addie♡

23 • she/her • Currently emotionally sponsored by Death Becomes Her ❤️

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I hope you know that someone out there adores your writing, even to the point that they went and tracked down all of your social media to try and figure out what happened to them lol

I hope you one day put them back up, even anonymously, because your writing is so absurdly amazing.

I hope you don’t think I’m pressuring you to put them back up immediately, I’m just glad that you didn’t delete them all together.

Tldr, your fics are great and so are you!

Heyyy lovely! Hahaha, well, now I know, don't I? That's so very sweet!! 🥹 Thank you for reaching out, and for scouring the internet for me and my fics hehehe. That genuinely means a lot, and I'm sorry I made it so difficult 😅 You're always welcome to send me an ask or DM whenever and wherever 🙂‍↕️ I could always send you copies of any of my fics if you ever wanted one — they're not lost forever! 😆

I think I've changed a little since writing those stories, and so has my relationship with writing. So I'm still figuring out what I want to do with those fics (hopefully not delete them cause they really are precious to me in their own way), whether I'll be writing again anytime soon, and what that might look like. Hopefully, I'll figure it out sooner rather than later... for both our sakes 😂

Either way, this was such a lovely surprise to wake up to! Thank you so much for taking the time to send this. It genuinely made me smile 💕💕💕

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In Addie’s eyes I’m a fossil 💀

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A fossil? Yes. But a very lovely fossil! 🙂‍↕️ So glad you survived the turn of the millennium! Now I get to annoy you forever, mwahahaha 😈

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Been feeling slightly less horrible, so we're taking a gamble and posting thoughts that come to me that might one day turn to fics/part of fics cause I'm tired of keeping them to myself.

So random MadHel hc ig...

Set whenever, just assuming their bodies work somewhat normally.

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Helen loves taking Madeline to the beach and tries to do so as often as she can. Whatever anxiety Hel has about being in a bathing suit evaporates the moment she sees Mad in her own. Because no matter how much sunscreen Mad slathers on (or Hel slathers on her :3), by sunset, Hel knows Mad's freckles will have doubled in number.

Everywhere! Across her nose. Shoulders. That one stripe across her lower back where her swimsuit tie sits.

So they have a ritual. Get home, wash the salt off, and collapse in bed together. Mad lies there, hair still damp, wearing Hel's softest t-shirt, old and raggedy and obviously well-loved. She's already falling asleep.

She's warm and golden and Helen's. All that sunlight she soaked up that day belongs to Hel now. Every last ray. And all Hel can do is curl around her like a flower turning toward her own personal sun. All Hel can do is pull her closer.

Hel's fingertips start tracing, and she starts counting. She knows the permanent ones by heart: the three on Mad's left collarbone, the one shaped almost like a heart below her ribs, the constellation across her knuckles. She kisses each one as she finds it.

Old friend... Old friend...

Over here? No, that's new. Kiss.

That one got darker. Longer kiss.

You got sun here, of all places?! Soft laugh. Kiss.

She finds one on Mad's wrist that wasn't there this morning. Presses her lips to it.

By the time she's done, she's kissed every single one she could find.

By the time she's done, Mad is asleep.

But Hel stays awake a little longer. Just counting.

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Companion fic to Mapping Constellations? Mayhaps. One day. Someone remind me 🫩

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Someone on twt said "froggy madhel" so here we are. They’re still toxic lesbians, just... wetter now.

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yesyes, hopefully this can be a means of free writing and letting the gears turn without anything blocking them yk?

hope youre well, pookie :3

Yeah, I hope so too! And I'm hanging in there, thanks for asking 💕

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addie you fucking genius 🙌

lmaooo tyyy. Ngl, it took me a second to figure out what this is about. Didn't think she'd actually do it 😂 I hope it's at least working, and she feels better 🙂‍↕️💕

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oh my god I put the pieces together finally… for weeks I’ve been like… “what are these hidden fics in my bookmarks” and they’re YOURS 😭❤️ oh my heart. this is not me begging you to put them back immediately, by all means take your time! but the way my heart DROPPED when I realized this like I hope you realize how truly, truly special they are, and what an amazing writer YOU are! mapping constellations is kind of The madhel Fic Of All Time to me ANYWAYS just popping in to say I love your work and am glad to hear you didn’t delete them entirely!

