spring cleaning and christmas music.
I was doing okay. I started cleaning to make myself feel better. then I saw the Christmas mixtape you gave me. you sent it to me the first Christmas we knew each other. I swore to you I’d only listen to it during the Christmas season because you said that that is the only acceptable time to listen to holiday music. I don’t even like Christmas.
So I’m cleaning and I’m going through an old box and I find this CD. I knew exactly what it was when I saw it. I picked up and turned it over in my hands. you had wrapped it in a piece of paper that had “#xmas” written in pink ink, and there was something written underneath it but you crossed it out. then I opened it and you had scrawled “a Muslim is giving you Christmas music” across the top in smudged sharpie. After staring at it for a few minutes I set it aside and continued cleaning. I wasn’t gonna go there.
I finished organizing everything and go to sit on my bed. the CD was still laying there. I snatched it and grabbed my computer and downloaded the music onto my computer. I listened to every song. I didn’t know who sang some of them so I looked them up, and smiled every time I remembered something about us and a particular song. Some of the artists singing were ones I used to tease you about, others were ones that you hated but I loved.
I wanted to text you about finding it.
I like to think that when you sent this tape it was before you used me.
dededos
areudirty
vaporwave
romaincrisis
titsay
germansingergirl
snowghoul
blakekathryn
