Dairy Gothmother

18+ NSFW 40-something professional moocow and force of nature, enjoying orgasm denial, from both sides. Frequently at the same time. Cumming is good, but not cumming is better! Sit on my Throne! Because I ought to know better but I like people buying me things. https://throne.com/praiusu/wishlist

[praiusultsch]

Mucky Mommy Moomoo Posts.

These will probably tell you enough about me for you to decide if you're going to keep scrolling or move on to someone younger and prettier. If you do that though, please tell me so I know someone else is getting the attention I'm missing out on.

My recent reduction

Mucky moocow's stoned anal adventure.

My Berlin Adventures

An intro to the Berlin stories

Berlin Adventure Part 1

Berlin Adventure Part 2

Ecstatic Berlin Part 1

Denial is the Gateway Drug of Kink

A study into the effect years of orgasm denial has had on me.

The revised 2025 post. With added moo.

The original post from 2021

Ecstatic Sunday

A two-part study on the effects of Ecstasy / MDMA on a denial slut.

Sunday the first. And greatest.

Sunday the second. Different but wonderful.

My writings

A collection of my writings going back years can be found on Thefetlibrary.com. If you ever wanted to know what my first kinky relationship was like or how I nearly flew to the USA to give myself away, or how a girl in Seattle discovered her love of omorashi and many other tales, they are all there. And all the characters are real people. Every one of them. Friends, lovers, enablers. Some, but not all, names changed to protect the guilty.

[praiusultsch]

Been drinking wine in the sun all afternoon and just had lovely Thai food.

If someone could just gently edge me with their fingers or mouth while I slip from a stupor into full in consciousness that would be great.

I'll reciprocate in the morning 😘

[miadollcult]

i just want to worship a cock with my wet little mouth kissing licking and drooling all over it

[praiusultsch]

I've devoted several hours today to writing about cock sucking.

[denialdarling]

Hello from the land of denial

It's been so long I figured y'all were due a new post from yours truly. It's been 1721 days of denial as of today. That's crazy to think about right? I'm so proud of the whore that I've become in those thousand plus days. Kinks I wasn't really sure about are my new bread and butter and kinks I was scared about are ones I edge to. I'm currently trying to work my way down from edging every day. I don't even do it for the want of an orgasm either. That left me around day 500. Truly now I just edge because I know it's good to keep me needy and soaking. It makes having 2 panty drawers well worth it because of how often I switch them. But I'm really proud of that. I've moved into my own apartment with 0 roommates so I've been looking at fuck machines to help while I wait for play partners to be free to use me. This is an 18+ blog following what I'm interested in and what I think is hot to edge myself too. Firmly at the bottom of any ranking of sluts who's happy to get others off and help clean them up after. Denial helped me find and accept my sexuality and now I'm so happy to worship any the feet of anyone who lets me. Happy denial everyone!

[praiusultsch]

What a lovely thing to read.

Happy denial @denialdarling 🖤

[praiusultsch]

When was the first time you masturbated

I literally cannot remember.

I think I first read about it in 'Just 17', a UK magazine that nobody who was actually 17 would ever read.

I was probably 13 or 14.

[stupidlottie]

have you been sufficiently conditioned yet so that when hubby surprises you with a genuine compliment about your worth/abilities/competence that your immediate instinct is to deny it and affirm that your entire limited worth is as a worn out fuck doll?

Nope. My Dad frequently talks about how clever and funny and capable I am and I agree with him every time ☺️

[praiusultsch]

Submitting to someone, no matter how kinky and 24/7 your relationship should never, ever reduce your self worth. There is another word for that.

I'll lick up my own piss from the floor while mooing for the right person but I'm still going in to the office the next day knowing I'm the smartest person there. I am sadly not very funny but I make up for it by scaring people into agreement.

Fuck the patriarchy. If you actively believe in that shit you're automatically inferior to the rest of us.

If it's your kink, fair enough, but it can't be a belief system.

[cranky-witch]

Father, Son, Holy Spirit this.

Mother, Maiden, Crone that.

Lorde, Sabrina Carpenter, Chappell Roan is the real holy trinity

[praiusultsch]

Patti Smith, Shirley Manson, Skin.

Goddess ladies wot rock, Keep it going!

[lustingnerdydoll]

Working with my vibrating plug in

It’s making me soo needy

This is a bad idea

I’ll get no relief or use tonight. As I’m pet sitting by my lonesome

I should turn off the plug stop scrolling tumblr get off bdsmlr Stop being needy

But I won’t. I’m making it worse and I’ll suffer tonight by myself plugged and clamped

[praiusultsch]

We love making it worse.

[praiusultsch]

What do you wear to bed?

