my favorite poems about recovery. Recovery from anything.

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Chapter III. “I still fall in…. It is my fault.”

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Chapter IV. “I walk around it.

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Happy Mother's Day to the woman who has been selflessly supporting me for the last 30 years (even though somehow she's only 25😋). Everything I am and have accomplished is because of your unwavering love and support. So grateful to spend the day with you today. #mothersday #mom #motherdaughter #zeebas (at Piccolino Ristorante Pizzeria Bar)

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#lunchtimestroll #latergram #downtownlosangeles #mayantheater (at Mayan Downtown Los Angeles)

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Camp fire. #campfire #serenesaturday #austincreek #russianriver #smores (at Cazadero, California)

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Winery dogs. 🍷😍🐕 #dogsonloan #doglady #winerydogs #winetasting #porterbass #russianriver #wine #sonomacounty (at Porter-Bass Winery)

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Austin Creek, Cazadero #happybirthday Zoe #nature #serenesaturday #ducks🦆 (at Cazadero, California)

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Celebrating Transgender Day of Visibility!

We see you, we support you, and Planned Parenthood cares for you. Planned Parenthood is proud to provide care to transgender people and people at various places on the spectrum of gender identity and expression. 

We believe transgender equality is necessary for reproductive justice. 

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Savoring every last beautiful day in this place. #vallejosteps #baybridge #sfbayarea #sanfrancisco #lunchtimestroll (at Vallejo Steps)

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No caption necessary. #ladiesnight #bae#fauxfurfancy (at The Sycamore)

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This face. I can't even. 😂😍🐶 #tongueouttuesday #rescuedog #latergram #crazyeyes #loveofmylife