Main-verse Headcanon: Depression & The Well
Just going to come out and say it: Kagome suffers from depression.
She was very, very much in love with Inuyasha when she was returned to her era after the battle with Naraku was over and when she couldn't get back to him, it devastated her. Upon her return home, she refused to even leave the well for nearly a day and a half. After that, she spent hours at a time sitting at the bottom, waiting for it to open up to her again. It took her a good year before she stopped, and at that point she refused to go anywhere near the well house. She devoted her time to her studies, burying herself in her academics as a distraction until eventually she didn't need a distraction anymore.
Before the well opened up again, she thought she'd gotten herself to one whole piece again. She was graduating, had a life plan and was going to live happily as a normal, modern-day girl. She had accepted that she'd never see Inuyasha again, despite how much she wanted to. However, wanting to was her mistake.
The well re-opened and she felt all those feelings flood her again. Without hesitation, she made her choice to return, fully supported by her family even though they all knew it would likely be the last time they'd see each other, and leaped down the well.
She didn't know what she'd been expecting, but the hanyou moving on with Kikyo hadn't been it. Some part of her had hoped that he'd wait for her, and she felt ashamed of that. It was impossible to expect someone to wait for someone who might never return. She didn't blame him.
She blamed herself, though. Again, she dove into distractions, getting right into Kaede's teachings so that she could become a properly trained priestess. This time, however, her distractions weren't quite as distracting. With Miroku and Sango focusing on their family, Inuyasha and Kikyo focusing on theirs, Shippo off training and Kaede very much close to the end of her time, it leaves Kagome feeling very alone without even her mother to help her through it this time. Rin's presence in the village and caring for her often are one of her only comforts.
When she can't put on a strong front, Kagome often finds herself sitting at the bottom of the well, hoping that it will open one more time to go back home and knowing that it won't. She finds it both discomforting and comforting at the same time, feeling that, along with the Goshinboku, it's the place that is most connected to her family even if she can't get to them.
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