You told me you felt so small in my arms, and how I made you feel safe, and made you feel warm.
Itâs hard to explain how those compliments struck me, âcause the whole night before you just kept screaming âFuck me!â
So I tried to perform in the way you required, âtil I guess we passed out, âcause we were both high and tired.
At sunrise I thought I would run out for coffee, but you were still in that zone, and wouldnât get off me.
I thought I had found you. That needle in the haystack. That chocolate girl Iâd been wanting since way back,
when I first came to terms with my wants and my needs, and the exact type of beauty that buckled my knees.
You told me you didnât want to live life alone.
Then another niggas dick appeared on the screen of your phone.
My true living fantasy was quickly upended, and you couldnât understand why was actually offended!
But my dumb ass kept giving you uncovered wood, though I knew you wasnât shit, but that sex was so good.
I didnât have the nerve to even tell my brother that I was smashing a whoeâ and wasnât using no rubber.
A grown ass man, making dumb ass decisions, but what can you do when she rides with precision?
You figured me out, how to give what Iâd want. Buck naked on my king size, twisting a blunt.
It was a natural mystique, flowing through the air, as Iâd bury my face into your dreadlock hair,
and enjoy being inside you.
Willing to live out my whole life beside you.
Poetry canât describe you.
Pictures of your tits sent all over the world, yet youâd tell me you wanted to be my girl.
Blood curdling arguments when my temper would blast off.
Told my ex wife and she laughed her whole ass off.
But my ex ainât the type to let bad feelings linger.
She just said âYou know that girl got you wrapped around her finger.â
And that helped me break free, for better or worse.
Started spending my time with this Ethiopian nurse.
Felt good about myself again. Return of the Mack!
Tilâ you called my phone crying, and my ass went right back
to a life full of torment, and wrought disrespect.
I ainât never hit a woman, but almost reached for your neck.
Is there someone I can blame?
like a bad arrow from Cupid?
Or do I have to accept that I was just stuck on stupid?
There were quality women all over DC,
but I tried to tame a girl who who tried to destroy me.
A bunch of blood tests later, narrow escape
from some herpes or siphillis, or other blood taint.
A few years have passed. Iâve settled with a queen.
Sheâs intelligent, respectful, Caribbean,
I can add a whole miracle to the lessons Iâve learned.
I deep dived into fire, and didnât get burned.
By Positive Mark As I sit and read of struggles from the past, I wonder. What will we be when the pain is gone? The gaps between offenses is