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“Fate doesn’t come to you anytime. At the very least, if you want to use the term fate, it should happen, often at the most dramatic moments brought by coincidence. That’s what makes it fate. That’s why another term for fate is timing.

If I have not been caught of any of those dramatic traffic lights, if any of those red lights had helped me, even once… I could be standing in front of her, as if it was fate.“ -JungHwan (Reply1988 Episode 19)

It’s been so long. I can’t really hear you and I don’t really know what i feel towards this rs.

So many times you blessed me, so many times you kept me safe:

Starbucks egg white wrap was nice.

Application for a new career went so smooth.

Cleared medicals aft being suspected of being unfit.

Found willing surety.

Woke up at 8.30am on a Saturday, kept my job.

FON

Went home late at night, prayed for the lift to not close on me, I safely arrived home.

You are every where, you care n u never “took a break” from caring, from this rs. You always care n u always will, you will always be there.

What’s my response? Am i ready? Do i need a break? Do i want to commit? Am I interested? Am I tired? Am i too caught up with my wants? Do i still want this rs to work??

Help me. Nudge me. Speak to me. Guide me. I hope I choose you. I hope I choose the “hard way”. I hope I choose freedom. Maybe i just need a break?

Please guide & love me, don’t give up on me.

30/12/19

God, i just wanna kno who u r, plz jus show me n let me kno u from the truth n throughly.

I was unemployed from 3rd aug - 14th aug. For twelve days. I took a break, i had a breather. I enjoyed my break. I needed moolah, i gt a job. I was only unemployed for 12 days n i gt a job at tuas, i did my work thinking do well for the Lord n hmm guess i may have been offered to work longer. Thank u so much papa, hs n Jesus ♥️

#16Aug2018

Spent Ndp 2018, SG’s 53th Birthday with da LG. So fun to b playing overcooked with this gal, i genuinely laughed hahaha ~ One of my lg ldrs reminded me of the kl trip we had last year. They told me that they realise I wasn’t eating much and they suddenly realised “oh yurong dun like chinese food”. Aft that incident, they kept halping to make sure that they find sth western for me in every meal. ^I didn’t want to be a burden n mafan by being like ouh i dun eat chinese food you all shd accommodate me or feel me or understand that i dun like chinese food. N i told them that it’s okay and the current food was good, but they chose to make extra effort. Really thankful i peel lub. I shd appreciate my lg for the little things tht they do for one another. 👀

#10 aug 2018

Lord you are with me every single step of the day. You are with me on my last day of work. You are with me on my last day of school. You are with me every single minute at work or in school. You know how i feel u kno my struggles you know my hart. You are with me when I did my assignments. You are with me when I discovered good foods. You are with me when I discovered kebab. You are with me when I discovered cook salmon that melts in my mouth. It’s sooo delicious 😋 Thank you for letting the creation of these delicacies happen. You are also with me now that I am sick. God, thank you for bringing me through, for watching me and caring about my life, thoughts,needs and wants all the time, every single day. There is no coincidence in your provision. There is no convenience in the way that you love. You love because of who you are, not because of who i am or what i can do or what I’ve done. Keep speaking to me n let me kno you more! Amen!!! 💜

#6Aug2018

“All i want is to live within your love, be undone by who u are. My desire is to know you deeper”

God let me tell u the truth, i have no passion for kids nor teaching, only obligation. What is my passion? What gifts do i have? What should i do? Tell me Father, desperate for your answer.

Do u still want me to wait? I know that u r working things out. Huni God save me halp me bring me out of despair. I really really need u and I really really wanna lean on u. I’m so excited to know u more to know u deeper and kno u better and I’m excited for your promises and I’m excited to do ur will, I believe it will be sth that i will like and find joy in. I know you won’t force me to develop feelings or passion for sth that i feel neutral abt. God u made me, u kno me full well. Amen!

26 july 2018

I need to stay strong n b strong, i kno that u r here with me through every step. You will sustain me until i leave this place for good.

What is your calling for me?

No God, i don’t like what I’m doing and I don’t know what I’m doing, please take me away n open opportunities. Please God, let me get out n tell me what is your will? What is your goal for me? What’s my purpose? I don’t wanna do this anymore, take me away.

26 July 2018