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[forgottensuggestion]

all i’ve ever wanted was to belong somewhere, with someone. i thought i had finally found it, the feeling of being a valued part of something, but once more i was wrong. i’m so pathetic. why am i never good enough? who even am i?

[forgottensuggestion]

I don’t wanna be alone anyone

[forgottensuggestion]

You told me that you love me and that you would always be here for me. And I believed you. How could I not with your bright smile and earnest eyes. You made me feel wanted, and special. And then you told me that you need space from me and you roll your eyes at me at everything I say and do and you yell at me and you make me feel awful. And I still love you, I care about what you think about me and I want you to love me back.

[forgottensuggestion]

The more I contemplate whether or not I might love you, the more I realize that even if I did, I could never be with you anyhow. You’d never want to be. So it doesn’t matter whether or not you love me. It matters whether or not I can rid myself of this contemplation…

[forgottensuggestion]

suddenly, before I knew it, my life started over

[forgottensuggestion]

i’m nervous to have hope again

[princereginald]

i wish that car fucking hit me last night

[princereginald]

oooouuuggghhh brain diagnosed with love love love by of monsters and men again

[asideofbpd]

i don’t have the healthiest coping methods but i haven’t killed myself yet so where’s my fucking medal

[8nq-deactivated20161103]

[soundslikebpd-deactivated201711]

I feel robbed of my life

[book-caps]

[so-uncaring]

🥀

[bpder]

someone: i’ll never leave u!

me, after having been told this several times and then inevitably abandoned in the past: 😍 omg really????? 💖💖💖💕💕💕💗💗💗✨✨✨✨💖💖💖💕💕💕💗💗💗✨✨✨✨💖💖💖💕💕💕💗💗💗✨✨✨✨💖💖💖💕💕💕💗💗💗✨✨✨✨

[forgottensuggestion]

There’s so much spite within me but I don’t want to act on that. I know I’d just regret it later, I’m just… glum, I guess.

[bpdminds]

Cycle of my emotions

[deepfeelsx]

😞

[tankaramo]

me: *has a breakdown over smth stupid* me @ me: