life analysis

26 Mom Have an E.D Hw:170lb Cw:148 Gw1:145 Gw2: 140 Gw3:130 Ugw: 126 Just fuckin out here trying. (I do nottttt fuckin support eating disorders. I just happen to suffer from one) Please be safe guys. 💕

[poweredbyramen]

I ate more than I wanted to yesterday, purged. And ended up still losing a lb overnight. Like bitch whattt? I'm in the 140s again finally. Going on a date TN with my boyfriend. Going to get sushi and miso soup so I guess it'll end up being my metab day. I'm just so happy I made it out of the 150s. Haven't done this good in so long dude. I do feel weak and shitty and dizzy all the time though. But it'll be worth it. 😭

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Ended up eating more than I planned today and ended up purging... I ate like half a bowl of food more than I wanted to. And couldn't just sit with myself. I feel skinny again and whatnot. Just wish I had used my brain and not eaten the food. At least I didn't binge or anything though. So that's a small win.

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So I was on these antibiotics because I had an infection last week. And I'm not sure if it was the antibiotics or the fact that I was sick... but I have had no appetite whatsoever lately. Which triggered my E.D very badly and now here I am againnnn. I'm pretty sure I've already lost weight. My pants feel loose on me now. Kinda motivated AF currently.

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A single molecule of THC touches my lungs and now my brain thinks it's recovered from the ED I've had for 4 yrs. Why am I like thissss? 🥲

[winxterisbackagain]

What’s the most disordered thing that’s ever happened to you or you’ve done?

For me it’s getting banned from MyFitnessPal

[poweredbyramen]

I think purging my one meal a day was like when I was at my worst. Also tracking the calories other people ate and being shocked and happy they were gonna gain weight. Also making other people food and adding butter and stuff that adds extra calories into it.

[silenceinthedark]

Things to do that prevent you from Binging

♡ brush your teeth ♡

♡ drink a lot of water and tea ♡

♡ go for a walk ♡

♡ paint your nails ♡

♡ take a long shower ♡

♡ read a book ♡

♡ watch a movie ♡

♡ tidy up your room ♡

♡ call a friend ♡

♡ do the laundry ♡

♡ go shopping ♡

♡ look at thin spo ♡

♡ make a vision board ♡

♡ workout ♡

♡ meet a friend ♡

♡ Do Homework ♡

♡ chew gum ♡

♡ remind yourself why you started ♡

♡ add clothes to your cart you wanna wear after reaching your GW ♡

♡ play games on your phone or switch ♡

♡ listen to a podcast or music ♡

♡ draw ♡

♡ play an instrument ♡

♡ learn a new language ♡

♡ journal ♡

♡ skincare ♡

♡ if you are still hungry, eat lot of veggies and protein ♡

♡ dm me. i always love to talk ♡

[emotionalshock]

Just finished the 1st chapter of LiS: True Colors... I'm not ok... i need square enix to pay for the therapy I'll obviously need after this

[poweredbyramen]

Having such a bad body image day guys. Not only do I feel like shit because I ate fast food earlier. It made me bloated and feel crappy. Chugging water all dayyy to make me feel better but I hate thissss. And the thing is I only ate like 700 cals, but it made me feel so sick.

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My boyfriend made burgers for dinner and bro, I can't bring myself to eat. So many calories. Plus I feel super fat cuz he didn't even eat yet and I'm not gonna eat before anyone else because my mind tells me that makes me greedy. 😭 Probably gonna distract myself with cleaning and try to avoid it.

[skinnyskinnysknniy]

Some of my fav rhymes

Coffee, smokes, cold diet cokes. That’s what pretty girls are made of.

A side of fries or skinny thighs

Chicken strips of potato fries make a girl twice her size

Skip dinner wake up thinner

A minute on the lips is a lifetime on the hips

Hungry to bed hungry to rise makes a girl a smaller size

Fridge pickers wear big knickers

[poweredbyramen]

Everyones bfs always worry about them not eating enough and make them eat more. But I swearrrr, my boyfriend is so oblivious to me barely eating.... I even make completely separate meals from the ones I make for him because his are too high in calories, and it goes right over his head. Plus I only eat once a day now, while I'm feeding him multiple meals and he still is just is so unaware.. I'm glad, don't get me wrong. I just am worried once I lose like 10 more lbs he's gonna get concerned. I've already lost like 15 🥴

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Everyday I've been eating in a pretty large calorie deficit and drinking a ton of water and somehow I still feel like I'm not doing enough. 😭 probably just my period is coming and it's slowing down my progress. Sucks though. I have a goal I wanna make by valentines day.

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I made it into the 140s but I still feel so fucking fatttt. 😭 I have like 8-10 more lbs to lose before valentines day.

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Ughhh. I'm having a gut feeling my bf is cheating on me again. It's stressing me tf out so much. He's being super secretive with his phone lately and being weird about it. Whenever I get this feeling I find something. I hate it here. Guess my mental health is gonna spiral more. 😴

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Starting the IU diet today and doing it for 4 days. 🥴 (I only have 4 apples) My boyfriend wants me to make chicken tacos tonight for him so this is def gonna be an exercise of willpower...

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Guys. I ate a bowl of soup and a salad and I feel so uncomfortably full. Like wth. 😭

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Since I've lost weight my boyfriend has been super attracted to me and wants to have sex all the time. I feel like it's all he can think about. Though it's literally making me so uncomfortable 😭😓 anyone else dealt with this???