10.11.23 2:18am EST
Whew, reading some of my previous personal posts got me so fucking emotional, moreso than I already have been tonight!
So, long story short, I'm getting a divorce. I don't think I'm ready to make all of the details and reasons why public any time soon, if ever. What I will say is that in this time of true separation, I have begun to go to a DV/IVP support group every week and have started going back to therapy every other week. I'd go every week if I can afford it but alas, I'm a broke bitch LMFAO.
Would I be me if I wasn't already accidentally in a situationship? Welp. Here my dumbass is, head over heels for a man half way across the country. At this point, I fully acknowledge I don't always make the best life choices, that being said, he's been a fairly positive one so far.
Outside of broken and new relationships, I have changed so fucking much as a person. Honestly, in just the past 5 months alone, I've gone through such a radical metamorphosis in how I not only approach myself but others. It very much feels like I'm in sort of a new plane of existence and being in a lot of ways. I feel like I've definitely been elevating myself and for once actually valuing myself and attributing true worth to myself. I feel as though most of my delusional self-confidence in the past was much more another mask I was wearing than anything else.
Oh yeah, I'm autistic now too! Well, I always have been, but at least it's now being recognized and I am making accomodations for myself that vastly improve my life.
Tldr; life sucks and is hard, that being said I'm still growing like a string bean 😎
I think I'm going to start posting journal entries on here again because honestly, I haven't journaled much in all in the last past half decade and y'all know you miss my chaotic emo posts.
