Oh wow, this made me tear up 😭💕 I honestly didn’t realize they meant that much to anyone

​And omg mystery bookmarks solved!! 😭 so sorry about that lol 😅

​Seriously tho, having you say all this about my fics (and me?? 🥺) genuinely means the world, and I don’t even know how to process it. Just thank you for being so incredibly kind! 💕💕💕

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Hello I was just wondering where did all your Madhel fics go? They were some of my absolute favorites to go back and read. You write them so beautifully! Will they be back up on AO3?

Hey 👋 thank you so much! Ngl, I didn't think anyone would notice 😬

​Tbh, life's been a bit rough, so I took a step back and ended up hiding all my fics. I didn't really have the heart to delete them haha, so they're not gone, just private for now. I hope. I do miss writing them tho.

​I'm not entirely sure yet if or when they'll be back, but I really appreciate you reaching out and saying this 💜

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Made a quick drawing inspired by That ChrisJen moment in Betsy's latest vlog.

Just had to put Ernest in his place (affectionate <3)

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omg girlie... yk how feel special got cut from the line up?

WE BEGGED FOR IT ENCORE AND GOT IT. HIGHLIGHT OF THE TRIP.

this past concert was actually the 4th time ive seen them! ive seen itzy 3 times, svt once,,,, skz, idle, riize, and lapillus,, literally the entire line up from kcon LA 2022 or 2023 i forgot. right now, priority is itzy since theyre currently on tour, may or may not travel to a new city for it idkidkidk 👀🫣🫣🫣 but yeah! i think thats my concert checklist so far 🙂‍↕️

omg luckyyyy 😭😭😭 Feel Special as an encore must have been amazing!! I keep hoping they'll perform more b-sides that they've never done live, but I totally get why people want the title tracks.

You've been to so many concerts!! 😭 No one ever tours anywhere near me (especially not now lmao) so I'm living vicariously through you 🙂‍↕️ I hope I get to see them someday tho 🥺

I'm so glad you got to experience all of that, and I hope you get to see itzy again soon!! 💕💕💕

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am an itzy stan (ryu biased wyaa)! but i love and casual stan many groups !! skz, iu, wave to earth, svt, you literally name it, i probably have it in my gym playlist 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️

and yes 🫣👀 i went to seattle for a twice concert in jan! originally we were gonna just do the LA one but my friends and i had a travel itch so we decided to crash at her cousin's place to explore seattle ! i miss it so much 😭 fortunate enough to see dahyun there too, she was either seated or in a stationary position the entire time while the girls interacted and made sure she got some lovin 🥺💕

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ngl all jype artists have a special place in my heart :3

If I had to pick an itzy bias, I think it would be a tie between yeji & ryujin 🤔 (the 'Break My Heart Myself' dance cover really did a number 🫠)

That's so cool!!! Again, totally not jealous 🫥 (Jihyo girlie over here btw 💛🙈). I'm glad you had fun!! And that you got to see dubuuu & show her some love 🥹. My poor babies, they all seem to be dropping like flies 😭😭

I have so many questions 😭 What encore songs did you get? Have you been to any other K-pop concerts? 👀

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oo girl dont even stress we're both working adults 😔🖐 i hear youre a kpop stan tho >.>

Hehe yeah, mostly just Twice tho 😋 wbu? I hear you went to one of their concerts recently 👀 totally not jealous btw 😭

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AUGGH FREN!!! hi pookie 🫶

*waves enthusiastically* YAYYY FRIEEENDSS!!!! 🥰 Sorry for the late reply. Life's been hectic 😅. My DMs are always open if you wanna chat btw 💕💕

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Honestly the quality is so bad idk even know man BUT a little fun edit of Twitch Streamer!Mad from a silly idea that @pro-missedagain and I talked about earlier today lol

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Pink goes good with blue 💙🩷

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fren? 👀

Yes! Hi! 🥺💕

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Here goes nothing. Officially calling this my Trifecta of Trauma: Comphet, Religion, and of course, Mothers.

Deep breaths, yeah?

Ch.4: Joy of Heaven 😇