motherfuckin princess

[princesspenpen]

continued from this. @dirtydeville​

she has no idea why she said that. she had to be drunk, high, or something for letting something so stupid slip from her lips. and his reaction was enough for her to know it really didn’t matter if she was that stupid because he was not where she was. she couldn’t even believe she was where she was but boom.....it was what it was. she even opened up to him! tried to be more honest and all of a sudden she was talking stupid? penelope was a lot of things but she refused to call herself stupid. “i gotta go,” she said suddenly, grabbing blindly for her things. “i’m totally drunk. sorry. pre-gamed before i got here. gonna walk home.”

[princesspenpen]

Do you think Phil's sister likes you?

“everyone likes me.”

[princesspenpen]

any regrets on the sex tape?

“i regret not starting an onlyfans after. but i have one now, link is in bio, you know the drill.”

[princesspenpen]

dirtydeville​:

at the confession, phil stopped in his tracks and turns to face her. he wasn’t sure what exactly he had expected her answer to be but it…. certainly wasn’t that. not even close to it. maybe he thought penelope would admit that her parents were a little strict or something along those lines - not that she had run away from home. “oh… kay,” he says, drawing the word out in his confusion. there are a million questions running through his head, but doesn’t know which are the right ones to ask. so he settles for he simplest one. “what’s your real name then?”

she laughed, awkward and out of place with the situation. she knew she had just confessed to a lot of lies but for some reason she still didn’t think he would ask for the truth-truth. “ummmm......lilaca.......ha?” she felt weird saying it. it was a name she hadn’t even thought about in a while. “totally lame. does not fit me at all. you can honestly forget it if you want. like wow i’m forgetting it right now. crazy.”

[princesspenpen]

continued from this. @dirtydeville​

penelope was a little taken aback by phil’s persistence. she knew she said she would be more open with him but she also wasn’t ready to be honest with anyone. the lie was on her lips, ready to spill out, but she stopped herself. “phil i....” she couldn’t do this. she couldn’t be this raw and honest; it wasn’t who she is. “.....there’s a lot you don’t know about me. but i guess the place to start is....” she felt like she was going to vomit. “my home....i kind of....it’s not like my real home. it’s like a temporary home. that i’m borrowing. from an old friend....in rehab.” she bit her lip. “i...i sort of ran away from home? and changed my name? well my first name. which doesn’t really sound so smart now that i’m saying it.....but..yeah can’t take you home.”

[princesspenpen]

dirtydeville​:

For a beat or two it’s silent and Phil is just about to call it quits and walk away when she finally speaks. It’s quiet and if he hadn’t been paying such close attention to her he would have missed it completely. His shoulder tense up as he prepares for another fight, despite the fact that right now she seems calm enough - Phil knows her well enough to be fully aware that that could change any second. “I…” he trails off after the one word, unsure what exactly he should say right now. “I’m sorry?” That’s a good start, right? Guys are supposed to apologize in fights, aren’t they? “I don’t like not seeing you, either.”

Pen shook her head at him. “No. Don’t be. It’s...not completely your fault.” That was the closest she has ever gotten to taking the fall for anything. “We don’t have to stop...seeing each other. We could...move on from it.If you want to.” He probably didn’t. She would understand. And then maybe set fire to his car. But she would totally understand. “Like this is super big of me I don’t normally give people second chances....so like.....your move.”

[princesspenpen]

a peek at penelope’s instagram. 

ft. @glittcrpines & @dirtydeville

[princesspenpen]

dirtydeville​:

Even though he doesn’t fully believe her, Phil takes the answer at face value. Much like he does with anything and everything Penelope tells him. Partially because it was just easy to do so, but also because he knew that if she really wanted to tell him the truth then she would. Or at least, he used to think that was the case. Ever since their fight at Pride he wasn’t so certain anymore. But right now, standing outside the grocery store for anyone to see, wasn’t really the time to get into it. “Okay. Sorry,” he apologizes, even though he’s not entire sure what he’s apologizing for - he just knows it’s usually the right thing to say when someone’s upset at you. He should probably go, Lil’s waiting for him back home, but he doesn’t want to leave. Not when it’s been weeks since he’s last seen her. “You always look amazing. But you already know that.”

Penelope wanted to just stomp away, sulk back home, and move on.But she had been doing that for weeks and nothing was changing. She wasn’t sure what more she could actually do when it came to ignoring him and now that he was just right there....it was harder than she thought it would be. “I don’t like not seeing you,” she said,so quiet that she wasn’t even sure she had heard herself. She cleared her throat. “I.....don’t like this. I don’t like that you kissed Mabel or whatever....and I don’t like that you aren’t begging on your knees for me back...and I don’t like that you don’t know a lot about me or....or the fact that I actually care about you. Or whatever.”

[tcmmylcrscn]

“Okay just, like, get a hold of yourself. You’re messing up your makeup.” Tammy sighed, shaking her head. The role was dramatic, sure, why a blubbering mess was never attractive to an audience. She forced a smile, thanking the girl on stage while simultaneously shooing her away. “Ok, NEXT!” She hollared, waiting for the next person auditioning to take the stage. Community theater was a stepping stone for her future career, sure, but she still took it seriously. And she was very particular about new members she allowed into her troupe.

