little happy, little sad

jack | 28

[princepetrichorr]

Howdy, if you're here to follow me back, you can do so at @petrichorcrown. Unfortunately I can't change that one to my primary blog

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Thought I might as well post something to this blog this year after clearing out some old shit

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Some cats in my life as of late.

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I wish it wasn't so hard for me to do basic shit like going to work. Every night is just filled with intense nightmares that never let me rest.

When I wake up, the first thing I feel is dread. When I go to work, I'm so tense you'd think I had a gun to my head. Whenever I work from home, I feel like a piece of shit who's just faking it, even though I'm sat there stressed and shaking. It's just how my brain works, it's stupid.

Even when I get off work to 'relax' I feel like I'm not good enough, that my art is awful and I'm not doing enough

I'm just tired

[the-search]

“I can make the things that I love die. Ruin everything that’s kept me alive. Push away the people who stood by my side. They ask me why I do it - I don’t know why.”

— nothing, nowhere.

[siickangel]

nothing, nowhere. // dread

[xerenata]

Trophy Eyes//Home Is

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2018

This year I:

- got diagnosed/medicated

- got published in my first zines

- hit my 1 year anniversary at my job

- learned how to paint

- learned how to knit

- got my first tattoos

- hit 2k

- found a haircut that suits me

- framed my art professionally for the first time

- cosplayed socially

- travelled with friends

- kicked self harm

- joined a gym

- kicked all toxic people from my life

- went to see Bohemian Rhapsody with a friend who's name is in the credits

- kept tarantulas for the first time

- learned more Japanese

- discovered my love for true crime

- Probably a ton more I can't remember, it's 2am

[princepetrichorr]

An artist’s duty, as far as I’m concerned, is to reflect the times. I think that is true of painters, sculptors, poets, musicians. As far as I’m concerned, it’s their choice, but I CHOOSE to reflect the times and situations in which I find myself. That, to me, is my duty. And at this crucial time in our lives, when everything is so desperate, when everyday is a matter of survival, I don’t think you can help but be involved. Young people, black and white, know this. That’s why they’re so involved in politics. We will shape and mold this country or it will not be molded and shaped at all anymore. So I don’t think you have a choice. How can you be an artist and NOT reflect the times? That to me is the definition of an artist.

Nina Simone

[kristensnotebook]

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Bad things have happened but I'm medicated now

[wordsnquotes]

“I was born with an enormous need for affection and a terrible need to give it.”

— Audrey Hepburn

[wordsnquotes]

“Be yourself. The world worships the original.”

—

Ingrid Bergman | @wordsnquotes

Read more at: wordsnquotes.net

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“Love isn’t soft, like those poets say. Love has teeth which bite and the wounds never close.”

— Stephen King,  The Body. (via wordsnquotes)

[poemswords]

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“Maybe our favorite quotations say more about us than about the stories and people we’re quoting.”

— John Green