a preacher's ill daughter

A Christian girl who lives for melancholia, religious themes and loves to contemplate with the power of poems while loving Jesus.

[preachersilldaughter]

off

You seem offly quiet, am I still what you waited for?

[preachersilldaughter]

I’ve truly forgiven you, Sam💋

[preachersilldaughter]

stay young and fierce

I bathe myself

with the fire

that burns through a shelf

you use to hide

the liquor and

art of sinning –

you thought it

was cute to lie

and that I was

nothing but

weak, pink

and a soft feather

[preachersilldaughter]

do you enjoy my flesh?

[preachersilldaughter]

stepping

I love you more when I step and fall,

but then I remember you’re my all.

[preachersilldaughter]

To Come Home

I swear it feels a long

very rough time

to wait for You,

to force me to שׁוּב You

But I’m running

out of time,

dime and lime

in my lush life

[preachersilldaughter]

have mercy

O God, there’s been

many strange intruders in

my silver temple –

I’m ruined and

wrong for You –

cannot drink

without a pouch,

live without a touch

[preachersilldaughter]

If Only I Had Known

If only I had known how it’d end up I wouldn’t be here Wiser to buy a gun and earn my death than suffer here – knowing his looks and his ways, but never being in his bed with roses – just to be used by him

[preachersilldaughter]

He Colored Me In The Shades Of Blue

I don't want to fall again for you

You did me dirty and so blue

And it hurts bad because I knew

we'd never be a thing, still I let

you see into me,

neon colors are lost on you

[preachersilldaughter]

He’s My Mind

I saw him in his sky-colored shirt –

our eyes met for sure

and he looked too pretty

I could’ve chewed him up right away,

take his words as mine

[preachersilldaughter]

like a dog

kiss me under

a radiating light

under some green pool –

I want you to

drool

[preachersilldaughter]

a narcissit and naïve

You have that taste for beer,

after a bar night I'll end up sheer

This isn't a life I planned all and all,

you only made me puke and crawl

Why are you a narcissist with long hair?

I won't be again naked in your show, I swear

[preachersilldaughter]

All Gone

Cherries growing in May Banisters are brightening But I did wait for you though you left the town with all your nasty ways

[preachersilldaughter]

Colder

Sam, your hand is cold,

mine burns like fire -

how blind are you?

I am not yours to play,

but I don't know how to leave

[preachersilldaughter]

melancholia

Behind the vulgar behavior, I’m just a daydreamer filled with melancholy

[preachersilldaughter]

i swear it feels good

I do know he's lost

in hate and rerget but it

feels like a little piece

of heaven when he

strangles me in a bed

[preachersilldaughter]

heaven to catch

He burned all our sins

into ashes in the fireplace

And then we said out loud we'd

never get in heaven