WhereI(i) have been whereI(i) am WhereI(i) will go

I(i) think I(i) just need this.

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

Virgin slut shamed

Never been slut shamed before even if it was a 'joke' didn't think it was. I felt judged for doing what they all had already done the difference being my gender. I kissed two guyd separate weeks from the same friendship group it was all good cause they shared but, I didn't ask permission? So I was making my rounds but just a joke ha ha ha thanks.

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

one day I will learn to love me

one day not today

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

I revel in the chaos

but when the chaos is gone

and there is only silence

I mourn the loss of my spirit

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

what is the point of being heard if they do not listen

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

I cry out

Please! Listen!

but they walk on into their destruction 

not heeding the warning 

of my cries

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

He was in love with her and I was in love with no one, I tried to tell him so many times but they never listen do they? But I admire him for it and also despise him, he won’t let go of the girl he can’t have and she would never want to be held on by him.

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

I’ve been trying to teach myself to unlearn all of these things about love and relationships that have been taught to us all for our entire lives. Maybe there isn’t someone out there for everybody, or maybe there is but the likelihood of actually finding them is so small. Maybe most people end up settling, and maybe that’s why the divorce rate is so high. Maybe being alone is actually better than settling for something that is kind of, sort of love, and passionate only sometimes. Maybe I just don’t want to put my heart through the ringer trying to date people in hopes that I might eventually find that magical unicorn of a perfect match, so that I can end up married someday (which is something I don’t even know if I want and can’t even envision). Besides, why should marriage be my end goal if even that doesn’t offer any guarantees? Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t believe in love. I’m just not naïve enough to think that I am automatically entitled to a modern day fairytale. I would rather be alone than settle for something that doesn’t set my soul on fire, and I do not want to exhaust my energy searching for something like that in a dating world that is so devoid of emotional attachment and honesty.

https://thoughtcatalog.com/bryanna-fraser/2015/09/maybe-its-okay-to-end-up-alone-after-all/2/

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

when will my tears be enough

when will my blood be enough

when will i be enough 

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

[pretendingnottofeelalonetonight]

I cant tell people I think about it because well its almost like im doing something horrible to them how could I... how could I do something so mean to cause someone pain that they otherwise could avoid even if it means the death of my soul.

[toxic-bad-blood]

Poem.

[makingflippyfloppy]

The Blooming of Madness

“…love only love, could heal…”

[pumpkinbunn]

[soulfulsupernova]

There was a reason that she was so romantic about the moon. It never asked her questions or begged for the answers nor did she have to prove herself to it. It was just there - breathing, shining, and in most ways humans can’t understand: listening.

Christopher Pointdexter (via soulfulsupernova)

[fen-ryr]

[yourdarkrose]