I really wish I could have gotten you something bigger, or at the very least shinier. You deserved like a pretty pair of earrings or a necklace or something. I guess you've got your boyfriend to do the jewelry thing for you, but still, I wanted it to be more, you know? You deserved more, after everything you've put up with when it comes to me, with everything you for some unknown reason continue to put up with for me. I love you for it, for everything, so despite you telling me I shouldn't get you anything, I did anyway. But you'll probably be happy to realize that it's really not much at all.
I couldn't very well wrap it, that would be dumb, but if you check in your freezer there's a pint of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream in there for you, since it's what we had that first night we hung out and I talked your ear off about stupid head trauma stuff. (Wow, why are you still my friend again?)
The other part, I guess I just- I don't know. I don't know if it always works the same way with art stuff, but I know that when I'm really having a hard time coming up with writing inspiration, music helps, and a kind of serene environment. So there's this CD, and it's Beethoven, so it's obviously the good stuff, but it's got a track of background ocean waves beneath every song. Maybe it'll help you be inspired, or maybe it'll help you think of home, since I know San Diego's pretty beach-y. Or then, you know, beaches are relaxing for a lot people, so maybe it'll just be a way to calm down after a long day, or if something happens and for some reason I'm off being stupid and not being there to take care of you when you need it, you'll have it then, too. (But let's hope I'm never that stupid.) I just wanted to give you a little piece of serenity, I guess. You're kinda mine, or a big contributing factor to it in a way a lot of the time, so I had to try something.
You're always telling me to stay strong and to follow my dreams, and I wish I could have done something for you that was as great and conducive to yours as what you did for me, but I'll make it up to you someday, I promise. Thank you for everything. I love you, pretty girl, and if I could give you a hell of a lot more than just this, I would, believe me.