A pair of quite unsexy briefs usually.

A tshirt if it's very cold.

[praiusultsch]

Have you ever tasted yourself? [If no, would you?] [If yes, what did you think?]

Err, where have you been these last several years?

I *love* tasting myself. I do it every time I masturbate.

I didn't, till denial. But denial does things.

[praiusultsch]

Favourite body part on the opposite sex?

Arms.

Mainly on guitarists.

[praiusultsch]

Have you ever been caught masturbating?

I have had several near misses and some awful moments in front of family where I have had to person, still shaking and probably dripping and stinking.

But I did get caught, when I was 15, by my mother, giving a boy a blow job in my living room.

We were on the sofa, I was butt naked, arse pointing towards the door, his cock in my mouth when my mum walked in unexpectedly, home from work early.

I nearly bit his cock off.

He left in a hurry.

My mum? I remember every fucking word.

Well, I'd rather you were doing that than having sex. But darling, don't do it unless you enjoy it, men need to earn favours like that.

And nearly 40 years later, I'd still rather be sucking cock than having sex. I'd not considered this before.

[freakangelcake]

I said no, Tubby. And for asking again, you just lost the pillow.

[collegecuckcakev3]

mmmmm yes

[praiusultsch]

50+ actually.

[myescape-mydesires]

Orgasm denial

Today marks two weeks since I've cum. Two weeks since my body clenched and released for him. Two weeks of wanting, needing, aching. My cunt stays wet, with desperation.

This denial isn't abuse. It's his pleasure. He hears me squirm, hears my whimper, feels my body tremble. Every drop of my wetness belongs to him. Every frustrated tear, every moan caught in my throat when I edge, his. He owns my orgasms. He owns me.

Yesterday was my hardest day. I struggled. My body ached, hollow and hungry. I begged him, I was totally unreasonable and even bratty and he said no, with kindness and understanding.

Today I woke up with acceptance. He decides when I cum. Not me. His choice. And that knowledge settles deep in my bones, warm and heavy. This is freedom. I don't have to carry the weight of wanting, the pressure of performance. I just surrender.

Orgasm denial strips me bare. Makes me beautiful in my vulnerability. I feel free, free from my own greedy hands, free from chasing a high that fades. Instead I live in this constant state of him. Every breath is for him. Every wet, desperate pulse between my thighs reminds me who I belong to.

There will be days I struggle again. Days my body rebels and my mind wails. That's okay. When Daddy holds me, whispers how proud he is, tells me I'm his good girl, I feel adored. His pride fills me where my own emptiness lives.

He tells me when to edge and for how long. Sometimes the timing feels unreasonable, thirty seconds every three hours or edging for three minutes, it can and is torturous but who am I to question him? He knows best. He makes the rules. I follow them. Every second of that edge, teetering on the brink, I think of him. His voice. His hand. His pleasure.

This denial makes me crave him more. My body remembers the last time he let me cum. My cunt clenches around nothing, searching for him. I'm a mess sometimes, wandering the house or work with wet thighs, wet panties, biting my lip until it bleeds, and that's okay.

I'm his pathetic mess. His beautiful, denied, aching filthy mess. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

[restraineddenial2]

Wonderful description of denial.

[praiusultsch]

This is rather lovely.

I deny myself because I am better denied, but I do it to myself because because I don't have sufficient freedom (irony) nor anybody sufficiently close or trustworthy who is willing to manage me the way a denied girl needs to be managed. But denial done right between a couple can be a beautiful thing. There's a handful of people I know on Tumblr or Fetlife who have these beautiful arrangements and I never tire of reading about them 💗

[anatasiasub]

Game night

Setup- I am tied to the chair, hands free but cuffed together, tits tied. Ass plugged.

Master picks a game. If he wins, he gets to pick the next game and I have to keep everything on and he can add something (i.e. nipple clamps, more rope, dildo in my cunt, bugger butt plug, tiger balm). If I win, I get to pick the game and I get to take off one thing of my choice.

Thoughts?

[praiusultsch]

I like this game.

[dreamofgalaxies]

In the mood for a slightly giggly drunk makeout sesh on my lap, firm yet soft grasps on each other pulling each other in deeper for more. I need desperate grinding of hips like nowww.

[praiusultsch]

*sigh*

[closetquean]

License to Cuck

I actually found this text in an old erotic book, The Stag Party (1888). 

[cqhubby-deactivated20230331]

🎵 I’ve got a license to cuck, and you know I’m going straight for her cunt

[praiusultsch]

Showing my age, but I've got Gladys Knight in my head now.

And fingers in my knickers because husband has just fucked off to bed and I'm mid glass of wine.