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fuck my life.

being given up on right before you hit your stride will forever be the worst feeling.

so fucking unfair.

depressed.

tomorrow night comes to biggest decision of my life. 50/50.

2 days.

god i’m sad as shit

i needed you more than ever and i got nothing.

literally nothing.

might be the meanest coldest most heartless person i’ve ever met.

i have to disconnect.

i have to stop caring.

this is unbelievable.

down 12 pounds. 🫩

oh gees

no one really knows me. no one really cares to know me.

not like that. they see the irreparable damage and runaway.

i just needed to be loved. i just needed to feel good about who i am.

why in the world do i always think they love me as much as i love them. i don’t get it.

getting up and out of bed has become so much harder..

i don’t sleep

i don’t eat

perfect. i have a whole plan in place.

18 days.

leave no mess.

haven’t eaten since thursday night

i keep waking up. how incredibly frustrating.

i can feel it..