[princesspenpen]

Penelope knew that wherever she went, so did the cameras. She was a star, plain and simple, and she made sure everyone and anyone knew it. So auditioning for this community theater thing was just another ploy for attention that she knew she would do amazing at. She was amazing at everything. Every. Thing. So when she walked on the stage, a few mins late so she was fashionably late asof course, she blew a kiss to the girl holding auditions. "Alright baby girl. I'm here and ready to add the dazzle to your group that I know your other members don't have,mmkay? When's the first meeting?"

[luvtalked]

@CIERRARAMIREZ  on  instagram  .

[princesspenpen]

dirtydeville​:

Ever since getting the job at the Lucky Cat, Phil had been pretty much living entirely off of the leftover baked goods from the cafe. Cass gave them to him for free every night, so why would he bother to go out and spend his hard earned money on anything else? Well, according to Lil that wasn’t a good enough excuse anymore and she had forced him to finally go grocery shopping. It hadn’t been the most successful of trips, considering he had only bought a bunch of junk food and snacks, but hey she hadn’t given him a list so what did she really expect? He was just leaving the store when he slide over slightly to the side automatically to let the person entering come through. Except they didn’t. They just stopped in their tracks, intriguing Phil enough for him to finally take a closer look at who it was. “Oh,” he breathed as he took in Penelope standing right in front of him. She looked…. different. Not in a bad way - he still absolutely thought she was the hottest person he’d ever laid eyes on - but in a way that screamed something was wrong. Even when they were just hanging out one-on-one Pen was rarely ever that casual, always dressed to impress even if no one else was around. It was concerning and before he could think his words through they were coming out of his mouth. “Are you okay?”

Penelope was taken aback by his question. Sure, she wasn’t glammed up at the moment,but that didn’t mean she didn’t look hot enough to be passable. She just looked like she was ready for her paparazzi shot. “I’m fine,”she mumbled, looking around to avoid looking at him. “Just wanted some ice cream. It’s no big deal or whatever...” She trailed off, her brain desperately trying to come up with something. She refused to look like she was heartbroken over him and their fight. “Don’t be dumb I’m always okay.....But you can stop staring at me. I know I look amazing.”

[princesspenpen]

@dirtydeville​

It had been over a week since Penelope had seen Phil last and that was honestly sort of new for her. She hadn’t realized how comfy she had gotten to him just being around almost all the time. The way he smelled, the way he smiled down at her because he was so fucking tall; she hated to admit it to herself, but she missed him. She missed him so, so, badly, but she wasn’t really sure what to do with that. When he reached out to her, she ignored it. She was ignoring everyone really. She ignored her socials even, which was so unlike her she was convinced that she had been possessed by aliens. She just sat at home and watched k-dramas about beautiful people who understood romance and drama and fun without fights that hurt. But she had run out of ice cream and was not a fan of that. So she put on her favorite sweats, big sunglasses, hair tied, and made her way to the store. She ignored everyone who called her over and all of that; at least she tried but then she saw him leaving where she was entering and she stopped dead in her tracks like an idiot. “Fuck,” she whispered under her breath, pushing her glasses up and trying to not look up at him. She was still frozen in place, but she wasn’t making the first move.

[h01vd4l]

[princesspenpen]

real feelings about phil?

“Real? Everything I say is real. And Phil is someone who comes off as the best kind of person ever. Like he comes off as the chillest most perfect person. And he comes off like someone I could settle down with and be like in love with even. Like someone who is super cool and weird and on my level. But in reality, he’s gonna be like the others. He’s gonna leave when I’m no fun anymore and he’s gonna get tired of me. That’s what people do. And that is on period.”

@dirtydeville

[princesspenpen]

dirtydeville​:

When Pen had finally contacted him about meeting up, Phil should have seen the warning signs just within the texts. But due to his own stupidity and the bit of alcohol in his system he had walked out the doors blissfully unaware of what was awaiting him. Though from her first question the smile that had been on his face melted right off and he stood up straight as tension filled his shoulders. “Yeah, I was,” he answers, though his words aren’t harsh or filled with any malice, just honest. “I thought you probably were too. Mabel seemed to want to kiss everybody, so I bet if you went back in there and asked she’d be down…” Phil wasn’t sure what exactly or why he was saying all of this, he just desperately wanted to try to defuse the situation before it could potentially explode. “You - you aren’t keeping me from anyone. Just like I’m not keeping you from anyone either… I… I thought that’s what you wanted?”

Pen rolled her eyes at him. Of course that was what he thought she wanted! That was what she made it look like! She has always been the one breaking people’s hearts and not getting close to anyone so seeing Phil going along with her ways and not being pushy or clingy was not something she was used to. She never thought it would bite her in the ass because she normally got over the guys she was with and dumped them harshly. But with Phil she actually liked having him around and she was..dare she say it....jealous of him kissing other people. But she couldn’t let him know that. He couldn’t see her weak. “Yeah whatever,” was all she said still not looking at him. “It’s fine.”

[princesspenpen]

@dirtydeville​

“So...having fun and stuff?” Penelope asked, clearly annoyed. They had finally texted each other to meet outside but Pen had seen what he was up to on her way back. She should have known this was coming, but she still hated it. “Mabel’s a good kisser, no? I mean I’ve kissed her before but not tonight and not at a rave, so you got me beat.” She pouted, but didn’t look at him. “I don’t want to keep you from other girls and junk.”

[cierragifs]