Reminiscing.... Mr. O
Thinking about all you did to hurt me should have been a sign, I realize that now and it's made me much stronger. It's made me appreciate all the things I've accomplished without you. It's made me open my heart to endless possibilities of what life has to offer. I've started to put myself out there and he made me realize that I need to love myself instead of putting all these rules and restrictions on myself and others. I'm learning that my soul has connected with this person and yet I'm terrified to jump head on because I think of you and how you treated me. He's showed me it's okay to think with my heart and not with my brain. When you kept telling me think with your brain, that's your problem you think to much with your heart. Thinking with my brain caused me to not see the signs of how toxic you were in my life. Overall, losing Mr. O was the best thing that could have happened to me. I'm a work in progress and there isn't a day that goes by that I sit and think, but I love him to death. Correction. I loved him to death. But, I only loved the thought of who he had the potential to be. My best friend told me, you can't make a home out of human beings. And you breaking my heart caused me to realize I tried to make a home out of you. It's only been five weeks since you walked out of my life and a lot has happened since. I've gotten sick again. But, this time I'm going through it alone and it will make me stronger when I get through it this time.
